Unsent messages to COLLIN
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: July 16, 2023, 10:25 pm UTC
everything makes me think of you now.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: January 18, 2021, 5:10 am UTC
some days i fucking hate how you make me feel because itâs clear as god damn day you want nothing to do with me but i canât get you off my mind so fuck you for making me think you loved me it hurts
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: January 10, 2021, 9:30 pm UTC
Remember when you told me looking into my eyes felt like home? Who feels like home now that I'm gone?
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: January 6, 2021, 9:58 pm UTC
HI BUBS you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. you are so amazing and beautiful and perfect and sweet and understanding and everything else. thank you for saving me. i wouldnât be here or be happy without you. i miss you so much ê§ê§
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: January 6, 2021, 3:43 am UTC
i want to talk to you so bad but i'm scared that will really be the end. i miss you so much but i'm not ready to talk to you, i don't know if i'll ever be
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: January 5, 2021, 4:46 am UTC
i have no idea why but i like you so much and you could literally kill my dog and id still want you and itâs not even fair to me cause i deserve so much better but i feel happy when i talk to you even when you say something small like yes. and iâm also sorry cause iâm really bad at showing and saying what i want and i wished i would have told you when i had the chance to. i hate so much that i like you again
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: January 4, 2021, 4:21 am UTC
I wrote this in light blue because I know you love this color. Something about you is so special. You are so special and I want you to know that.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: January 3, 2021, 10:40 am UTC
Itâs shitty that our friendship had to end the way it did; so abruptly. It was the moral differences that made up my mind. You tried to blame the fact that a Visibly pregnant woman was pulled from her car and had her stomach stomped on so hard that it left a boot shaped bruise and killed the baby on the mother instead of the man who did it.This was the final straw that broke my back (among other things compiled over the past three years). Maybe I shouldâve given more explanation, but cutting you out was the only logical thing to do after youâve lodged the knife in my back so many times. That said, I will never EVER discount the times you were there when I needed you to be, when nobody else was. That being said, Iâm mourning you Collin: Iâm mourning the dumb sweet boy who wanted to save the world, to protect people âbecause that boy is dead. I donât know when that side of you died, or if it just malformed into something monster and husk-like over time, but it was horrifying to see what youâve become, which was why I couldnât watch it anymore.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: January 3, 2021, 5:17 am UTC
i love you so much. iâm glad we are back in each otherâs lives. youâre my person. you get me. iâm beyond thankful for you i truly love you
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: December 29, 2020, 5:11 am UTC
i really wish we could be friends, but you had to be an asshole last year. you have changed but if people knew we were hanging out they would be hurt
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: December 15, 2020, 2:07 am UTC
i love u, always have and i always will. since day 1 u were so good to me. someday, someplace maybe we'll work. but until then, I hope she makes you happy
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: December 14, 2020, 6:35 am UTC
itâs funny cause I gradually stop thinking ab you over time. For some reason, I sometimes reflect on you for just a second and it completely changes my emotions for the day. Like damn, maybe if u put myself out there you would acknowledge me. Itâs been like that my whole life. Time to pack up and move on to the next. But if it feels any better, I loved you over anyone the most. I pondered and dreamt about you the most. I still do.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: December 13, 2020, 4:41 pm UTC
I was immature and selfish. I never meant to hurt you. Iâm sorry. I canât take back what I did and that hurts me every day.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: December 8, 2020, 5:24 pm UTC
i wish i was able to love you as much as you love me. this world would be a better place if everyone had the soul you did.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: December 7, 2020, 5:25 pm UTC
I miss you, bubby. No matter what happens, where you move or who we date...Iâll still love you. Forever and always.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: December 7, 2020, 2:53 am UTC
you are love. and you are light. and you hurt me every day. but i know it's not on purpose so i could never tell you
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: December 7, 2020, 2:37 am UTC
i just hope i donât fuck this up, youâre the only person iâve ever known thatâs fascinated with me and want to know everything about me
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: November 30, 2020, 2:51 am UTC
quizĂĄ nunca volveremos a estar juntos, o a vernos pero...siempre serĂĄs el amor de mi vida, te lo aseguro que quiero seas el padre de mis hijxs y dejarte ir es un jodido infierno pero tĂș Hasi es feliz con alguien mĂĄs...solo porque tĂș me lo pediste..
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: November 25, 2020, 12:27 pm UTC
i am so unbelievably in love w you bb, iâm sorry things are weird right now. i hope they get better soon so we can be happi, and i know they will. iâm sorry i get jealous easily, i call that ~trauma~ i really do trust u
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: November 24, 2020, 1:58 am UTC
I am sorry that I feel out of love. It hurt me to see you miss me and I wish I could take it back some times
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: November 23, 2020, 6:31 am UTC
I still create scenarios in my head about us getting back together but I know if you ever came back to me I wouldnât take you back, not now anyways, God has something bigger than we can imagine for us. I hope one day we meet again. I know Gods plan always prevails and I wish you the best. I will always love you even though you did me wrong and Iâm too good for you anyways ?
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: November 19, 2020, 9:56 am UTC
Hey collin, you were my first real crush in high school. Thanks for being terrible at art, it made me laugh.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: November 18, 2020, 4:37 am UTC
you say you truly loved me, yet you tell others it was all a joke. i just want to know, was any of it real?
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: November 18, 2020, 1:02 am UTC
You were the only guy who made me feel something. And before I knew it I wasn't even able to say goodbye.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: November 2, 2020, 12:19 pm UTC
hey bub, i love u more than anything and i am so lucky to have u, but sometimes it hurts. i get in my own head and think about all the things u have already done w her and itâs a different typa hurt. ik it doesnât matter and u love me but just some random thoughts. i hope we stay together forever
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: October 27, 2020, 10:11 pm UTC
I miss you. I'll miss you every day forever. I'll never stop loving you. I'm waiting for you. After everything, I'm still here, waiting for you to choose me. Come back. M
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: October 8, 2020, 9:28 pm UTC
itâs been over a year and iâm still afraid of falling in love with you again if you would just look me in the eyes long enough. i wish i could apologize for what i did to you, i hope youâre happier now.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: October 5, 2020, 8:27 pm UTC
I feel like you donât love me anymore. I donât know how to bring this up because every time I do you say you love me but I know you donât
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: October 1, 2020, 9:12 pm UTC
You are what i have wanted forever, but i donât think you will ever feel the same as I do. You are the most amazing person I have ever met in my entire life and i feel good around you, Thank you for everything. Even if it canât what I wish it could be.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: September 29, 2020, 8:08 pm UTC
I wish I would have listened to everyone else when they told me you were bad for me.. you broke me but yet somehow I still hope that you are doing well...
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: September 26, 2020, 10:52 pm UTC
i do come on here a lot. i don't know what i need but i haven't stopped thinking about you which makes me feel like we should talk. call or text me
emily (em)
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: September 9, 2020, 10:28 pm UTC
If only you knew I stared at the ground when you passed me in the halls. I was too nervous to even look at you I was so in love.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: September 7, 2020, 10:17 pm UTC
I miss you, I know you left because you didn't want to get hurt. But it hurt me so I'm forcing myself to move on and I know its hurting you but sitting thinking you may overcome your fear of getting hurt hurts me a lot more than acting like i'm not still in love with you.
From: ABC
To: collin
Date: September 7, 2020, 2:48 am UTC
i wish you liked me the way i liked you. nothing would ever happen though. youâre older than me and probably donât see me that way.
