Unsent messages to CLAYTON
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: November 4, 2023, 6:26 am UTC
How could you do that to someone who loved you with everything they had in them?
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: October 28, 2023, 2:54 am UTC
I’m waiting on you… always forever
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: October 24, 2023, 8:27 pm UTC
I think about you still.I hope you’re at least loyal to her since it couldn’t be me.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: October 9, 2023, 4:25 am UTC
after all this time I’m still not over u. I still cry over u, think abt u all the time
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: September 29, 2023, 3:49 am UTC
open your eyes - i’m in love with you!
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: September 14, 2023, 5:56 am UTC
Am i just a nuisance? Were you really trying to get away from me that badly?
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: August 28, 2023, 6:10 pm UTC
i hope you do amazing things and i hope i never hear about it
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: August 9, 2023, 6:56 am UTC
I really thought you loved me as much as I love you
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: January 10, 2021, 6:00 pm UTC
The place we had our last memory closed down. It was all I had left of you, I miss you endlessly. Visit me in my dreams soon my love❤️
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: January 6, 2021, 11:03 pm UTC
Thank you for being such a good friend. You are always there when I need you the most and I am so excited to see where this friendship goes.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: January 6, 2021, 1:29 am UTC
fuck u, u hurt me so much so many times. you absolutely shattered my heart, but i still cared about you, more than myself.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: January 4, 2021, 8:44 am UTC
I hope you stumble across these. Every single message i write is connected. To make it a little easier my first submission was right before this one. The background will always be black, it reminds me of the way you’d always paint your nails. I would paint my black as well because I secretly wanted to match. Anyways I hope the new year treats you right, because you really deserve much more then you realize.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: January 4, 2021, 8:37 am UTC
I’ve been thinking about you every single day for past few months. I wake up each day and my soul is just aching, Idk if I loved you but I know I loved how you made me feel. I felt safe, Understood, for the first time in my life I wasn’t alone. Maybe us meeting was one of those things that happen to teach you a lesson, yet even if that’s all it was I REALLY FUCKING MISS YOU. The only thing I want out of this life is to share the feeling of bliss together like we both wanted. If I can’t have you that’s okay, as long as I can share a memory of us being happy.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: January 2, 2021, 1:38 am UTC
you asked a girl for nudes while we were a thing then decided to lie about it and date me till april when you got bored. then you came back and broke me all over again using the excuse that i “wasn’t the right girl for you”. ur so fucking emotionally immature. grow up and learn how to deal with your own feelings before you go and toy with other peoples. you loved me and i loved you. but i don’t love you anymore, i miss you but i don’t love you anymore. i wish we were still friends though, we were best friends before all of this and that, that is what hurts me the most. hope you find this one day. and ik you’ll know that it’s for you.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: December 30, 2020, 7:56 pm UTC
I fell in love with the version of you I created and I am happy to say I am no longer in love with that version because it was the only reason I held into you.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: December 17, 2020, 12:21 am UTC
i’m with you right now and i love you more than words can explain, but sometimes i feel that you aren’t grateful for me and you don’t care as much as you say you do.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: December 8, 2020, 4:17 am UTC
I know my fear was why we never worked but I still hope that you'll text me saying you missed talking to me
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: December 5, 2020, 10:02 pm UTC
After a year i’m still having trouble getting over you. i know it’s crazy i was just so in love with you. I miss you so much. I sometimes wonder if you think about me but i doubt you do.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: November 25, 2020, 7:37 pm UTC
I saw you on someones story, i replayed it over and over. I am trying not to miss you but i just cant help it.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: November 25, 2020, 4:06 pm UTC
I should’ve tried harder. I miss you.. maybe if I tried harder you would still be here.. I fell for you in february.. and I haven’t gotten up since.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: November 24, 2020, 3:16 am UTC
I wish we didnt become distant. I wish you could hug me one last time. There is still so much i want to tell you. I love you, even if we were not serious at all and even if you didnt love me.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: November 23, 2020, 9:45 pm UTC
i love your shoe collection so much u have no idea. we should hang out and hopefully u won't cancel. i really wnna get to know you and talk on things
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: November 15, 2020, 6:41 pm UTC
You finally came back and I have no idea what to make of it. I'm quite frankly scared to death. You're the guy I want to end up with the one I compare everyone else too and I don't know what you want why you came back and I don't know what to do. What you want me to do to mend things and get back to the way things were because I still would do anything to get back to things were but all I can do now is sit and wait to see what happens and it's driving me insane. I still love you
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: October 2, 2020, 2:19 am UTC
cowboy clay.. you were always so kind and the funniest person i've ever met. i’ve never connected with someone quite like i did with you. but i still fucking miss you and i don’t know if i’ll ever forget or forgive myself for what i’ve done, i hated when people did to me what i did to you, lied. i just hope, if you ever see this, that you know i’ll always hold our connection dear to my heart, you meant the world to me and i never saw that through the pessimistic view. i needed to lose you though i will admit, i only wish i had a way to get you back. i suppose fate will decide and i pray you come back more that i think you ever will know. :((
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: September 28, 2020, 9:14 pm UTC
i hope that one day you’ll give me a chance to love you the way i know how to but until then this is goodbye
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: September 28, 2020, 4:51 am UTC
i feel like you are all i want and all that i can't have. you reel me in and then all of a sudden pull back. and i hate you for it. i hate you for not being straight up and telling me how you feel. and if you really dont want anything, then why didnt you tell me that months ago? why did you feel like you should waste my time like this? just be fucking honest with me PLEASE.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: September 24, 2020, 4:37 pm UTC
I was too young, and you knew that. How could I fault you for it? I wonder if you were in love or were just lonely. It plagues me to think I wasted my best years upset over you.
From: ABC
To: clayton
Date: September 15, 2020, 6:42 am UTC
I broke down my walls for you. Shared things I've never shared with anyone. And I...I don't know why. But I think...I think it was a mistake. I should have never let you in like that, especially when I've never met you. Your thousands of miles away, and I may never meet you, who knows. But I...I can't help but feel stupid for thinking you cared. Thinking you were better than the rest. But maybe...maybe your not. I'm sorry.
