cowboy clay.. you were always so kind and the funniest person i've ever met. i’ve never connected with someone quite like i did with you. but i still fucking miss you and i don’t know if i’ll ever forget or forgive myself for what i’ve done, i hated when people did to me what i did to you, lied. i just hope, if you ever see this, that you know i’ll always hold our connection dear to my heart, you meant the world to me and i never saw that through the pessimistic view. i needed to lose you though i will admit, i only wish i had a way to get you back. i suppose fate will decide and i pray you come back more that i think you ever will know. :((