Unsent messages to CESAR

You made me so happy, you were all I has and you left me like it was nothing. You didn't deserve me. I was so fucking in love.

I wish I never told you how I felt but I couldn't hold in my feelings for you anymore. I ruined our friendship.

at first we started off as friends and our relationship only grew from there, i truly believe that you are my first love, but sometimes it seems unfortunate. i will never be able to pinpoint where it all went wrong but somehow it always feels like my fault, when it was mutual. now as we have no ties to eachother. you hit me up randomly, my friends call it manipulation but i make myself believe you have had a change of heart and maybe feel bad for the way you treated me and the way our friendship ended. you will always have a place in my heart but sometimes i wonder if you even should. so i ask this with my whole heart, please stop using me as a back up plan, it only hurts me more. some days i wish i never had met you. but i guess i will just have to deal with your inconsistent 'love' or whatever you may call it. also please stop messaging my siblings and my friends about how you miss me, because everytime i try you push me away. thanks for showing me that romantic movies are just fantasy and that loving someone truly can hurt you.

peace & love