Unsent messages to CECILIA

I never knew love until I met you. I genuinely think you're my soulmate, Cece. I hope we're able to pull it together and talk it out one day.

Hey Ceci, i want to say thank you for being my besty. glad we over came stuff and became kpop stans together (even though i was the one who became one) n e ways, thank you besty. ily

i miss you so much, i wish i hadn't ruined what we all had when i did. please take care of those two for me, you three will never understand how much i really did and still do love you

ok im writing this again because apparently the website crashed...hi cc, i honestly don't remember your favorite color but i think you said it was mint green. you probably don't think about me anymore, so i dont think you'll ever read this. I hope the person youre with can truly love you, in the way i wanted to. i also hope that you know the impact you've had on me. whenever i talked to you, i felt truly happy, as if i wasn't being judged. ironically, you'd tease me, but i know you genuinely cared. i think im ready to move on, as our relationship is probably a lost cause. we've both changed, are a country apart, and are in different stages in our lives. even though it hurt me so much seeing you lose interest and stop talking to me, i still don't regret staying up until 5 am talking to you. i know this is really cheesy, but im writing this to feel the closure i never got. ily, weirdo

I don't know what's worse -never speaking to you again or being your friend and nothing more? I want to be with you so badly, to be able to hold your hand on crowded streets and cuddle whilst watching our favourite movies. I want to always be there for you and be able to laugh, cry and smile with you. I want to fall in love with you and get into arguments and above all else I want to be your girlfriend.

Nunca pensé que este año sería así, si me lo hubieran dicho, apreciaría todos esos momentos que pasamos juntas.