Unsent messages to CAROLINE

I’m drunk but I know you see these and I deserve closure from you. it’s the Least you could do carolynnn

i thought we could be friends. why didnt you care? did i do something wrong? was i annoying? its been more than a year now. i miss you. did you ever think about me?

I overheard that she was 19. she had a fake ID and a nose ring. those kinds of girls tend to know things better than I do.
I will never be able to forgive you for what you did, but thank you. thank you for the memories we had. you gave me some of the best times of my life. then just like that you threw it all away. for a guy. congrats. you lost someone who would've done anything and everything for you (and did do that for a year). you hurt me so bad. and that's something you will always have to live with. why did you do it?

i was there for you for over a year. i cried with you. i gave u shelter. I kept you alive. and u threw it all away. im in so much pain all the time. you fucked me over. why did you do it. why did you throw away everything we went through together. i hope it was worth it. i hope you're happy

You could hurt me a thousand times and I’d still love you as much as I did when we met. Unconditional.

even though its a bit awkward saying this, i came in the second last school day after i just broke up with my boyfriend at the time. i knew you were always uncomfortable with hugs so even in my most self empowering moment, i still respected that and listened you talk about what you were working on, after i told you, you were really happy for me. and you hugged me. that was just something i always wanted to tell you how much that meant to me. were not exactly friends anymore but i wish you the best.

Sometimes you don’t let me speak... you just speak about yourself and your problems all the time but I have things to say to

we’ve been friends for a while but ur actions this year have been questionable. i don’t know how to tell u i don’t want to be ur friend. maybe it’s bc ur a pisces.

if only you would know how much you hurt me... but, i still love you and i don’t know if that’s good or bad

How was it you that initiated everything, yet you're the one angry at me for keeping my distance when you asked me to.

I will never tell you about my crush on you. You’re the first girl I ever liked and you’re straight. I don’t want to lose our friendship

I just wanted to have someone that understands. Someone I could talk to who wouldn't treat me like I'm taking a medicine I don't know the side effects of. I can't stop on my own no matter how much I want to. And the way your trying to help is just triggering me more.

ok last fucking one bc its been like a year lol. i wish i could tell you everything thats happened since you ghosted me. you can text anytime

I still tell people youre my best friend. I love you so much i just dont understand why ive never been good enough. Im sorry for whatever i did or whatever i dont have please just remember im here and ill love you even when no one else will

I’m sorry that you had to go through all that. You’re a good person and don’t let those girls gaslight you into thinking you’re not.

Love, a person who cares about you

You are such a shitty person. I was such a good friend to you and you know it. You should've just apologized, but instead you had to go talk shit on me. I stood up for myself and you're mad.

i think i loved you so much, and it wasn't fair to you, you were my first heartbreak and one of my closest friends that i should have never loved so so much

So here's the deal: We have a pretty big friend group, and then we have a smaller friend group inside that friend group. But still there is always one person which you are especially close to, Sof has vic, alessia has claudia, and giuls has sara. You prob have vic or sof as the person you are especially close with. However, out of all of the poeple in our friend group, you are my best friend. You are the only person who would lay down in the middle of your living room carpet listening to zach brown songs while we are suppose to be doing our homework. You are the only one who will go to a sketchy nail salon with me and speak spanish/gibberish because we dont want to let the guy know that we want to leave, and then get barked at by a dog we did not even know he had. We will text and call off out chromebooks through this weird and probably illegal website, and make plans to do our summer homework in one week that we will never follow. This is all because you and I are just crazy enough together to be best friends. Thank you for making both fontbonne and just life so much better these past three years. You have no idea how much fun I have had with you and how special you have made fontbonne because you are there. I dont know where I would be if you had not taught me how to ride the bus, or the difference between a handshake and a drug deal. To be honest I would probably still be naive and innocent getting hit by a car crossing 3rd avenue. I know we are going to graduate and go to clemson together so there is really no point in saying this but I will say it anyways. I hope that I never lose you because I honestly dont know what my life would look like because you have such a huge part in it. I hope for many more west point camps, fake nail rite aid runs, and trips to the diner at midnight. I love you with my whole heart car. Thank you are being your amazing self and thank you for being my best friend.

it should’ve been me who didn’t make it instead. you had so much to live for. i can’t process it that you’re gone.

i wish i could show you how much you mean to me. you don’t think i love you, but it’s only like that because i’m scared to show you that i love you because that’s usually when people leave. but i really fucking love you girlypop.

i hate how we're drifting apart but then again, if you don't make an effort to keep me in your life ... why should i?

your smile makes me smile. i miss you. i miss hugging you. i miss being able to look into your eyes knowing it’s forever. i want that again. because when i see you next. i know that everything will be okay in the end, i want huggies. i love you so much girlypop.

you made me realize my sexual orientation,but you also destroyed me. i don't want to know you and i miss you at the same time.get out of my head and let me fall in love again.

I wasn't the greatest but let's not act like you were a saint. We both had our flaws and just chose to ignore them for too long. In the long run we weren't gonna work, but I learn a lot from you. I guess that's something

not sure why you never think how your actions impact others. the world doesn't revolve around you. you're the worst sometimes

You really fucked me up and gave me trust issues not even going to lie about that one. I know you were lying when you said you accidentally told me I was gaining weight. Why the fuck did you stop being my friend for her? Was I not good enough in your eyes? We went through so much and you threw it all away. But thank you. I still have that place for you in my heart. Because of you I know my worth now.

you are the reason i’m holding on. i hope you never forget how great you are. even if i don’t make it.

i love you soso much and i wish you knew how much i need u. no matter what happens between us i hope u understand that you mean the world to me and I'm so grateful to have you in my life. thank you for making me smile when i needed it the most and for making me happy, even if you didn't realise it. i wish that i could be there for you the way you're always there for me and hope that i can be. i 10000% believe that people are sent into our lives for a reason and i am so grateful that god brought you into my life. thank you for being my other half i love you more than words xo

We don’t talk anymore, and even though you never believed in astrology I still find myself checking your horoscope

I wish I could go back and tell you I loved you. I would have never been dating a man now if I had. There's so much I wish I could say to you.

I'm sorry i didn't realise i loved ya, if I knew I would love you to the moon and back, now you're happy and i've never found anyone who loved me besides you..

thank you for being my best friend and the realest person i know. i don't know what id do w/out u in my life. thank you for always being someone i can talk to and laugh with xo i love u soso much car

I was toxic to you. I’m so sorry for that. But I want you to know that I love you, and miss you. I know its almost been a year. But I really hope your doing well. If you ever need me i’m always here for you CC.

i’m sorry i met you right after her. but i know we’ll find our way back. we have to. i love you, always.

Last night you helped me in so many ways and you will never understand how much your words impacted me:)