I love you, I wish I told you more. I wish you would fight and choose me for once, thank you for everything I will never forget you

I trusted you. You left with like it was the easiest thing. When you came back I knew it wasn’t for long. Stay safe my love

hi, i miss you.
a lot. i wish i could hug you rn. but i can’t.

you’ve got someone else. please give her the biggest hug ever, for me. i don’t want her to feel the way i feel rn.
ive cried nights on end over a picture of us 2?

i remember the first time that i messaged you, you asked me who i liked. i told you he was blonde, funny, and his name began with a c. and you replied with, “wait is that me?” i said ‘yes ofc it is dummy’ and you said you liked me back. i remember how many butterflies i had like it was yesterday. and since then it was our word, and
‘i love you dummy

i wish i could put all my trauma into a box and throw it into the sea, i hope you remember what you did for as long as you live. i know i will.

I think about you everyday. Even though I never loved you and I never really knew you. We lived parallel lives, we went to the same schools with the same people for 14 years and yet I never got to know you, I’m sorry for that I’m sure you were just as amazing as everyone says you were. One thing I do know is your friends spoke so highly of you and loved you endless amounts - I can’t say I’ve ever heard a bad word about you. I’m sorry for what happened to you, I think about you and your family everyday. I know you’re looking down on the ones you love. You made the most of your life and I only wish you could’ve spent many more years enjoying life to it’s fullest - you really deserved it Cal. Gemma told me that you paint the sky whenever there’s a beautiful sunset, I think of you every time i see one. Although I didn’t know you well I knew you were a beautiful person who clearly had a beautiful soul. I hope you’re resting well cal, we’ll see you soon xx

i prayed to a god i didn't believe in to tell you i loved you every night but i cant even visit your grave, i'm sorry

There are still times I find myself thinking about you absentmindedly. I don’t know when I’ll be able to stop.

I miss u and i wish i had never ended it and its something i will regret forever cause i treated me amazing and i ruined it all, i hope youre happy with her u deserve it

You know I was too drunk, yet you did it anyway. You know you are wrong, you can’t even look me in the eyes. But you will move on with your life, whilst I’m left feeling confused, lost and violated by something I don’t even remember, unable to trust anyone around me.

Here I am 10 years later still looking at the notes we wrote. Please have a good life and even if you turn out gay I’ll be there
X

We could’ve been perfect together if I wasn’t so afraid of being vulnerable and now I see you happy with her and it breaks my heart.

its weird how i think i still miss you even though you made me into a shadow of myself. i like things that are bad for me too much

I was young and new to everything and you laughed and judged me you told everyone and still lie to this day

i hate you. i hate when you make me cry, even more when you make me laugh, i hate when you do stupid little things to help me because you know i can't, i hate when you compliment me and give me butterflies, i hate when you lay on my lap or put your hand on my thigh, i hate that you make me feel safe and i hate that i know you'll always be it for me. really i love you, but you don't, i hope one day you do.

You used me and hurt me but whenever you message I feel the need to message you back and make sure you’re ok

i miss you more then you'd know, but i just couldn't keep trying knowing you'd never feel the same, i love you always

I miss you always but I push you away because I’m scared you might want to loose me. I’ll always love you and I miss our face times while playing games and laughing at dumb things

Hey, its that girl u met at centre parcs 2019! i really enjoyed that holiday and wish i got ur snap, oh well i guess. Hope ur doing well

I don’t know, I am just scared that we are gonna break up and it’s stupid for me to worry about. Just like lately my mom have been pushing me to date someone around here and I don’t want to do that, I don’t know why she is doing that. i know it isn’t true but my mind is like let’s overthink thing , and I am just like worried you are slowly falling out of love for me because all I have been doing lately is just venting and complaining.

i miss you, more then i should. it's because i still love you, even though i hate you for breaking my heart.

Why can’t I stop thinking about you? I have a new boyfriend and I’m in love with him. But I still think about you daily. It’s not a longing or a yearning - it’s just there. Ever-present. Why?

Your princess, A.

i've never wanted something to work as badly as us. i'll always love you, but thankyou for teaching me to put myself first.

I loved u . I just wasn’t ready myself u meant so much to me but u moved on the same night so I guess u didn’t feel the same . I miss u ?

Started today thinking about you. And then my friend I spent the day with wore the same aftershave as you. If I blinked for a fraction too long it'd feel like we were walking down the road together. Do you still think of me?

the other night, i spent hours trying to see if i could find some way to get in touch with you. its been over 4 years now, you probably don't even remember me, but i think about you a lot still. i still consider you one of my best friends, and i miss you so much it hurts. im sorry relationship drama fucked up our friendship. i hope maybe one day we can talk again. hope you're doing well. all my love, e

you have no idea how much i love you and want you, you make every day things like walking home the highlight of my week x

Loving you was the best and easiest thing I’ve ever had the chance of doing, you’re my reason to keep trying and I know there is never going to be a deeper love in my life than you. I love you with my heart - Smush (I chose this colour because I know it’s your favourite)

please let go. it’s been over for years. yes i fucked up first but then you completely ripped the wound apart. sort your head out.

You did what you had to do, i just wish it wasn’t with me. never guessed i’d do the same thing to someone else all these years on. first year seems so much simpler now.

you filled my stomach with butterflies when you walked in a room. i miss you, and i miss that i feeling so deeply

you weren’t who i thought you were. you broke me and didn’t even care. i will always have a special place in my heart for you but i’ve let go. i deserve better than someone who treated me the way you did. you’ve destroyed me.

I don’t think you remember, but you told me you loved me.
I don’t think you remember, but I said it back.

I say I am over you and I try to distract myself with other guys. But none of them make me feel the way you did. I miss you but I could never say it.

I love you. Breaking up with you for him was the worst thing I’ve ever done. I’m sorry I wish we could be friends

i don’t know why i fell for u i wish i never did it kinda hurts that i fell for you but u will never know :( love becky

i loved you so fucking much until the day u broke me. The day you broke me i lost myself, you hurt me more then anyone ever has in my life and ive had a rough life, i though i could trust you, i though you'd do what you did. I wish you didnt do what you did to me. You fucking broke me, shattered me into a million pieces, changed me, i hate you and love you so much

the person ive been waiting to use yellow for , except we aren't friends anymore . I still think about you tho .

i loved you so much. i let everything you did slide and worshipped you. when you started to ignore me it broke me. it fucking broke me. i never did one thing wrong to you and you fucking broke me.

I’m so sorry, fuck I’m really sorry. I wish I could turn back the clock but I can’t. I miss you, you helped me in so many ways, and I helped you. But I feel like you don’t care anymore, which is partly my fault, I just didn’t want to cause anyone else pain and in doing so I hurt you and myself. Guess I’m a clown huh

You changed my life before you i was so sad and felt like ending it but you have a me a reason to live and you’ve made me so happy

i liked you but you didn’t like me ,, it’s g tho atleast we are still good friends and i prefer it that way

Just wish you'd make up your mind, part of me is sick of waiting for you but the other part just can't and won't stop.

i stayed loyal the whole time, maybe 6 months isn’t a lot but it is to me. unblock me i love you, you didn’t have to break me like that

I loved you with everything
We were perfect
I said if our paths crossed again I’d come back
It’s different now :( although I don’t want it to be

I can feel it coming, you’re pulling away and I know this feeling and I’m scared that I’m right. I just need you to reassure me that my mind is playing tricks because this feeling is taking over my whole body and making everything ache.

you promised me a forever but you left. i’m stupid enough that if you promised it again, i’d fall for it.

I fought for our relationship for so long, I did that until I had nothing left. Then after i had nothing you told me you were ready to give me everything. The hardest decision I’ve ever had to make was telling you I couldn’t go on any longer. I still love you. I think i always will

it’s been a year now.
i wrote a poem about you last year when i ended it, i did love you but i couldn’t stay. now you’re happy with someone else and sometimes my heart longs for what we used to have. but we were just kids and i was stupid. i’ll always love you though.

here’s my poem

Fuck you.

the pain is physical
wounded, it creeps in
mentally scaring
you leave them
undeniably lonely

fuck you

days obsessing over the hurt
why me?
enjoyable, a fun game,
tears leave memories
engraved forever

fuck you

believing i had no worth
unobtainable thoughts
racing
a constant cycle
one which can not be broken
even now

fuck you

weeks obsessing over the hurt
why me?
a chew toy, disposable,
words leave scars
imprinted to my soul

fuck you

moving on lures me in
i get closer
but i can't
his lips don't send shivers down my spine
his hands creep up
he's not you
i don't deserve this

fuck you

months obsessing over the hurt
why me?
rock paper scissors of my mind
your touch ruined me
i don't know how to live

fuck you

you said we were best friends. why'd you make me so uncomfertable and hurt and angry so many times then?

please don't leave, I don't want to remember writing this after you leaving. don't let go of these small hands.