Unsent messages to BUG

this is from past you to future you. youre the worst youve ever been right now and i hope it gets better for your sake, i hope youre still and here and get to live a life youve always wanted. let sienna go bruh shes not worth it, if she really loved you you guys would be dating already.

I hate you for what you did to me, even if there was no mal-intent. you’re just a dumbass. I hope u realize one day how badly your ignorance has hurt me. none of these other posts are from me- I don’t love you and I never want you to come back. I doubt you’ll see this but I need to scream this into the void.

you are warmth and safety and lying in sun rays. you mean so much to me. i'm terrified this will be sad to look back on

I dont know why i am feeling like this. It was a joke at first. But then i got a small crush. Knowing that you are with her, breaks my heart

I met you at the perfect time, you saved my life over and over again, and I ask myself why I couldn't save yours. After everything, it had to be you. But remember, I will never forget about you.

fuck. you. you hurt me so bad and you dont even care. YOU SAID I DID IT ALL FOR ATTENTION. go fuck yourself bitch

Move on you said it’s better for me this way do you not understand my soul aches for you that every time I lay next to someone else I close my eyes and imagine it’s you holding me in your head while we sing to eachother or watch movies move on I can’t see myself with anyone that isn’t you my soul aches for you I want to go home you’re all I have

I have a date this weekend. I wish you'd admit there's still something between us and ask me to not go.

you hurt me so much yet i still went back to you. if you hurt me again then f you. i gave you all i had.

we tried a lot. and we made it work, but you're not answering me right now. I didn't mean to push u that point.

I hate the fact that i cant get myself to hate you. I dont know what i feel and its not good anymore.

You always knew how to make me feel better. I’m sorry, I promised myself that I won’t bother you again.

Maybe you remember the weird nickname, maybe you don’t. Your memory haunts me, it’s been 5 years and your memory still lingers within the deepest parts of my mind. Sometimes I wonder if maybe all this time apart is so we can heal to come together again. I don’t know maybe that shits lame. But I just can’t tell if I still love you or the idea of you. I know I fucked up. I know I apologize too much. But I’ve never been more sorry in my entire life than when I hurt you. It’s been 5 years and I’ve never met anyone else like you. I really loved you. You’re still here in my daily routine, fuck you’re in every Coldplay song I listen to. And I listen to them to just remember the feeling of you. The safest moments of my life were spent in the comfort of you. Maybe it wasn’t our time. I agree it wasn’t the right time. And I’m sorry I didn’t accept that sooner, I’m sorry for apologizing, but I’ve changed. Maybe I needed time to be better for you. And who knows, but we’ll know. And you’ll find me again. I would give up everything just to hear your voice. But that would also mean giving up on myself and I can’t do that again. I want this again, I can’t shake the idea of not having you in my life. Whenever you’re ready, I’m here. Maybe we are just acquaintances, or maybe we’re just still healing. Either way, I will always love you. Even if you hate me still, David. I will always love you.

how do you really feel about me? i think I fell for you because of an accumulation of things, of your interests and your growth and just.. you. But I don’t know much about you. Id like to know.