Unsent messages to BRI

i wish i could make all your problems go away. i love you

I still think of you everyday. I wish we had more time.

I see a lot more yellow cars now that you’re gone.

Now I have to remember you for longer than I have known you.

You’ll always have a special place in my heart. Hopefully we can both grow enough to make us work again. If not i will always remember you as my best friend, despite the flaws in the friendship. Love you always ❤️

Bri's reasons to live day one:
All the foster cats are you're going to adopt in the future won't have a home

i love talking to you even when we have nothing to say. i love sitting silently by you. seeing you makes me happy. when you acknowledge me I'm happy. when you greet me I'm happy. i love you. i might always love you. who knows. you're amazing

you're literally amazing you've always been there for me and i love you so much i don't know if i want to marry you or just get to know you because i was pressured into having crushes at a young age but i literally love you so much and i know you may never know me back but i just wish you'd know that grass moss clyde rock sdjskdsdhsdkj you're amazing and you promised we'd be in a band together and be famous for our future and every time you say something that makes me feel like you care for me i just want to cry because you mean so much to me and i don't know what id do if i didn't meet you and i hope we can spend the rest of eternally together and I'm gonna cry

Everything about you I love. It just gets worse as the time passes because I can't stop feeling this way even after I know you love someone else.

I've been in love with you since we met in dance. But I know you're happy w/ him, so I'm trying hard to let go.

I don't know how I'm going to manage without you. It hasn't even been a full day I'm already struggling

You are the last thought in my head before I close my eyes to sleep, and the first when I awaken. You don't even know that I love you.

Bueno, es una carta de despedida para nosotros, lo que fuimos, aunque te tenga presente en mi cabeza todos los días. Te conozco hace casi 5 años, nunca me imagine el impacto y poder que ibas a tener sobre mi. Llegaste en mi vida en un momento que no necesitaba nada ni nadie, estaba tranquila, sin otras intenciones, sin querer nada, era muy chica para querer estar con alguien. Fueron pasando los días y meses, hasta que un día pude asimilar que sentía amor, mucho amor. Estaba enamorada, demasiado. Te convertiste en mi todo desde el 2016, pero nada dura para siempre. Ni la felicidad ni la tristeza. Me rompiste por primera vez el corazón en verano, enero básicamente. Me sentía vacía, rota, traicionada, sin ganas de nada, nunca pensé que iba a doler tanto un corazón roto. Te perdone. Porque sentía amor y te di mi confianza de nuevo. Lo que no sabía era que me ibas a romper el corazón los próximos 4 años. Fui creciendo, teniendo mis propias opiniones, decisiones, pude pensar en lo que me hacía bien y mal, pero todos la cagamos cuando crecemos. Infidelidades, mentiras, lágrimas, baja autoestima, inseguridades, desconfianza, problemas y más problemas. Mi amor por vos no había cambiado, aunque me hayas lastimado hasta el punto de romperme por completo. Me rompiste el alma. Y eso duele más que un corazón roto. Yo también la cague, me arrepiento de muchas cosas. La diferencia es que yo si pude lamentar, disculparme y asimilar las cosas que hice. Vos no.
Hace meses no hablamos, estamos en 2021, supongo que te fuiste con el 2020. Espero que te vaya bien en la vida, en tus relaciones, en todo lo que te propongas. Siempre dije que brillas lindo, y así es, más cuando sos feliz. Ojalá lo seas siempre, te lo mereces. Conocí tu peor y mejor lado, tus secretos y debilidades, son cosas que volverían loca a cualquier otra persona. A pesar de haberme roto en mil pedazos y reemplazarme tan rápido, quiero verte con esa sonrisa hermosa y los ojos achinados, quiero que todo lo bueno te llegue pronto y llegue esa persona que aguante tus demonios y a su vez, te haga el chico más feliz del mundo. Gracias por todo lo malo y bueno, me llevo muchas cosas de vos. Que te vaya bien y mucha suerte, desde lo más profundo de mi alma. Me despido de vos para siempre, esta vez es un chau, no un hasta luego.

I'm sorry I wasn't ready to come out. I'm still not. I'm glad you found the courage and someone who loves you. You deserve it.

Hi darling. Its me. We both know what just happened. Trust me it's the last thing in the world I wanted to do. I know you're my soulmate. Its just not our time. I'll find you again when we're grown up and healthy. We'll have the life we dreamed of. I need you to stay alive until then ok? You gotta stay for me. Stay for our future kids. You're the love of my life. My beautiful soulmate. I'll find you again. I pinkiee floppy mushroom promise

Why the fuck are you so fucking toxic. I want to keep being friends with you but you are so fake. It makes be sick

Damn, okay. Why are you so good at cup pong? A talent. For real though, you’re hella cool. I don’t have much to say about you but I hope to continue our friendship! :)

this is cringe but i'm putting this here cause i don't want to vent abt this to anyone else. i found out what you did when you went over there. why didn't you tell me? why did you lie? i fucking HATE you for that. i HATE you for not being honest and i HATE you for not bringing up any problems you were having to me. i HATE you for not communicating ur feelings and just going and cheating on me out of the blue. did anything even go wrong or did you just use me for validation? did you think i was easy to take advantage of or something? you're fucking twisted. you are not the person i thought you were. i was in love with someone that never existed. and you've had my hoodie since we broke up, i fucking want it back. and delete that 'i'm sorry' playlist you fucking ass

I am very sorry for everything. I know I have lost your trust but I hope we can be friends in the near future.

I loved you for years and put you back together when other people broke you. Now you’re getting married in a week to someone who isn’t me.

Doubt you'll ever see this but I hope you're doing okay with your new person. I'm happy now! I love you always. say hi to nug for me ;(

I doubt you'll ever see this but I'm so sorry. I'm happy now like you wanted. I'll love you always. Hope you're doing good.

I have no words left. This seems to be the worst part. I loved you in action. I loved you through deed and now that you’re no longer here. I can’t find the words to illustrate your presence, I have lost the ability to testify to the existence our love, and the story of my love for you is left stranded on a cliff awaiting your return. I love you, but sometimes I forget.