Unsent messages to BRETT

Freshmen year was rough bro. I still like you and I always will, even though you were toxic as FUCK. I hate that you have a gf. It hurts me every damm day. It hurts to see you hug her and be with her. I hope you found your person. Thank you for everything. You will always mean so much to me.

You will always hold a special place in my heart. When I think of you, I smile. Thank you for the memories.

you ment everything to me and then you went and cheeted on me after you pinky promised you would never sorry i want good enough for u

You were so bad for me. I did love you and I saw a future with you, but damn why did you treat me like that ? You were so controlling, got mad if a guy hit me up even though I told you and did absolutely nothing wrong, you even cheated on me and got with her a day after we broke up. You made me feel stupid, and I hope you realize how wrong it was of you to treat me like shit.

You were a mistake in my life. A lesson nothing more nothing less. I often wished I was with someone else when I was with you. How is it that someone can feel so alone with their lover right beside them?

Ha ha. Fuck you. I ask for boundaries and I get blocked? As if I haven’t been there for you for six years? Whenever I ask for anything the fucking world has to stop turning.

I know this is your favorite color so I thought I'd use this one. Every time I cry I find myself feeling better and better. I know I did love you very much but you couldn't love me the way I needed to be loved. The memories are gonna haunt me and I'll never forget you. But we just cant go backwards and its sad but true. This feels like some twisted nightmare. I thought we would be forever or at least have years. We were so in love. But love wasn't enough. I know I will fall in love again. My love is what made you special. One of the hardest things is knowing that you've touched me. The feeling of you lingers on my skin. I feel a weight lifted off of me yet somehow I'm mourning. I know in time I will be ok. But until then I'll keep writing and you'll keep realizing what you lost. I know it hasn't registered for you and when it does you'll want to come back. But you had your chance and you broke my trust. We can never go back. Those memories are still gonna follow me like a ghost. The empty promises lingering in my mind. But I will forget the hurt one day and one day I'll be happy again. I'm taking all the energy I put into you and putting it into God and my future instead. Who needs you when I have The Creator of the universe to help me. That's so comforting to me. At least now I can say I experienced young love. I'm grateful for you and everything you taught me. To anyone reading this, give your brokenness to God. Even if you don't believe in the christian God, just try. It helps. Anyways, I'm growing up, I'm getting stronger, I'm following God'd plan. Wouldn't be here without you, puppy. Thank you for everything. Love ya,
Darby.
PS- you found me, if you think this is for you it probably is. But don't contact me. Let me go. I'm home with the Father once again, I should've never drifted.

I feel empty lately idk what it is I just have no effort and no emotion , I've not been on my phone in two days nobody noticed x

I wish you just told me how you felt without hurting me. We didn’t know each other very long but I miss you, I’m sorry too.

Things are getting a bad again and I can feel myself getting mean. You’ll be back soon and I am afraid you’ll want to talk. I don’t want to talk. All you do is hurt me whether you mean to or not

you self-centered bastard. you lied to me and told me that you cared about me while you still talked to you "ex" gf. You made be genuinely believe that we would be together. I haven't ever liked someone as much as i liked you. I have never felt heartbreak the way that you made me feel and i never hope to see your face or hear your voice ever again. I genuinely hope the Faith is doing well but you...you can go to hell.

You lied to me and told me that you actually cared about me when you didn't. i never want to experience that heartbreak ever again.

Two souls don't meet by accident. I know you're going to do great things, and I will always care for you

i miss you so much. i wish i could go back in time and change something i did. wish we were still together, but ik it’s for the best:(

The whole time we knew each other, I was fully aware that you were just using me, but I liked you so much that I let myself be ok with it.

i still don’t understand why you always said that you never want to hurt me but that’s all you ever did

You broke me in a way that I didn’t even know was possible and the thought of your name still makes me sick to my stomach

You broke me in a way that I didn’t even know was possible and the thought of your name still makes me sick to my stomach

I hope you find your happiness and I hope you get to do everything you’ve ever wanted in this life. I’m so sorry I hurt you.

You came into my life when I needed it most. You saved me. But I cant tell you my true feelings because I don't want to ruin our friendship

You were my life line. the reason i wanted to live. Meeting you changed me. but now youre gone. you dont want me. you want her. ill always love you B

Okay so basically I like you. I wish you would tell me you like me too cause I think I wanna marry you.

i should have left the day you begged me to stay because in the end you were the one that ended up leaving me and i never recovered from it

You have to let me go, please. I’ll always answer your phone calls and that’s the problem. Please let me go

I love you. I know that I always will. I still want to be with you, no one else makes me feel the way you do. I love you more than words can decribe.
I miss you. please come back

I truly care about you and I hope you’re doing well. I won’t forget the way you kissed my forehead. Maybe it was nothing, but I always felt you were supposed to be in my life in some way

I know this is your color. I know you have 500 days of summer. I know you named the koala Nigel. I know that I'm deeply and madly in love with you. But I still don't know if you truly love me or if you're just in it for sex. And it breaks my heart to say that. Maybe one day I'll ask you to your face.

I’m sure I will spend the rest of my life loving you. I will compare everybody I meet to you. I will often dream about you, and always think about you. I’ll always wonder “what if?”, “why not?” and just “why?”. I should hate you, but to do that I’d have to stop loving you.