Unsent Messages

I know this is your favorite color so I thought I'd use this one. Every time I cry I find myself feeling better and better. I know I did love you very much but you couldn't love me the way I needed to be loved. The memories are gonna haunt me and I'll never forget you. But we just cant go backwards and its sad but true. This feels like some twisted nightmare. I thought we would be forever or at least have years. We were so in love. But love wasn't enough. I know I will fall in love again. My love is what made you special. One of the hardest things is knowing that you've touched me. The feeling of you lingers on my skin. I feel a weight lifted off of me yet somehow I'm mourning. I know in time I will be ok. But until then I'll keep writing and you'll keep realizing what you lost. I know it hasn't registered for you and when it does you'll want to come back. But you had your chance and you broke my trust. We can never go back. Those memories are still gonna follow me like a ghost. The empty promises lingering in my mind. But I will forget the hurt one day and one day I'll be happy again. I'm taking all the energy I put into you and putting it into God and my future instead. Who needs you when I have The Creator of the universe to help me. That's so comforting to me. At least now I can say I experienced young love. I'm grateful for you and everything you taught me. To anyone reading this, give your brokenness to God. Even if you don't believe in the christian God, just try. It helps. Anyways, I'm growing up, I'm getting stronger, I'm following God'd plan. Wouldn't be here without you, puppy. Thank you for everything. Love ya,
Darby.
PS- you found me, if you think this is for you it probably is. But don't contact me. Let me go. I'm home with the Father once again, I should've never drifted.