I loved you. You didn't love me back. Over time I learned that it wasn't you that I missed, it was the emotion. You taught me what love was not. F*ck you, A.

I won’t lie. I did have feelings for you, but I realized you didn’t see any sort of future with me in it and that I was your backburner person. Everything was always one sided because you couldn’t be bothered to put in any sort of effort. It’s hard to try with someone who never and still doesn’t care about you. I’m tired of always being the only person who tries. So I stopped a while ago and saw that I was right all along. I mean nothing to you. There has been so many times where I’ve wanted to talk to you, but then I remember that it got me nowhere so I stop myself every time. I really don’t expect to ever hear from you since that’s how it always has been. I just hope you’re happy.

I just don’t know what to do anymore. I still do have feelings but I’m so conflicted. I’m so lost. It’s like I’m hopelessly stuck in a purgatory of feelings that I can’t escape. I feel like giving up for good but a part of me just refuses to let go. I’ve never experienced this, I’m usually immediately past all of this but I’m stuck and I don’t know why. But you’ll never care to take the chance. Your focus would rather be on other people and continuing to make me feel unwanted and that I don’t matter to you. Mais c’est la vie.

i love you bubba. you love someone else now and it hurts like hell. i'm going to miss you making chocolate milk at 2am. make it with her now.

You were perfect. Everything a girl could wish for. Why'd you leave? Without an explanation or anything?

Although I was only temporary in mind; in my heart, you remain permanent, capturing a soft spot for yourself.

I thought maybe for once something finally might go right but it didn’t. I keep wondering if I did something wrong or if I’m to blame for all of this, just trying to make sense of what happened. I just wish things were different and not the way they are now

Maybe it was just my anxiety getting the best of me and I ruined everything by panicking? Maybe I didn’t communicate things properly? Maybe we’re both to blame for that. Or maybe you just wanted to use me

But I guess I’ll never know bc you could care less about anything having to do with me. It’s always been zero effort

You hurt me more then anyone could. The person I trusted most. Trusted so much that I didint even think to look, to pay attention to everything u were doing. It makes sense now

i’m not jealous because i think she’s prettier than me, i’m jealous because you think she’s prettier than me.

i have a lot of love for you, but i will never be able to love you that way. please give up on me. it’s suffocating.

I’d be lying if I said I didn’t want to talk to or see you cause I do. And I keep hoping it’ll happen

I’d be lying if I said I didn’t want to talk to or see you cause I do. And I keep hoping it’ll happen

I could move past it all if you bothered to put effort in, initiated and reciprocated. But that’s probably not going to happen and I just have to accept it

Most of all, I am genuinely sorry if I hurt you and caused you even the slightest bit of pain these past few months. Maybe you don’t think I did but I feel I have. I’ve beaten myself up over everything every day for months now, wondering how things might have turned out if I had done things differently. I wish I could change the past, I really do but I sadly can’t. But I can learn from it

I wish I could just tell you these things. The thing I hate most about myself is how guarded I am and how I have these walls built up. I’m still learning how to not close myself off

I really did want to stay but the voice inside my head told me you didn’t want me to when I saw signs that I’ve seen all too many times before. I let my own overthinking self sabotage what could have been and I allowed myself to follow a self fulfilling prophecy

i love you with everything i have. but you’re too selfish to focus on anybody but yourself. you said you loved me.

I lied to you when I asked if you wanted to be friends. I didn’t want that. I figured if you didn’t want me that I’d at least get to have you in my life still. Shot myself in the foot doing that. But I make my own decisions, I make my own mistakes

don’t even know if you even ever think about me or how you feel towards me. It might be too late but I hate the thought of you being gone and not in my life

I've always loved you, through all your mistakes and all those times I forgave you. You may have left, but I'm atill holding on. I'm keeping my promise of, 'I'll love you forever.'

It sucks cause I really want to tell you these things but I can’t cause I know you’ll just ignore me like you have been doing and that’ll just make me build my walls up even higher

i hope one day you can look back and realize just how much you put me through, how badly you damaged me. you are the reason why i am the way that i am

Thank you for showing me the true meaning of selflessness. My arms are still open, and my heart still beats for you. There will always be a place for you here.

i hope youre doing alright my love, i hope youre happy even if its not with me. we will meet again i promise.

I keep hoping that you’ll show up when I’m out with people you introduced me to, like I know I’ll be hoping to tonight. But I always end up disappointed by my expectations

fuck you. The stuff you did to me was so messed up, you absolutely broke me and still think its a joke.

The first time was magic but I let go. The second time, you were not the person from before. I let go

Please stop ignoring me all I want is for you to notice how hard I’m trying to make you happy but you don’t care.. if you don’t care about me anymore please just tell me and not leave me waiting for you to snap back thinking you care when you don’t, sure it will hurt but it’ll be better for the both of us in the long run :(

I am sorry for treating you badly. You did not deserve any of it and I blame myself for why you are how you are now.

Well I tried. I battled with myself for the past couple of weeks over whether or not to text you. Literally every. single. day. I finally worked up the nerve to do it fully knowing you’d ignore me which is what stopped me in the first place. Never will do that again. Guys like you are the reason why I’m so guarded so thanks for helping me build my walls up higher. Another unrequited love story for the books

i miss the way you loved me, i miss the way that you would tear the whole world apart if you lost me.

My feelings for you haven’t faded. There was just something about you that just felt right. Like there was this undeniable connection or maybe it’s all in my head and I was the only one who felt it

You ending things saved me. I found myself when you left me. I miss our togetherness but I no longer miss me.

i still somehow think we'll run into each other again. like planets, orbiting each other. only meeting briefly

I wish you knew how badly I want to talk to you but I don’t know what to say and you probably wouldn’t care if you never heard from me again

we had a spark until you moved away. now that you’re coming back, I don’t know what to think of you. I only know the you from last year. I mean, texting you have me a glimpse but you seem very different. god only knows how you are now.

you don't even know how much you mean to me and i don't know what i'm gonna do or feel if i ever see you again.

i love you forever bubby

did this really mean nothing to you?

I love you but you blocked me

idk how you moved on like we never meant anything

So funnay to think i beloved when u said u never loved her.

I miss you every day I wonder if you still think about me.You have no idea how much I care about you

I never stopped loving you. 13 years later you’re still my person.

i know i ruined us, but how did you move on so fast? i still see you in my dreams.

you will always be my first love

I will love you forever Beau. I’ve never stopped thinking about us.

I hope you know I love you