You hurt me more than anyone ever has in my life and I guess I wasn’t enough, even though I never hurt u

I think about the fact that you tirelessly tried to get all our friends’ trust back after the falling out; except me. It felt like you gave me a sense of validation and care that no one else was giving me at the time, however now that i look back we constantly talked about you. Fuck you for dumping all your emotional baggage on me and never asking how i was doing ONCE sincerely. You will not shut up about yourself, constantly talking about your intimate issues with various people in the early stages of a relationship is very misleading. You’re giving others the sense of a strong bond when really you just like to use them as an outlet. It’s really upsetting to think about the fact that i use to push myself to find ways to spend time with you, even if i didn’t have the money/ways to get there. And yet with all my efforts it was so easy for you to leave me behind. Fuck you for not valuing our relationship enough to fight for me, i did nothing but be perfect for you. You were in the wrong. Fuck you. No matter how much i miss you sometimes, i will never try to bring you back into my life because we are two completely different people now. You seem to have no similarities to the person i used to know. Fuck you wholeheartedly, people like you lead people like me to never be open to new people again. Oh and you’re definitely lesbian/bi but you’re very deeply in the closet. I would work on that lmaoo:)

I wish we could have another chance. We just needed more time, but I guess you weren't willing to wait. And that's too bad because I really did like you. Sometimes I miss you, even though we're still friends. Is that silly? Maybe it was just the right person at the wrong time...

hey, its me. do you still remember me? i'm not sure if you know me anymore. i wish you did, though. you were my mentor and role model and my heart completely broke because you left me. you left all of us, all four of us. you never even came to talk to us. i fucking hate that, i hate it. i miss you. theres so many things i want to tell you. i never got to tell you that, if it wasn't already obvious, i like girls. i watched the office like you asked. i watched it four times, all of it. whenever i would hear footsteps in the robotics room i would hope it was you coming to say hi. i'd get nervous but i'd be happy because you came back. i know it wasnt your fault and you're busy and i'm just a fucking kid. i know i'm some five-foot-tall sapphic kid who sucks at math and likes vanya hargreeves a little too much but i don't think i deserve to sit here and grieve over someone so bad. i hope you're doing well. i'm sorry.

how could you do this to me. I was so in love with you and you were so in love with me so how could you break me like that?

I wish so badly that I had been enough.

I love you and i would not have it any other way i hope that you continue to carry me on cod

i miss you. come back to me.

I love you so much thank you for giving me another chance

i know that we will find our way back to eachother. i’m gonna see u again. i love you barrett

you hurt me and i don’t even think you realize it. i thought we were going to be forever

I changed everything to stay, you changed everything to leave. You could’ve Atleast apologized.

you hurt me in indescribable ways but i still find comfort in ur eyes. and that hurts too. luv ya sm

i'm not angry, just disappointed that you seemed to only ever want physical connection.

I want so badly for you to love me the way I love you.

i think i fell in love with you and you barely notice me anymore

I wish I could've been loved by you

Even though I ended it, in the worst way possible I still think of u every day wishing I didn’t

I don’t think i ever actually got over you. i wish you the best.

I'm high rn. imy nd I'm sorry for getting into all that shi I promised I never would ever do.

Sorry for leaving you and everyone else. I truly do miss you

i prayed for u every night after you left i love u always

please never leave me. i think i'll need you forever.

I love u boy,you mean the world to me. I am here always & forever. u can tell me anything I love you

why are you ever serious about it?

u were probably the best online friend I ever had, I really miss you hope we meet again.

i have the biggest crush on you. you have the most beautiful brown eyes i’ve ever seen.

ever since i had that dream i cant stop thinking abt you

I would give anything to have actually tried with you. You’re still all I think about.