i miss you. i'm sorry that i lied, i couldn't trust myself to be in love- i was scared :/ i just wanna be friends again- but i know it's hard to go back to a time like that after all that. you probably hate me now anyway, which is fine, understandable.

fun fact- what happened between us actually inspired me to write a comic- and it's been something personal to me even before it all happened. I started thinking about it when we hung out at Barnes and nobles that first time- and eventually it changed into what it is today- you've been an inspiration to me ever since then :) wow. you're an amazing person and i miss you dearly, and i just want you to know that even if i can't get the courage to talk to you again, i'm still rooting for you to suceed and be happy in life- even if i can't talk to you. i'm proud of you. for what? just existing. something that i struggle with, so i'm really proud of you for being.. better than me ig lol

i was completely in love with you for three years. i know you had no clue. everytime i heard you had a crush on her, i would feel like i was melting into the floor. maybe it seems like such a strong love to me since i was so young with no ecperience. or maybe because i had never felt that way about anyone beofore. i have liked other people since then, but not the same way. it feel so stupid that i care this much, especially since we were never even close. i dont know how it happened or why it happened, but i know i fell in love and there was nothing i could do. over the next couple of years, it started to fade, but all it took was you asking me a simple homework question during lunch to make the feelings come rushing back. i know you never did and never will feel the same as i did, and it makes sense becasue i cant even come up with a logical reason why i cared so much. its the type of thing that by now, im over you, but if you were to ever come to me, i would drop everything and go with it. i cant even explain why, but it is what it is.

Don’t know if the love I have for u will ever fade but it hurts n I don’t even know why I love u ????