Unsent messages to ANDRE

Did love hit you and destroy you like it did me?

i know you might not love me anymore but i still love you more than anything else

i don’t know what we are and i don’t know how u feel but i’m so glad i met u

I miss you so much André. Your voices are like sea waves ethereal to my hearing and vision. See you.

We met at the very wrong time. I wonder now on what you cherish
and think of. Mine is just you.

I want u

That really hurt

I tried everything to keep you with me, but I wasn’t enough. After all this why do I still love you?

I still think about you everyday and hope that there's still us after everything that happened.

if only you knew how much i really like you :/ hope a miracle happens and we get to be friends

I miss you so much. Being away from you is too hard...

I hope you won‘t treat me like the others did. I am in love with you and I hope it ends well.

when i say i love you, i mean it. i love you. all of you.

you’re my favorite boy. i love you

I still love you. I don’t know how to stop loving you. It hurts to know you don’t love me anymore

I still love you. I don’t know how to stop loving you. It hurts me knowing you don’t love me anymore

Thank you actually

i wish we weren’t so easy for you to abandon.

I hope you learn to forgive yourself, your happiness is all I ever wanted.

Our relationship and my peace cannot coexist, so I moved on. I still think about you everyday too.

I still check my WhatsApp just in case

I am in love with you, and will always be.

missing you more than usual tonight
:(

i accidentally deleted our convo. now i miss u even more :(

I have a Crush on U , I just want you to know

Despite everything you did to me, I hope you're alright.

Did I ever meet you? Did you ever really want me?

I knew u were cheating on me before the night ended.

you're all i think about and everywhere i look.

i can’t stop thinking abt you, i miss you sm

I always did love you. I wish you the best moving on.

I can't listen pretty little fears without thinking about you

sorry. really really sorry.

I miss you

Yo se que juntos todo iba a funcionar, y te amo tanto y te extraño todos los días pero también se que separados todo va a estar bien y que te mereces el mundo y yo simplemente no soy ese mundo. Quiero que sepas que si no quería verte es porque el mundo se me viene encima cuando estás cerca. Pero también que cambiaste mi vida por completo, soy una mejor persona por ti. Me ayudaste a entender y aprender y crecer pero ahora tengo que hacerlo sola, y quisiera que pudieras ver la persona en la que me estoy convirtiendo. Y se que estás enojado, perdón por todo lo que hice pero yo necesitaba hacerlo para estar bien, y fui completamente egoísta pero aveces necesitas serlo. Se que vas a estar bien y espero que tengas tu mundo. Porfavor no te quedes corto, vive todo intensamente, y ríe y baila y observa.
André si lees esto, no me escribas, no me busques porfavor. Solo quería decirte que te amo con todo mi corazón, verdaderamente.

Docente que una persona puede ser la correcta, pero en el momento incorrecto. Sinceramente no creo que nosotros fuéramos eso, lo nuestro jamás se dio, la timidez fue mayor para mi, jamás te puede hablar en persona, pero me enamoré de ti por tu forma de ser, por lo que me contaba tu mamá de ti, eras y eres lo que siempre deseé para mi. Tenemos muchas cosas en común, y tal vez era un poco pesada contigo, pero los nervios al verte me ganaban, quisiera haber sido más valiente y poder conversar contigo, saber si aunque sea pudimos haber sido amigos, creo que una amistad entre nosotros hubiese sido linda y nos hubiese ayudado a ambos a sanar. O tal vez no estaba enamorada de ti, quizás amaba la idea de que alguien me entendiera por lo viví, ambos tenemos la misma herida en el corazón, y es difícil sanar, pero me quedo con lo lindo, con esas miradas en el gym o en el insti, con todos esos recuerdos que sentía que había algo lindo entre nosotros. Quizás la vida nos vuelva a juntar, o tal vez no, pero quiero que sepas que te deseo lo mejor en cada uno de los proyectos personales y profesionales. Me siento orgullosa de donde estás y del chico que eres ahora.

you're a fucking trump supporter. i hate you. i hate you so much. you broke my heart. in so many ways. i wonder if keeping your friends was worth it. i fell for you so hard. so so hard. i loved everything about you. sometimes my mind still wanders to you. sometimes i wonder if i imagined it all. were the heart eyes and hands all fake. did i really imagine it all? did you not look at me like i was everything? was that all a lie? at the end of the day when im lying in my bed, i miss you. i miss you so fucking much. i hate you. i hate you for being a horrible person. i hate you for being everything i hate all in one person but tricking me into not seeing any of it. i miss you. i hate you. i love you.

Hey okay idk how I feel about you I really do love you, but well.. there is this other dude and he treats me so much better than you do and well.. mm I don’t know anymore you really hurt me til the point I didn’t want to even talk to my family it really hurt, and after all that I still said “I love you too” You said you needed time and I did wait for you I promise that but listen while you took time I found someone.. I see him merely as a friend only though.. Sometimes I wonder if me and him could become more and if I would actually be happy with him. More happy than you made me.. Because I gave you my everything, you were the first person I wrote paragraphs for, the first person I told my whole family about, the first person that I thought of day and night, you may have not been my first love but you were my first and last to everything, and I know just being with you hurts me more, I can’t see you live life without being happy I want to see you happy, I’ll try to make you happy like I did before doesn’t matter if you hurt me again, I gave everything up for you..

I've always thought you were cute but we make such good friends. I dont want to ruin that but if you ever felt the same way maybe we could have something before we leave for college

I know you are the one for me, and I know I am the one for you. The way we knew each other, the way we laughed, the way I wasn't afraid to be myself with you, and the way you weren't afraid to let me see your ghosts. I hope one day we can dance under the stars. Because since day one, I have been falling like them.
“I'm gonna hold you so close, I swear to God, I'll never let go”

The feelings have faded since, but they might still be there... a little bit... i’m still unsure. We were both dumb and probably toxic toward each other in hindsight but i’d do it again in a heartbeat. you made me feel safe and like i was good for something. i wish i was less clueless. then maybe i could understand you.

You hurt me so much. I was so far broken that I am still patching up the wounds you left 6 years ago. Thank you so much for teaching me how to be afraid of anyone who shows remote amounts of interest. Hope no one does the same to you

It sucks that we never got to be a thing, but remembering u saying "I like u" at the dance still makes my heart flutter

It sucks that we never happened but remembering u say those words at the halloween dance still makes my heart flutter

It's hard for me to hide my feelings, we are friends but I still love u in so many ways, sadly u don't see me like I do, it hurts but I want u to be happy with her.

You are all I think about and it’s insane considering how long it has been since I’ve seen you. I can’t get you out of my head and sometimes I wish I could so that I could move on .

You are all I think about it’s insane and sometimes I wish I could get you out of my head so I can move on with my life. I could never forget you.

You’re definitely not my first love but you taught me a lot of things. I think it’s good that I noticed how insecure and manipulative you were and how people who aren’t happy with themselves with definitely have sex with anybody and destroy the people they’ve been with. I know this sounds hostile but it’s just a honest realization

It’s funny because I only knew you for a couple of hours or maybe less, but your stuck in my head. You weren’t like the other boys. You were kind and put your arm around me and I felt safe. I wished you had kissed me.

I find it funny how even now when I hear your name I feel this overwhelming feeling of emptiness. You hurt me so bad.