Unsent messages to AMAYA

I hope I never lose you.

I miss our friendship

I miss you sometimes, but it doesn't matter because I convinced myself that I don't need you.

i miss you, a lot. it is probably stupid but i find myself weak against my memories with you.

I love you so much and I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you my gay little fairy

if you miss me then tell me.

how could u cheat on me

you’re the love of my life. i’ll love you till my last breath

you are lowkey a bitch idk why i wanted to be friends with you in the first place and im kinda glad im not

you were the person who taught me to not give a fuck about what other people thought of you. you let me be me. and you hurt me. and i hate you for that. but i know it had to happen. i miss you.

I wish it were different. I wish I wasn’t scared of getting hurt. I wish we met at a different time. I wish there wasn’t so much distance. I wish I could see you. I wish I could be around you. I keep trying to distract myself by talking to random girls but they aren’t you. I dont know I just wish things were different and I wish the key didn’t have to be thrown away but I get it. Maybe someday I can slide back into your dm’s with the same corny line and we can try again.

You weren’t my first love but I love you and always will. I wish you the best, I wish I could go back in time but we can’t.

You’re my only friend the only person who cares about me I’m so thankful we met when we did you saved my life on so many occasions I miss you so much I miss seeing you everyday and getting that little spark of Serotonin knowing you were there and it was gonna be a good day

you weren’t my first love, i didn’t love you like that. but i loved you. and seeing you hurt yourself broke me, it took something that’s never coming back.

u are a very fucking cool person. you always do whatever you want and I respect that about you. you inspire me to care less about what other people think about me. your creativity outshines any one in the room.

i want to talk to you again i miss you and want you to come back i don't know where you are in life if your even still living with your mom i still want to be friends you were the main person who helped me realize who i was at a young age and if your wondering yes you were the one who made me bi-sexual and you made me officially realize that before i was questioning what i was and what was ''wrong with me'' because to me it felt wrong and i was taught it was wrong until you came along i was 8 and confused because my whole life i was really confused until i met you and ever since you left i have come to terms with my sexuality i mean yes i don't like labels or anything tied to me but overall you were the one to make me realize what i was at a young age and then 4 years later i came out and made sure to credit you for making me come to terms with a lot of things like my depression,my sexuality,my life and most other things i appreciate you and want you back in my life as soon as possible

I chose dark green because I remember you loving this color. I miss you so much. I really want to talk to you again. I appreciated every word you said. I'm sorry I couldn't come along with you. Please come back.

everything about you. your sense of humor, your mind, your soul, your smile, your eyes, your laugh, your style, the way you walk, the way you kiss. everything.

you don't say what you mean and you don't mean what you say. you are more than welcome to continue talking behind my back. enjoy you mf qquueeeenn.