Unsent messages to ALEXANDER

I never told you how I felt, I knew there was no way you felt the same. Hugging you made me feel so safe, and holy shit did it hurt when you let me go. tongue tied by grouplove reminds me of that night

It’s been a few months since we’ve talked but I think about you everyday, and hope you think about me too. I can’t help but look for you everywhere I go, but I know if you’re truly mine, you’ll come back.

Nunca quise irme
Lo siento tanto
Eso ya no importa pero quiero responderte después de tanto tiempo a esos: "¿me amas?"
Ale, sí, te amo y mucho

I never meant for things to happen the way they did. I wish I could explain things to you but you hate me.

Remember when I posted on my spam account about the all black chevy blazer sport I wanted. You called it "our car". I can't wait to go to the car dealership with you to get the car because we're both gonna sign it. It will be OUR car.

When you say my last name wrong, it makes me smile because there could be a day that you can just say your last name instead.

The feelings I have for you, i've never felt before. I wish I had the balls to tell you what I feel about you, because I feel we can become something we've never thought of before. I want you because i love you and who you are. I choose you out of the other 7 billion people in the world.

Because of all the lies you told, and all the hurt we both did to each other. I’ve learned what a healthy friendship is. I’ve learned how to stop going back to you. You got used to me always coming back to you. That I forgot how to live without you. Now I know. I hope one day we can find each other in different terms. I loved you and I loved your family. And now that they hate me because of the lies you told. I know I will never go back to you again. I hope you find love and I also hope you don’t. And eye for an eye they say. ;)

I loved you from day 1 of friendship....its 5 years later and your still my best friend and I still love you more than friends. You still don't know after all this time...

You helped me through so much, we were so young and I should've treated you better. I'm glad I met you because you've made me a better person and I am forever sorry. I will always love you.

Hola mejor amigo :c , se que nunca veras esto pero queria decirte que me gustas desde hace mucho tiempo , todavía no tengo el valor de decírtelo personalmente.
Pero algún día lo hare ... no se como vallas a reaccionar , tengo miedo a veces con tan solo penar eso , pero solamente quisiera que supieras que hay alguien que piensa en ti , te quiere y siempre lo hare pase lo que paso .

you still live in my head. you took all of me when you left. still wish you all the happiness in the world.

You hurt me the worst but I still love you. I can’t get you out of my head. Why did you leave like this?

it’s not fair you promised you wouldn’t leave me behind.i love you with my whole heart and i miss you more and more everyday.
until we meet again

you make me smile like a fool whenever i’m around you. i just wish I had enough courage to tell you that.

You aren’t my first love but you make me feel something and i haven’t felt something in a while, something about you just makes me really happy, i guess the only problem with that is that i overthink everything u send, whenever u text me my heart just gets all happy and i think about u all the time, i know we’d probably never be together because my past isn’t the best and i know you wouldn’t be able to handle me but it’s just nice to think about what it could be like in a perfect world :) you’re a really nice guy and i’m a bitch, doesn’t really mix unfortunately :( sometimes i do wonder if you like me back tho

I don't know if I can't get over you or the torment I endured. I wish I only had 2 failed attempts instead of 3.

Hey.. I am really sorry.. I messed up so much and I hope stuff gets better for you. You won’t see this but if somehow you do.. please text me somehow.. please.. I need to get stuff off my chest...

i loved the feeling we had. you are perfect. i think about you, but then i remember that you no longer care. stay sweet xoxo

You always wore that stupid zipper jacket in this color, I wish I could hug that jacket one last time, I thought we were forever

i miss you, more then words could ever describe. and even though you left me i have stayed and waited every single day and missed you for over a year. I still love you as much as i always have and would still give the world to you if i could. i just want you to come back so that forever could finally mean forever again and not just some stupid word u threw around. i hate myself for not being enough for you and everyday memories of you roll through and i overthink it and wonder how i could’ve done better or made you happier. Every night i am haunted by dreams of you, and every time it’s you coming back then i wake up and your still not here. why can’t you be here. though you leaving has put me through hell and back and i have gone through shit this year that has destroyed me and every time i think what if he was here, what if he could help me through this, just like you used to and how i used to help you. But i gave you all of my happiness and all of me bc i wanted you to be the person i knew you could be but then you left and i was the destroyed remains of myself that i picked apart to boost you up. so i waited, i’m still waiting. i miss you please come back. Please make my dreams come true and just call me and let’s fix us. I fixed me so i could be with you but you still never came back. and everyday i try so hard to improve myself so i can one day be enough, i just wanna be enough for you. Nobody has come close to comparing to you, everyone just seems like nobody when i think of you. so many times i could’ve tried to move on and i never could whole heartedly give anyone a chance bc i looked for you in everyone that came my way. and when one of your qualities was missing i knew they didn’t compare and they never would. so i’ll wait and i’ll keep waiting for one day. I love you forever

We met when were around 16/17. we had wonderful nights together even though we never met. i wonder if you think of me the way i think of you sometimes.
you had yellow glasses then, your favorite color you told me.

our memories are coming up on snap now... I cant believe its been a year since we met. I see them and it makes me sad. But i think the worse part is i dont miss you, I miss having someone. You broke me more than you know and I dont ever think id go back to you. You knew my pain and you added on to it. It hurts to see your face pop up on my snap memories and it makes me wanna take back that entire year. Sometimes I wish we never fucking met. You say you loved me, but i really dont think you knew how to love. I cant shake the feeling that you left me with. I hope you find someone and you make them happier than you ever made me. I hope you learned how to love from me. I treated you so well, and you broke me.