Unsent Messages

i miss you, more then words could ever describe. and even though you left me i have stayed and waited every single day and missed you for over a year. I still love you as much as i always have and would still give the world to you if i could. i just want you to come back so that forever could finally mean forever again and not just some stupid word u threw around. i hate myself for not being enough for you and everyday memories of you roll through and i overthink it and wonder how i could’ve done better or made you happier. Every night i am haunted by dreams of you, and every time it’s you coming back then i wake up and your still not here. why can’t you be here. though you leaving has put me through hell and back and i have gone through shit this year that has destroyed me and every time i think what if he was here, what if he could help me through this, just like you used to and how i used to help you. But i gave you all of my happiness and all of me bc i wanted you to be the person i knew you could be but then you left and i was the destroyed remains of myself that i picked apart to boost you up. so i waited, i’m still waiting. i miss you please come back. Please make my dreams come true and just call me and let’s fix us. I fixed me so i could be with you but you still never came back. and everyday i try so hard to improve myself so i can one day be enough, i just wanna be enough for you. Nobody has come close to comparing to you, everyone just seems like nobody when i think of you. so many times i could’ve tried to move on and i never could whole heartedly give anyone a chance bc i looked for you in everyone that came my way. and when one of your qualities was missing i knew they didn’t compare and they never would. so i’ll wait and i’ll keep waiting for one day. I love you forever