u have been one of my most amazing friendships and i finally was happy but you’re slowly leaving me and i hate it

You were the sun to my moon, honestly I loved you, I never really wanted to admit it though, i’m so sorry we had to let go, but that’s not the end of our story, i miss you so much, i feel like we’re drifting apart but that’s ok, i’ll still love you.

i love you,i have loved you from the moment we became best friends you make me so happy even with everything u put me thru i would'nt trade you for nothing i love you so much ....J

I never thought we’d be this close. I love you because you listen to my problems and try to help even tho it may be hard , I love you

i love you i have loved you since we becames bestfriends even tho u get me angry your not going no where i love you much you make me a better person of my self no matter where life would take us i would always love you,,,,J

I still think about the way you held my hand when u were nervous. I wish you still found comfort in my touch

You are gorgeous, intelligent and don't take anyone's shit (can I swear on here?) and I love you for all of it. We went through some stuff together (camp) and I'm grateful that we're still friends after it. You've always been there for me and I know you're going to do great things. You're a queen.

alexa perdí el contacto contigo:(,nos conocimos por un Juego y t quise much0, no sé de ti desde 2016 and i feel sad bitch

i wonder if that message with my name on it was from you, but i think im just too high lol.. i hope ur well

i felt like i was boring you and like you were so uninterested in me that i knew it was better not to chase you when you left. u have no idea how much i just wanted u to come but i guess i’m just selfish. i wonder a lot about you but i hope you’re doing well, and i hope ur happy

I love you but at the same time I can’t stand you. You claim to be my best friend but you don’t know anything about me. You steal things from me, you talk to people that have hurt me, and you never shut the fuck up.

you hurt me, over and over and i finally blocked you but i need you, i need you telling me i’m a good person i need a reminder god please.

I know black was one of your favorite colors I wish that you were here still and I wish you could have said bye or something like that I wish I knew what you were thinking I’m sorry that you had to pretend for that long I’m sorry I should have done some more than made jokes so that you would smile and the truth is I knew but I didn’t want to make you sad by bringing it up I’m sorry that I still text you even though I know that I shouldn’t because it’ll only hurt me more but I didn’t know what to say I didn’t want to be selfish and tell you to stay because I know that the pain must hurt so I wish you the best and hope your not feeling pain anymore and I’ll miss you I wish I could say goodbye but I can’t yet just let me talk to you a little longer I’m sorry for bothering you while your up there but I’ll truly miss you here

you blocked me.. ditched me.. hurt me.. and yet i still forgive you..i don’t know why you did what you did i question myself if i were not good enough or just not enough.. i hope your life is better with you new friend.. i hope you still think about me or talk about me... either one of those i hope you’re reading this i just want you to know i regret nothing that happened in our hangouts at school or just anywhere. you mean a lot to me people are gonna argue with me for “going back” to you but it’s my choice if i decide to bring someone back into my life even if you really did break me so i just want you to know i dislike you screw you but i love you.- e (red was your favorite color)

I am very in love with you, I feel like you are my special someone, but I know that you actually already have someone special and I understand it, but I can't be with you and act like it doesn't hurt. I'm sorry for walking away, but it's for the best

dios, no tengo palabras para decir lo mucho que te amo y me gustas, eres mi primer amor y el unico, te amo tanto que no he podido olvidarte.. ¿te acuerdas de la primera vez que nos vimos? desde ahí me gustas, casi 3 años.. no he podido olvidarte pero creo que lo nuestro ya no tiene solución, soy una niña.. siempre malogro nuestra relación pero aún así siempre trato de dar lo mejor de mi... quisiera volver contigo pero solo nos lastimamos.. la vez que dijiste que fue un error.. una vez pensé lo mismo pero no puede ser un error algo tan lindo que tuve.. pero bueno mereces algo mejor que si sea madurx como tu dijiste bebé, yo no lo soy.. lo siento

I’m sorry I acted so weird around you in middle school, but I had such a big crush. I thought for sure you were straight. But i came across you on the HER app last year and learned you are not! Remember when you held my hand and taught me to roller skate? I still think about that all the time.

How are you doing? I think about you when it rains. Do you remember the way you kissed me at stoplights?

I love you forever. Despite the distance, I swear that I still miss you, you continue to hurt me and it hurts even more when I see that you do not choose to choose me again.

i dont know where id be without you. you've done so much more for me than you'll ever know. i love you

i'm unsure on what to write but i know i want to express my real and true feelings about you.
you are the one person in the entire world who can continue to hurt me and break me down and yet i will still want you. at this point, i don't even know if you are who you say you are.. but i don't know if i actually care. i want you to know that i just wanted you and only you, i couldn't give a fuck who you are or what you look like, i know your heart and i want that.
i hate that even months later i am still here wishing you'd just text me, it's been almost a week. i try not to be too needy now, i know you need your space and i know you are healing. i am proud of you. but it hurts a lot to not have you in my life. i adore you

always by isak danielson

i miss you, i'm sorry by grace abrams

arcade by duncan laurence

same room by jp saxe

i wish i wrote this before it ended by adrian garza

jealous by labrinth

line without a hook by ricky montgomery

what happened our friendship? it’s almost been a week since we talked, but probably months since we had an actual conversation. you drift apart from me each day even further. I love you. i want you to know that i’m here for you, i want you to know that you can talk to me whenever you need! I’m one of your best friends. You always distance yourselves from your loved ones when you need help, we’re here, we’re all here. I miss you, the old you. You’d rant to me everyday, tell me every single little detail about your day, i miss that. i took it for granted, i took YOU for granted. I don’t wanna lose our bond, i don’t please don’t leave. You need space, i get that, but i just want a text from you at least every other day. We only text occasionally and we don’t even have good conversations like we used to. You’re sad, sadder than ever. I can tell and i just need you to talk to me, i’m fucking here alexa. I love you, we all do. We will never stop loving you.

Hola... Hace más de 5 años que ya no hablamos, no tienes idea de cuánto te extraño, creo que piensas que te odio, cuando no es así, casi siempre pienso en ti, a diario, de hecho. Fuiste mi ángel, por quién aún sigo viva, fuiste la luz más hermosa de mi vida y no te mentire, seguir sin ti fue realmente dificil, seguir sin ti, lo es. Sabes? Me aleje de ti porque nunca había amado tanto a alguien, fuiste mi herida más bonita, estoy tan agradecida por tanto y ahora que no eres más que un fantasma de mi pasado, desearía tanto por lo menos solo verte, escucharte o saber algo mínimo de ti. Si tuviera que decirte algo lo único es... Que te amo, te amo demasiado y se que puedo estar amando una ilusión o los recuerdos que tengo que ti pero lo hago, y lo siento tanto por todo el daño que te hice cuando estuve tan mal, ¿Que basura de persona arrastra consigo al abismo al más bello de los angeles?. En fin... Espero que dónde quiera que estés y lo que haya Sido de tu vida estés bien y feliz. Te amo aún estando en el olvido y así me niegue a admitirlo.

I know we have both had rough pasts, and i’m not allowed to see you anymore, but i’m always one text away.

I’m struggling to decide whether to file this under your name or initials. If I put your initials, there’s no chance you’ll ever find it and I can be left with my secret. But I’m not even sure if that’s what I want. I want to be seen by you. I want to know if you feel the same. But I don’t want to be the one to put myself out there.

I just wanted to tell you that I’m fantasizing about what could have been.

My thoughts stem from when we were planning your sweet 16 on your couch in February. You wanted to have a 90s black light party. And I just couldn’t help but imagine.

The room being dark and the music being loud. Us both in themed dresses. And me, pushing the closeted hottest girl in school into a corner and kissing her. And it being like every good scene in Nerve or Euphoria-just kissing you in the neon lights.

But that could never happen. Cause we’ll be spending this year apart. And likely every other year now that you moved. And you’re in love with a girl you’ve never met. And I’m bitter. But I guess we’ll always have that moment in my imagination on that day in February.

-You were always so rude to me. Calling me names, and including me in drama that wasn't even about me. You made me feel like shit. I wished I would have punched you that day. It's okay tho. You're dead to me now.

i don’t know how to let go of people until i hate them. congrats, you made it possible. when i tell people the things you did to me, i realize how fucked up it sounds. you hurt me in ways i won’t ever be able to explain. over & over again without hesitation. & i let you, because i loved you. loved. i don’t anymore & i can say that wholeheartedly. this is me letting you go.

why do you always distance yourself once things get difficult? why don’t you talk to me about your problems, im here for you, always. i’m your best friend, well one of them.

I miss you, we used to be so close. I realized something, i used to have feelings for you, and i think i still do. I have a boyfriend, but just thinking of you makes me blush. You made me realize i wasn’t straight, and i think you liked me too. I text you but you never reply, and when you do, you only reply a few times and then leave me on delivered :( i wanna spam text you telling you how i feel but i’m positive you don’t feel the same. Plus you told me you’re just going to focus on yourself right now. I’ll always be here, just one call away. I wanna see you, your gorgeous face, your red cheeks(even without blush), your soft lips. Everything about you is so damn perfect. I want you. I feel horrible, my boyfriend has no idea about this obviously, but i just want to break up with him and kiss your lips. Maybe one day alexa.

I see you slipping. it's breaking my heart. please let me fucking help you. I need you. i don't wanna do this without you.

i’m sorry for hurting you. i wish i could talk to you again and i miss you so, so much. you were my best friend, why did you have to try and pull our trio apart? you should have known i was going to choose her. i cant speak to you again, it would hurt too much bringing you back into our lives, and anyways, the only person i need is her. she wants nothing to do with you, it would hurt her if i were to reconcile with you.

You are my favorite mom, mafia princess, bm, gf, and mom! You’re one of the sweetest people Ik and always remember that what other people say about you or expect from you don’t matter bc you’re a wonderful person and ik for a fact that you’ll do GREAT things in the crazy thing we call life! Love you and keep being your lovely self
P.s. I want to kiss you mamas

Hi kids and hi bm that went and had kids with other people... anyways Ik y’all don’t know who I am or maybe y’all do (idk), I just wanted to say be good to your mom and don’t stress her out. I told her not to have all of y’all, but she did, so be good to her since she gave you life. And whoever is the funny one... keep being you bubs bc you are AMAZING!! I also hope one y’all turn out gay bc flavor. Anyway, love you kids that aren’t mine and don’t let school depress you!

i was wondering what you did with my clothes but actually i hope you got rid of them, i hope you wear your new boyfriends clothes. i hate him, i want to fight him.

You told me today i’m the only person you’re texting consistently out of all your friends. I felt kind of special :) I hope we get closer. This is gonna give away who I am if you ever read this but i loved the song Alone part 1 by x. I never really was interested in his music until you showed me a song of his. I hope you’re doing ok tho that song is rly sad, especially the end and u said that was ur favorite part... I love you. even tho we’ve only been texting for about almost two weeks, ur a great person :)

I didn’t know who i was, but i do now. I wish I could have told you how much you meant to me and how much i loved you.

You know when you read a book and you reach the page that makes you understand the theme of the story? The story long realization? Meeting you was my realization. My purpose. You’re my epiphany.

You were the only girl I truly loved. I tried to show you that you were the only person i ever wanted, but your trust issues got in the way. I miss you everyday

Ur my bsf in the entire world. u deserved better. u r & never were a bad person. Stay gold.

u dont need to be anything more. u’re enough

its time i move on too im sorry for everything ive done to hurt you ive grown i hope u believe that

And when the city lights took up our night sky
All I could do was look into your eyes

Hey honeybee, im sorry i couldnt forgive you. I had to leave. I love you forever and always.

you are one of my childhood best friends. i love you with all my heart.

I still visit the tree and think abt how we could’ve been if I never left

You are and always with be my bsf

I’m so sorry I never told you how much I loved you. Maybe in another universe.

You will always be a ray of sunshine, you will never stop being loved by me

I dont love you anymore, but you’re amazing. I hope you find someone better dear.