Hi. Iʻm not your first love, but Iʻm just saying you probably are mines. Iʻm glad you look happy and healthy. Last year when I found out I was in L____ I wasnʻt too excited. But, when my best friend kept "shipping" me with you I really wanted to know who you were and what you looked like. One day in the lunch line, I was hanging and chilling out with my friends enjoying life and they start to tease me for some reason, whispering to each other and giving me side eyes. I look behind me and its you. Not gonna lie I was disappointed lol. "This is b? really?" They kept saying things like "omg they would look so good together!" "omg theyʻre so cute!" It was never-ending. and then when I was grabbing the food ur hand just barely touched me and like the idiot i am i jumped up and screamed lol you didn't even flinch. it was SO embarrassing. you probably don't remember that moment but that's when I got my first bit of butterflies from you. that's when i noticed you were in my p___ and that's when i didn't mind being in L_____. Fast forward to the middle of the year. CAMP. when i listen to the song ʻthe night we metʻ that's the moment i always think of for some reason. not sure why but that's when. that's when i started to fall. i was in a new friend group with s, c, k, a, n, and n. it was pretty dope. i actually thought you liked me because you constantly came by us with l to hangout and talk. but later i found out i wasn't the girl you were laughing at or smiling at, it was her. the short, smart, athletic girl that you've known since kindergarten. that hurt a little bit but thats ok. i still had so much fun living in the moment. dude i still remember the time in math (our only class together) and we kept staring and looking away, staring and looking away. that gave me major butterflies. you told me and a that when you like someone you stare, that gave me way too much hope. and when i was in o and you were in ss, and we would look at each other, no joke we did, it was eye contact. no denying it. there's so much other notes that i cant even process. 7th grade was crazy and i really thought i had a chance. fast-forwarding to now, i told my close friend i like you, she was cool with it. a month later she tells me she likes you, i didn't like it but i was too scared to tell her. ps she does this A LOT. she did it to two of my other close friends. eventually i was kind of whatever about it. then my exbestfriend texts me and tells me that you and her like each other. OUCH that stabbed me right in the heart. that really really hurt. she didn't even say sorry at all, she kept going on about how you guys flirt with each other and blah blah blah. dude i cried. wtf. now shes telling me you don't know if you like her and she doesn't know if she likes you and i feel like I'm just third-wheeling this load of shit. it still hurts to this day but I'm glad in a way. you like the short, immature, loud, popular girls and it pisses me off.i think I'm a good person, i match your energy, I'm pretty smart, not too athletic but thats ok, I'm not bad at fortnite. I'm a pretty good match for you but you decide to like the short and loud girls that cant deal with your boring energy. all I'm saying is lets be boring together. text me more. don't just text me during class, text me outside of class, don't just talk to me during among us and when weʻre on a call with a. thank you for all the happy memories we had but I'm gonna try say goodbye we can still be friends if you wanna be my boy bestie I'm down.
ps yes i choose ur main on among us and name from today :)