i miss you. i know i said i wouldnt and i thought it too, but you were right. there is some tiny part of me that still cares about you,, i just wish things wouldve been better. and im almost 100% sure its just me taking the good bits and morphing a story that i wanted, but i dont know anymore. i wish you couldve opened up to me, i wish there wasnt a fucking pandemic in the middle of it all,, i wish i wasnt so fucked. i wish we could start all over because maybe, just maybe,, we couldve worked out. and i know im with someone new and im so conflicted because i love him so much, but theres a tiny part of me that still loves you in a way i dont fully understand,,, and i know that if you ever see this youll know its me because no one else spells rilie the way you do and the fucking commas give me away,,, im sorry it ended the way it did and just wish i was a little bit better of a person,,, so maybe i would be able to understand everything a bit easier,,, i hope youre okay and doing well