Unsent messages to WYATT

I really miss you

I miss you

i don’t know how to feel about you anymore.

happy i get to live my life with you <3

i love you so much!

Hey I miss you a lot...I think it’s just your presence. You had a really good energy; sweet and simple. Which was nice in a way... I wish it was me who’d be in your love story or whatever but it’s not and that’s the truth. I hope we found each other in another dimension where you weren’t tied up and I wasn’t so insecure. I truly truly hope you live a wonderful life wy you definitely deserve it

When we first started to talk, the butterflies I got were insane. You made me feel so special, so nice. The light in your eyes could light up a room. after that one day..your light began to shine for her instead. Yet you continued to lead me up and down. I hate that you were my first kiss, my first cuddle (romantic). I hate that you called me pretty and I believed you. I hate that you two get to be something, while we got to be nothing. it felt so much more than nothing.

I want to make a mends with everyone before this new chapter starts. I am sorry we were both kinda psychotic.

I doubt you know it, if you ever need a hand, I'm here for you. I couldn't really explain it, but I've cared about you since the first time we locked eyes across the room. And even if we never speak again, I'll always remember how right it felt just to be near you.

my first love, i’ll always pick up your calls sweetheart. this is me telling the universe to tell you to call me and apologize. you know i didn’t deserve that but here we are. you snap me the side of your face now. atleast you still flip me off jokingly but i wanna hear your voice again. i wanna hear that you miss me. maybe i’m just crazy but i fell fo you. it’s been 9 months. fuck you, i love you and i miss you and i hate you .

i’m so sorry that i didn’t figure out how i felt before we were together. you’re amazing, but i wasn’t ready. maybe i’m still not.

Even though I now believe you did it to me like I did to you, I still wish I could tell you I now know what I had with you and I’m sorry it took me losing you to realize it.

Thank you for giving me some sort of self confidence again, but in hindsight I should have seen that you were going to cheat on me. I’m so much happier, and yes, Timothy keeps me updated.

ik you’re never gonna see this, but i love you. i want you in my life forever. i just wish you wanted me for more than my body. i just want you to show me you love me in other ways besides sending to each other. i think of you all the time. you’re in my dreams. i just dream of you holding me and showing you actually love me. i just want to be held by you and i want you to show me you genuinely care about me. i just wanna have a good relationship with you where we can be comfortable with each other and be honest. i hate how you leave me for other girls who are easier to get with. it makes me feel worthless and hard to love. i just wish you’d care more about me. again, ik you’re never gonna see this but i love you and see a future with you

Why did you leave me out of nowhere. You didn’t have an actual reason. I hope you don’t hate me and are happy. I am still a little bit yours....

sorry for not being jocelyn. thank you for being the first guy i actually liked, you taught me that you can’t really trust everyone.

You made me think I was special, that you actually wanted me, and then in just one text to my friend all that changed. I found out you were dating someone and I never stopped questioning if I was good enough.

I don’t know what will happen in the future but I know that right now I love you more than anything and I don’t want that to change but I’m not sure if our relationship is healthy enough to last.

i miss our nightly deep talks. i miss waiting for them all day. i miss letting hours pass by as it got late when we both had school the next morning. i want that again, really bad.

I wish you would’ve treated me the way I deserve to be treated. I wanted you to be my first everything. But you chose to break my heart and get my hopes up instead. I hope she treats you well. I can confidently say that I don’t think she’ll ever love you more than I.

I heard your voice for the first time in a while.. It hit me. I still care. I miss you. I gave up going out of my way to see you, cause it hurt. And now I just want to see you every day again.

It's kind of ridiculous my interest in you. We've exchanged how many words? How many short conversations? Not enough to warrant a crush. But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe it's the perfect amount. That's what J tells me. This is all normal. "You need to embrace it - don't run away from your own feelings". I can't tell if that's bs or not.
I don't want to get my hopes up. I don't want people to chuckle about how naive I am for allowing myself to believe, even for a second, that you're interested in me.
J tells me nurturing this spark I feel is what will bring us closer, even just as friends. He's probably right. He often is. But will the price come at my own embarrassment or our prosperity?
All I know is I wish you'd text me more. Not this snapping bs. Even if it is just for Spanish help.
I heard you haven't trusted anyone since her. She was years ago. She's the worst. Let me in? I'm not going to hide who I am around you, and I won't make you either.
I want to see where we could go. Let us try?

i love you. please just forget what the world will think. please tell me you still have feelings from so long ago. please tell me i’m not the only one who feels this way. please don’t say we can’t be because of what people will say. please just listen to your heart. please.

Weirdly enough I still think about your laugh and constant desire to share dad jokes. I hope you're doing well and someday we can laugh about when we were young and dumb.

i wish ur bitchass realised tht u don’t have to be scared around me. i’m here for u and i want u to learn to trust again

i wish ur bitchass realised tht u don’t have to be scared around me. i’m here for u and i want u to learn to trust again

i met your mom and she said she's heard a lot about me, sort of scary, but she calls you wy which is cute in a way. i like your family, they're nice people, your life seems swell.

i think i’ve love you in some way since we were in 8th grade but you’ll always just be my best friend. i hope i don’t ever lose you because you mean too much to me.

people ask me if i am in love and i will always say no because i can't be in love if the other part of me doesn't love me back. but i will say you probably make me happier than anyone else right now with your spider man watch and your creeper lunch box that you carry around at the age of 15. I will always care about you a different type of way that anyone else but i am waiting for the other half of me to love me back right now and that is you.

I don’t know what changed, but I think I’ve finally moved on. I will always love you, Wyatt, but I’ll do it from afar.

you showed me what it's like to get drained from a toxic relationship, the only thing is i'll always go back to you

There was one moment I was sure you were gonna kiss me, the way you looked at me in that moment of silence... but I was too scared :/

i thought you were different but you're just like everyone else. you did me so wrong, i can never see you the same.

hey, i miss you soso much. thank you for all the good times, even the bad. just know i’ll always be here for you.

why did you do that? i should have known you were like the rest. i never want to even see your name again

I guess if I'm being honest I knew it wasn't going to work out. I just hate how you gave me the bare minimum to keep me hooked. I still haven't ended it officially bc I'm holding on to the sliver of hope I have for u. I hope we found each other in a different dimension bc I don't think it's our time in this one. Bye Wy hopefully I'll see u again:/

It’s so stupid, but even Big Mouth makes me think of you. New season came out this week. I hope you’re well.

even though you promised you would never leave, you still did, and i knew you would. i hope you're okay and doing better now. you have so much talent and i know you'll do everything you told me about... i was willing to try but you weren't. 4hrs was too far. anyways its game day goodluck :)

i don’t know why you were never interested in me. i just wanted to be friends in the end. you hated me for no reason, and now look what you’ve done. i want you to love me still. but you won’t. i won’t miss you.

I dunno if you realize but when we were young, you were such a light to me, school was better because I saw your face. perhaps our paths will meet again ?

You messed me up man. you still do. stop coming back. it’s draining me. i can’t do it anymore. if you left in the first place to stop hurting me then stop coming back.

I love you I truly do you ruined my life you hurt that poor girl and you hurt me I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I can't trust anymore and I'm sorry that I told you everything all my trauma I'm sorry you saw me at my worst, I'm sorry I loved you, and I'm more sorry that I still do

You were the first time I’ve ever experienced love since what he did to me. I never thought I would find anyone else who would make me feel alive again. And you were the first boy who’s ever made me feel like the only girl in the room. That’s why it broke my soul in half when you left me for her. I look back at our texts and bawl my eyes out. It hurts so bad knowing how much I miss you and still want you after what you did to me. How can you give me so much only to take it all away? How could you look me in the eye and call me crazy and then go behind my back and get back with her again. How could you do it? You knew how traumatized I was. I never told you because I was so scared to, but I loved you. I still love you after what you did. I’m in so much pain. I’ve been trying so hard to paint the picture to you that I’m thriving and that I’ve moved on but it’s all a lie. I wonder if you ever think about me. I hope I cross your mind and I hope one day life leads me back to you. I love you wyatt

i need you to promise to stay no matter what. I need you to promise you need me too and tell me you love me.

I will be in a conversation, and a small wave of you hits me. I just sit there in silence and become consumed by the thoughts of you.

you remind me of a little sewer rat but in a fond way. i hope you haven’t lost your way. i hope you are doing well ❤️

lately, when we hang out, i hold u a little closer and kiss u a little harder, we're so rocky rn idk if itll be our last

grey bc i kno were fading. everyone is telling me to leave because we're toxic, but i cant. it just isnt our time. but maybe we're just scared to let go of each other. more and more brendan tells me youre manipulative and a narcassistic, and i dont want to believe him, but i just dont know anymore. i know my mental health issues are too much for you i know youre frustrated. i am so stuck.

i dont know what to do. inside, i know we should end it, but i cant. but im hurting. but i cant leave you. im stuck.

im so scared that youre going to start seeing me the way i see myself. either were gonna have a future or this will be the biggest heartbreak of my life. ive never loved somone this much. just please dont give up on me. im trying.