yeah its only one l, that always irritated me, your name never looked quite right. i think I might of loved you. i was so deluded and confused from the constant lying and manipulation but oh my god yeah I loved you. if you smiled at me with your sheepish smile and kissed me on the forehead i worry I would fall for you all over again. but I cant do that. because you hurt me so badly it sometimes still bleeds. my heart will always ache when when I see you in the distance. but that's where you need to stay, in the distance. yours, s

I used to get butterflies thinking about you. Every time I would see your name come up on my phone I would get so excited. I thought you were the one. I remember when we very first starting talking back in June. I loved talking to you even playing video games with you. Hearing your voice, laughing at the jokes I would say. You made my life my world a happier place until you didn’t. Until you stopped answering me, until you starting becoming so dry to the point where I wanted to stop. I remember the first night I cried over you. It was around 10:30-11:00, I was looking out my window at the stars, listening to music, thinking of you, only you, the life we both could of had. I was thinking until I become so numb but sad all at once. It hit me. I cried not hard but I cried over you. Over you. You made me depressed all over again. You brought me up for air so I could breathe but then pushed me back down until I was drowning. I layed and cried. I thought we could of been end game. But clearly the vision you had was different. I remember falling hard for you. I think it was when you went away and you stayed up till 2am talking to me, keeping me up. I loved texting you. Even if it was about the dumbest shit. I wanted to write you a letter telling you how much I loved you. I really did. But when I did you threw it out. I told you I liked you and you turned me down in the nicest way possible. Saying I’m not ready but I know you were. That hit me so hard, I was torn. I hated you. You ruined me into a thousand pieces. Leaving me to put it back together. After that i fell back into a hole of depression. I was numb thinking about you. But I’ve seen you’ve moved on found someone else. Who you’d rather and you know what you deserve it. It isn’t me it will never be me but maybe in another universe it is me. I hope it is. I will never be over you. I know we are young and dumb but I loved you and I always will. I hope your time with me was good ,amazing, fantastic i don’t care. I hope she treats you well. I hope she stays up still 2am. I hope she is there for you when your crying over your life falling. I hope she’s there for your best moments. I hope she plays video games with you and makes you laugh until you are grasping for air. I hope she’s better than me. I’m sorry I wasn’t the one. Remember that one time we played Fortnite and you died straight away and I was alive you were watching me, while eating your favourite food. Laughing at me making fun of me making me and laughing. Remember that. I do so clearly, it makes me numb and sad and happy and angry thinking about about it. It fills me up but then makes me drown. I hope she’s your fist kiss, the girl you love being around the girl that makes you feel like your on top of your world when your together, I hope she is I do. It was always you for me but not for you. You deserve her.

It’s you wil who I loved it was always you

I love you until the ends of the earth and until I die

I love you

Love your dearest Charlotte

i wish i could talk to you more. you make my heart skip a beat when im around you. i wish you felt the same about me.

3 years, it took me 3 years for me to understand the pain you cause.
my first real relationship and you lied, cheated and ghosted me. but i thank you for giving me a better understanding of a happy and healthy relationship.

I wish you told me how you really felt instead of leading me on for years and playing with my emotions.

Sometimes I regret the fact I didn’t allow myself to love you. I don’t think you would’ve returned it in the end, but you deserved so much more than what my heart gave you, even though you didn’t know. I wish I could have dwelled a little longer on how pretty I thought your eyes were or how you always seemed to hear me when I felt like my voice was drowned out. I want you to be happy. And even if it’s not with me, I want you to realize why I so adore happy endings. Thank you for these past few years of life.

We have been through what feels like every possible rocky road and every time I ask myself why do I go back every time. And the answer is always the same. Because you are what feels like the only person who made me feel like life was worth living and that love can consume every inch of my body. Being with you feels like anything is possible. But some how I’m the end I’m never going enough. I just wish you saw me how I see you

you’ll never know me. the thought of you existing on this world not knowing i exist tears me apart. i grow more in love with you every day.

Why'd you suddenly stop talking to me? Did you stop caring? Did you ever care? Maybe you used me to get over the other girl you liked, but I didn't mind. I still don't. As long as you're willing to talk, I'll listen.

no, i can't fall in love again. I will wait for you forever.

I don’t think I can ever look at you the same anymore but I still hope that you’re okay. I miss you.

I will always love you, even if you want nothing to do with me.

do you still wear the shirts that I gave you?

i think i like you

Even though I ended things, I still love you and miss you,

I'm still waiting
that we go back to the way it was before, and start a new phase again

i miss when u were my brother.

i still think ab u when i hear a song i know u’d like

i miss you

i hope you at least loved me to the capacity of which you knew how.

i miss you

You’re my everything I don’t know what I’d do without you <3

i wish i'd talked to you more on friday. for some stupid reason i was scared to.

You really hurt me and you didn't seem to care. I wish that you would come back.

HELP ME TO FORGET YOU PLEASE
:((

i still really love you. no one else has ever made me feel safe like you. come back

How i wish you know that i haven't moved on from you

you confuse me. why do you keep coming back just to leave me again? why?

I think i’m in love with you but i can never tell you, i already ruined everything

I love you so much stinky i´m so happy I met you, when I found you I found my soulmate, my forever,

please, please let me hear from you before christmas. i'm begging you.

I wish you love me too

miss being ur friend. weird to feel this way when i ended it. don’t want to be with u but i miss us

why did u do this to me

I hope you could love me back :((

you’ve been my favourite for a long time

i don’t think i’ll ever be able to be with you and that makes me sad :/

today we squished together in a chair, limbs tangled uncomfortably, & i’ve never felt more at home.

Take a drink for me, bird. Enjoy your day. You deserve it.

I wish we could hold hands, and that you'd love me back. You make me a restless dreamer.

why were u so nice to me? did i mean anything to you?

sorry for leaving early that one time. just wish you wanted to see me as much as I want to see you.

maybe we’ll run into each other at walmart some day in the future, but i wish our time was now