Unsent messages to VICTORIA

i am so scared of your judgement in somethings i have secrets i’m not even willing to share with you...

la verdad que te amaba como a un hermano, pero me hiciste tanto daño y ni un perdón recibí de tu parte LACONCHADETUMADREHIJODEREMILPUTA

I'm sorry about how it ended but the distance was too much to handle
I hope you know it hurt for me too

i always check up on you just so see how you are. you look happy. i’m honestly so glad you are. that’s all i want for you. you were my first love and someone i will always cherish. hopefully one day we can become friends again because you were great at that. love you loser

I hope one day you won't always yell at me at the second sentence and that you get it that it hurts me when you keep yelling at me and that you very often give me the feeling that I can't do anything right and that I often do after such actions lying in my room and crying because it breaks me more and more inside, but I also know that I don't always do everything right and I'm sorry about that too, your little sister

This is your favorite color, it's also the color of your perfect eyes. i wish we could have been lovers in this life. i'm glad you're happy now. I love you more than myself. All i want is to see you smile. Your smile means more to me than anything on this earth. I love you.

hi sissy.
i hope im making u proud. im living for u and so that your sunshine and happiness can stay on this world. i know i never got to meet u but i feel someway that your a part of me. after u passed i was the one who made dad happy again. i just hope that im doing your name proud. i love you my sweet angel.

i don't think love you anymore, but i still wonder if you think of me the same way i think of you from time to time

you told me that
you wanted me and my boyfriend to get married and then had sex with him the minute I leave his house

I really miss having you by me. I really train my brain to miss you but some days I just can't get you off my mind.

hi vic you made me write this but we have a deal? gonna keep this short & sweet but you are truly my best friend there is no one else I talk to everyday as much as u. u know so much abt me and ik so much abt u. even tho we may be toxic together I wouldn’t trade our friendship for the world and I can’t wait to grow up together and continue to be friends till we’re making fun of the other ladies at bingo lol. anyways I love u so much and i’m so happy to have you in my life??? Fr? Bet!

Don't ask me how I got so lucky to find you and got you to be my best friend because honestly I don't know. However, I am forever greatful that I did. Vic, you are one of the few people that can make me laugh, and I mean actually laugh. I am too busy worrying about everyone else's happiness but when I am with you I am truley happy. I don't know how you manage to do it but you are such a kind person and almost never has anything bad to say about anyone, and I honestly do not know how you put up with me because I can get extremely annoying at times. However, you are also one of the most forgiving people I know, and no matter what I do, you always manage to stay with me, and I am forever greatful for that. When I just think about all the amazing things that we have been through and everything you have doen for me, I cannot help but smile. You are beautiful inside and out and never fail to give to others. When you send me videos of you crying again please know that I love you so much and you are the best thing to ever happen to me! I love you so so so much

This is for when you are bored in college and remember this stupid website (you prob won't). This is your best friend Caileigh, writing to you in junior year of high school, who you hopefully still text and bully everyday. Please do not forget about me, I would not know what to do with myself if I lose you as a friend and I am probably very sad right now because I do not have you to bring joy to my life. If we are for some reason still not best friends, text me because I know I am probably still thinking about you and hate myslef for losing such a valuble friend. I hope you know how much I love you and appreciate you; and Vic no matter what, alwasy remember that you are the kindest, smartest, sweetest, and best person in this world... Dont forget that :)

ive been in love with you since 8th grade. u understand me like no other person, but i feel like we’re growing apart.

i finally gave up on you. you're not coming back, and you're not going to be a better person. i hope your boyfriend is happy, and that you've found someone who you can't crush under your thumb because you don't know how to get over yourself. maybe someday you'll be someone i can be proud to have known. be safe, don't call, don't text, and watch me thrive from a distance. loved you!

I opened up, you invaded and left with our looking back...why?I will forever wonder about your thought process

Hey you, you’ll probably never see this and i kinda hope you don’t cause boy that would be something haha. but umm just wanted to stop on by and say that even though it’s been months i still can’t get over you. you probably already have someone and if that’s the case i’m happy for you ! it’s good to get back in the game lol. but yeah i hope you’re doing okay and that life is treating you good, you deserve it :) there’s so much more i could say but ehh if you know what i mean. oh and if you do see this this should give a hint as to who it is haha: :$ welp ig that’s it for tonight ladies and gentlemen

you knew the shit i went through with her, you constantly talked shit about her and how she treated me and now you’re the one doing exactly what she did. you promised me you wouldn’t do this, you wouldn’t leave me for him and yet you did. exactly what she did.

No sé que nos prepare el futuro pero lo que si se es que quiero hacer lo posible para mantenerte a mi lado, es mi promesa eterna para ti

I love you Victoria. Truly, we’ve gone through so much together and have only gotten stronger, I love you. Happy 6 Months, i hope to be with you for 6+ More Lifetimes my one and only

I hate you. I thought we are really best friends, but you ruined everything. I'm really sad that you were lying to me, not carrying about our friendship and were that toxic. I'm not even missing you.

I wish we could be only friends, but since I made your life more “terrible”, we better stay as strangers.

You know, I really thought we were forever. But now I don't know. We can't go back to how it use to be.

(slight tw to whoever reads this, mentions of sexual harassment)

the background colour was the colour of my sweater that you touched me in. because of you, i have to worry about setting boundaries and other women respecting the fact i don't like being sexually touched and given sexual comments. you played a part in my trauma, fuck you.

Hi I’m not sure if you’ll ever check this but I love you. Thank you for coming in my life and being so awesome all the time, I hope you find your true happiness and love!!! yellow cause it’s your fav color

Hey you’re perfect. You’re every mans dream woman. I’ve never seen someone like you. I asked you out a few days ago and I just want to say that there’s no hard feelings that you said no. I get it. Someone like you doesn’t want someone like me. A guy who doesn’t have his life together and going no where in life. I understand. I just want you to know that you light up everyone’s world and your such a hard worker. Your fucking beautiful and the most precious person I’ve ever met. I understand now why all these guys start to have crushes on you. Everyone at work had a HUGE crush on you they told me you were intimidating because you had your life put together already. If you ever wondered why all the guys were only nice to you it’s because they respected you. Your one of a fucking kind and you know that. You carry yourself so well and your definitely going to go places. I just know it. Btw I chose this color because it’s the color of your sick ass car! Fuck man I could go on about you. I’ve only known you for a few months but, the impact that you’ve had on me says a lot about the person you are.

although i do love you and miss you, i hope we are never friends again. i hope that you have beautiful days ahead of you and that you find someone who deserves you and i sincerely wish the best for you, but i mean this when i say: if we ever became real friends again that a severe disaster would happen to me. i just hope you’re doing well.

Hello :)
How are you?
Are you okay?
Are you sure?
How is your family?
How is your dog?
Your siblings?
I just wanted to check in. It's been a while since we have done that. I can tell that you're stressed. We've been friends for years now, have you forgot? I just want you to know that I am here for you.

I always was meaningless for you, and i knew it all the time.
I never was an only one to you, just a small piece of a broken glass on the beach. I didnt remember 90% of what happened, bc of pain.

You are enough. You are perfect. You are the love of my life. Not in the romantic way but in the friendship way. I don’t know if you know this but you saved me. You saved me so many times and I love you so much. I know you don’t think you are with it but trust me you are more than enough. I love you babes

I wish I could go back and give you what you deserved but somehow I feel as if I would have messed it up all again.

you were the first person i thought i loved
even if that feeling wasn't real i still want to have conversations with you at 4 am on the roof

i need you to know that your support and love make me indescribably happy every day. i love you so much.

I trusted you when i was at my lowest and you took advantage of that and despite that i can't stay away from you.

I hope you know that once i found out that i had feelings for you i tried to ignore them. I don't want to lose my best friend over something small.

Hi Mum, you were suppose to be their and love me no matter what. But how does it feel now knowing that you're the one who isn't going to get to experience those milestones with me. You were the one who force a child to become an adult so young. Who taught me that only I can protect myself.

such a beautiful soul. i wish you didn’t have to treat yourself like this; i wish you would eat more :(

i lied when i told you that i loved you more than i loved myself. i never understood love until i met you, and now i can't live without it. im glad we separated. see you on the other side b.