too long. i’m sorry i broke your heart and that i never communicated enough. i was an asshole, but i changed, even if i was stand-offish, you always knew i was. you were just mean. you used stuff from my past against me. i don’t hate you anymore, i mostly hate myself for losing you. i hope that you realize i really loved you. i’m sorry we split in that way, i was under too much stress. i can’t believe i ever lost you, i wish i would’ve asked for a break instead of stopping everything all together, i really am sorry. but i hope you changed, i know i have.

hi vic you made me write this but we have a deal? gonna keep this short & sweet but you are truly my best friend there is no one else I talk to everyday as much as u. u know so much abt me and ik so much abt u. even tho we may be toxic together I wouldn’t trade our friendship for the world and I can’t wait to grow up together and continue to be friends till we’re making fun of the other ladies at bingo lol. anyways I love u so much and i’m so happy to have you in my life??? Fr? Bet!

(slight tw to whoever reads this, mentions of sexual harassment)

the background colour was the colour of my sweater that you touched me in. because of you, i have to worry about setting boundaries and other women respecting the fact i don't like being sexually touched and given sexual comments. you played a part in my trauma, fuck you.

i am so scared of your judgement in somethings i have secrets i’m not even willing to share with you...

I miss you. I miss you so much it hurts. But I don't even have a reason to miss you. I literally talk to you everyday. It doesn't matter if we talk in person or through text, I miss you. I'll see something funny and think of you. Even when I try not to, you're all I can think about. You're one of the reasons I breath, but you leave my breathless. You're the ground my feet won't reach. You'll send a picture of yourself, and my heart just stops. Honestly, I'm scared how much I love you. I wish I didn't. I know you don't like me back, and that's okay. You don't need to, I'm fine with being just the way we are. I remember the first time we met really vividly. It's okay if you don't. It feels like I've known you for forever, but in reality it's only been a few years.

Why did you have to steal him, didn't you see what him and I had. But the fact is your better than me, but deep down we both know you should have told me the truth. Look at the mess.

i always check up on you just so see how you are. you look happy. i’m honestly so glad you are. that’s all i want for you. you were my first love and someone i will always cherish. hopefully one day we can become friends again because you were great at that. love you loser

I really miss having you by me. I really train my brain to miss you but some days I just can't get you off my mind.

i lied when i told you that i loved you more than i loved myself. i never understood love until i met you, and now i can't live without it. im glad we separated. see you on the other side b.

I love you but I'm too afraid to tell you.I see the way you look at me,too,yet I can't bring myself to confess.

We’re even in the same class,I try to act tough around you to seem cooler but all I really wanna do is grab you and kiss you.I love your smile and your laughter and the way you giggle every time I make a joke,I love the way you’re always touchy-feely with me by holding my hand,putting your head on my shoulder,hugging me,always sitting next to me in class and how you look at me.I know this is probably really pathetic,like,writing letters on here to you knowing that you most likely won’t read them.But I really really like you,or as one would say,I really really love you.I admire you confidence and the way you always stand up for yourself. I’m not even 16 yet here I am,a 13 year old girl confessing how I feel about another 13 year old girl.

Hey you’re perfect. You’re every mans dream woman. I’ve never seen someone like you. I asked you out a few days ago and I just want to say that there’s no hard feelings that you said no. I get it. Someone like you doesn’t want someone like me. A guy who doesn’t have his life together and going no where in life. I understand. I just want you to know that you light up everyone’s world and your such a hard worker. Your fucking beautiful and the most precious person I’ve ever met. I understand now why all these guys start to have crushes on you. Everyone at work had a HUGE crush on you they told me you were intimidating because you had your life put together already. If you ever wondered why all the guys were only nice to you it’s because they respected you. Your one of a fucking kind and you know that. You carry yourself so well and your definitely going to go places. I just know it. Btw I chose this color because it’s the color of your sick ass car! Fuck man I could go on about you. I’ve only known you for a few months but, the impact that you’ve had on me says a lot about the person you are.

Fuck you Victoria.why would you tell to everyone about my secret even tho I trusted you? You ruined my life. While you are enjoying your life, I'm desperately trying to cope with life. Why Victoria, why?

I'm sorry about how it ended but the distance was too much to handle
I hope you know it hurt for me too

You were the first person in such a long time to make me feel the way you did. I wish I could go back and relive the memories we made together during the summer. You're such an important person to me. I love you so much but you'll never know. I miss you a lot. I just want to stay up with you until 6 am again but we've slowly drifted. I hope you're doing well.

you told me that
you wanted me and my boyfriend to get married and then had sex with him the minute I leave his house

You know, I really thought we were forever. But now I don't know. We can't go back to how it use to be.

I wish we could be only friends, but since I made your life more “terrible”, we better stay as strangers.

I trusted you when i was at my lowest and you took advantage of that and despite that i can't stay away from you.

i need you to know that your support and love make me indescribably happy every day. i love you so much.

we may not have ever dated but you’re the first person to make me realize that i was attracted to women and i appreciate it more than you know.

you were the first person i thought i loved
even if that feeling wasn't real i still want to have conversations with you at 4 am on the roof

I love you Victoria. Truly, we’ve gone through so much together and have only gotten stronger, I love you. Happy 6 Months, i hope to be with you for 6+ More Lifetimes my one and only

i don't think love you anymore, but i still wonder if you think of me the same way i think of you from time to time

victoria, you were the girl i could've loved. why'd you leave? was i not enough?, but you said i was perfect. what changed over night? one night you tell me you love me, then you left the next. whywhywhywhy. you were my first kiss that had meaning, that i cared for actually kissing. you made me happy, you put me out of my comfort zone, i danced with you when you asked. i miss you. what if you just liked that other person the whole time. and was lying to me?? i wish you thought about what i cared. i wish i would have tried harder, then again i would've been more hurt. just wish you had told me. before just leaving. i wish i kissed you that day at the park. i wanted to, but i was just scared. i wish i wasn't scared, then something eh idk. i miss you.

la verdad que te amaba como a un hermano, pero me hiciste tanto daño y ni un perdón recibí de tu parte LACONCHADETUMADREHIJODEREMILPUTA

I wish I could go back and give you what you deserved but somehow I feel as if I would have messed it up all again.

No sé que nos prepare el futuro pero lo que si se es que quiero hacer lo posible para mantenerte a mi lado, es mi promesa eterna para ti

hi sissy.
i hope im making u proud. im living for u and so that your sunshine and happiness can stay on this world. i know i never got to meet u but i feel someway that your a part of me. after u passed i was the one who made dad happy again. i just hope that im doing your name proud. i love you my sweet angel.

You are enough. You are perfect. You are the love of my life. Not in the romantic way but in the friendship way. I don’t know if you know this but you saved me. You saved me so many times and I love you so much. I know you don’t think you are with it but trust me you are more than enough. I love you babes

Hi Mum, you were suppose to be their and love me no matter what. But how does it feel now knowing that you're the one who isn't going to get to experience those milestones with me. You were the one who force a child to become an adult so young. Who taught me that only I can protect myself.

i still keep everything you gave me. im sorry i never got to give anything back. i hope you still love me

you knew the shit i went through with her, you constantly talked shit about her and how she treated me and now you’re the one doing exactly what she did. you promised me you wouldn’t do this, you wouldn’t leave me for him and yet you did. exactly what she did.

Hey you, you’ll probably never see this and i kinda hope you don’t cause boy that would be something haha. but umm just wanted to stop on by and say that even though it’s been months i still can’t get over you. you probably already have someone and if that’s the case i’m happy for you ! it’s good to get back in the game lol. but yeah i hope you’re doing okay and that life is treating you good, you deserve it :) there’s so much more i could say but ehh if you know what i mean. oh and if you do see this this should give a hint as to who it is haha: :$ welp ig that’s it for tonight ladies and gentlemen

I opened up, you invaded and left with our looking back...why?I will forever wonder about your thought process

when you kissed me, everything felt right. since we were kids i always knew you were a special friend.

I always was meaningless for you, and i knew it all the time.
I never was an only one to you, just a small piece of a broken glass on the beach. I didnt remember 90% of what happened, bc of pain.

Hello :)
How are you?
Are you okay?
Are you sure?
How is your family?
How is your dog?
Your siblings?
I just wanted to check in. It's been a while since we have done that. I can tell that you're stressed. We've been friends for years now, have you forgot? I just want you to know that I am here for you.

i finally gave up on you. you're not coming back, and you're not going to be a better person. i hope your boyfriend is happy, and that you've found someone who you can't crush under your thumb because you don't know how to get over yourself. maybe someday you'll be someone i can be proud to have known. be safe, don't call, don't text, and watch me thrive from a distance. loved you!

This is your favorite color, it's also the color of your perfect eyes. i wish we could have been lovers in this life. i'm glad you're happy now. I love you more than myself. All i want is to see you smile. Your smile means more to me than anything on this earth. I love you.

I hope one day you won't always yell at me at the second sentence and that you get it that it hurts me when you keep yelling at me and that you very often give me the feeling that I can't do anything right and that I often do after such actions lying in my room and crying because it breaks me more and more inside, but I also know that I don't always do everything right and I'm sorry about that too, your little sister

Hi I’m not sure if you’ll ever check this but I love you. Thank you for coming in my life and being so awesome all the time, I hope you find your true happiness and love!!! yellow cause it’s your fav color

such a beautiful soul. i wish you didn’t have to treat yourself like this; i wish you would eat more :(

I hate you. I thought we are really best friends, but you ruined everything. I'm really sad that you were lying to me, not carrying about our friendship and were that toxic. I'm not even missing you.

I wish you knew about how much I love u, how I would do anything for u how I plan my day around talking to u, how i’m failing my classes because i’d rather listen to u and not my teacher, and how hard I smile when I see ur name on my phone. I love u so much, Victoria. I love everything about u, and I would do anything to see u smile. I hear ur laugh when I laugh. But you don’t love me how I love u. U don’t care about me. We would be so perfect together, but ur too fucking selfish to realize that.

I could never kiss someone I don’t love darling. I’m truly sorry for my stupid young self.

I love you

I miss being your friend and I wonder what would have happen if we never stopped being friends

I see her, in the back of my mind, all the time. Like a fever, like i’m burning alive, like a sign…

‘Glimpse of us’, I can never seem to forget you. Please give me a sign Vic