he stars remind me of you, the moon reminds me of you, everything reminds me of you. you are the first boy i have ever loved. that is coming from someone who doesn’t even believe in love. I would never say any of this to anyone, because i hate being vulnerable. i am so afraid of people leaving, but for some reason with you i believe you will stay. i hope you will stay. you have been there for me when no one else has. you make me feel better in a way that doesn't really make sense to me. i never thought you would even know my name, but now you tell me I’m your best friend. i should just be thankful for that and trust me i am, just sometimes i wish it was me and not her. the thought of how much her little brother must love you. thinking of how her family must love you just like mine. the thought of you looking at her like you look at me it makes me wish i was more. but as long as you are in my life it seems that i can deal with it being her. sometimes i feel like it could be me. the songs, the moments. I don't know if it will ever be me, some reason i am set on the thought that it will be. some weird meant to be shi that i would never normally believe in. if i was to ever lose you i am not sure what i would do. i know these are the most cringe things you could say about a person but it feels good to get it out. i'm not sure how this will all work, i just for some reason truly do think it will. there is so much more i could try to say, but i don't think i could ever put it into words. if anyone i knew was to read this i would tell them to forget all about it, like i said i never say these things because they scare me, love scares me. but what i said earlier about love being fake, i have to take it back. looking at the stars as you held tight. thats when i knew. it is you, and until i can look at the sky and it is not you, it will still be you. most likely it will always be you.