Unsent messages to SHEN

I'm sorry I couldn't be what you wanted. I hope you will find someone that loves as hard as you do.

i hope you stay safe

I still love you unconditionally. After everything…

you’re not my first, but you’re my greatest

Please don't leave me

i love you no matter what will happen! like i used to say :)

Your last message broke me

i think youre really handsome and pretty also you have a good personality, ur taste in cars is mwahh

You’ll always have a place in my heart

im moving on, i hope you too. healing but never forgetting :))

happy new year shen :)) ngayon lang kita nabati ng maayos, everytime kasi na nagkakausap tayo nadadala tayo ng emotions natin. i wanna say this before this year ends. i'm sorry kagabi kung i disappointed you sa mga words ko, hindi ko lang talaga alam yung right words para maexplain sayo yung side ko. thankyou for being a part of my life since 2019 :)) sa maikling panahon na yun, u made me the happiest version of myself. although syempre marami dinn tayong pinagdaanan, countless times nating nasaktan natin yung isa't isa pero wala akong pinagsisihan sa buong relasyon natin kasi yung pain and happiness na naramdaman ko satin, it taught me a lot. and lahat ng yun yung bumuo sa relationship natin :)) nakakaproud noh? pero at the same time nakakalungkot, naaalala ko pa rin yung pakiramdam ko nung nasa ferris wheel tayo :)) isa yun sa pinakamasayang araw para sakinn. naalala q pa nung nag-out ka sa mami moo, sobrang hindi ko inexpect yun kasi alam ko na sobrang hirap. kaya para sakin sobrang brave mo as a person, kasi kahit na may part sayo na natatakot to be yourself, nagrrisk ka pa rin ng walang kasiguraduhan sa outcome. sobrang proud ako sa growth mo, nakita ko sa saglit na pinagsamahan natin na u are striving to be the best version of yourself ng step by step :)) thankyou kasi ikaw din yung naging inspiration ko to be better, lalo na nung sa grades ko nun hahahaha, ikaw rin yung naging reason kung bat kinaya kong maging totoo sa parents ko :)) ewan ko ikaw yung nagppush sakin para mas maggrow ganun, and thankyouu kasi ikaw yung naging safe place ko. i'm so glad na nakilala kita bilang ikaw. marami man akong pagkukulang sayo pero sana sa maikling panahon na yun naiparamdam ko sayo na mahal na mahal kita bilang ikaw :)) i'm sorry kung hindi na ako magiging part ng 2021 mo haa? ayoko ng maging hindrance ako sayo para maging masaya ikaw. i'm sorry shen na kung hindi na ako yung magiging pahinga moooo, i hope someday, darating din yung right person na ipaparamdam sayo na ano mang problema yung dumating, pipiliin ka pa rin niyaa araw-araw, na kasama mo sya sa saya and lungkot hanggang dulooo. and sa time na yun i hope makita ulit kita kahit saglit just to see your smile for the last time. thankyou for choosing to fight for us until the end :)) pero ig hanggang dito nalanh talaga tayo. it has been a great moment with you my love, ingat ka. see u around ✨


the moon is beautiful isn't it?

hi eto na talaga last msg ko sa unsent for now, hindi na din siguro ako mag-mmsg ulii muna sayoo. sobrang sorry sheennn haa? alam ko nahurt kita ng superrr sana maging oki tayo uli pagdating ng araww, basta sa ben&ben haa see uuu, if want mo langg naman. ayonnn thankyouuuu sobraa. mag-iingat ka lagiii!! and be happyy ♥️ support pa din kita sa mga wants mo and galingan mo sa acadsss oki? hehe baibaiii iyaken iwubyuuu

ps: kung makikita mo 'to tas sad ka, cheer up!!!! kaya yannnn pahinga lang tas laban uliiitt :))) magiging okay din lahaatttttt *insert tight huuuuuuug*

hi bebeee imissyou, i hope u oki naaaa :)) magiging okay din lahat yan in time ha? gaya nga ng sabi ko sayo it's okay to feel a lot of thingss, kung hindi ka pa okayyy edi hindiii wag mo rush self mo to be okayy ha? take your timee to heal from thingss na hindi mo nasshare out loouud. i'm sorry i can't be theree to hug uuuuu and to tell u na everything will be alrighttt. pero ayon soon okii? ffix ko labg self ko okii? focus muna tayp sa sarili natin pareho :)) mahal na mahal pa rin kitaaa and stay safe alwayssss! fightingggg iyakennn ?

just keep the tix, kapag natuloy na we'll go together :)) ofc want ko pa rin na ikaw yung kasama ko dun so itago mo muna for now. stay safe always, i love you.

nakita ko yung msg mo, idk but i had the urge to open unsent msg so i did. u don't have to say sorry for giving up, siguro napagod ka na rin to work things out. ik i'm difficult to handle so thankyou for handling me well for a whole yr hahaha, i tried to stop you by reassuring u na you're all i need kasi ayun lang yung kaya kong gawin, i don't wanna force u to be with me just to lose yourself someday. oo magulo ako sa mga bagay na gusto ko sa buhay, hindi ako sigurado. pero one thing i'm sure is i need you. sinabi ko lang yung thoughts ko about sa future na i've dreamt of but i never said that i don't wanna spend the rest of my life with you. pero ayunnn, ayoko na rin sigurong iforce yung mga bagay bagay, siguro hindi pa talaga 'to yung right time para sating dalawa :)) i also want u to be happy and siguro i'm also getting in the way para maachieve mo yun :)) so ayun ig i'm letting you go. don't blame yourself for giving up on us, tandaan mo lang na u did everything u could. mahal na mahal kita okiii? be safe alwaysss. msg ka lang kapag want moo ket di ako masyadong active makikita q naman eon pag napadpad ako ulit. you'll always be my homeee and my greatest love. i love you.

ps: oki na pakiramdam ko onting rest nalang :)) u take care and abt sa ticket, use it naaa kahit hindi ako ying kasama mo as long you're happy. malay moo diba kapag natuloy na yung concert, you'll go there with your mahiwaga :))

can u wait for me? please? i can't lose u haha pero if you're happy na it's okay. yun lang naman gusto ko :)) idk kung immsg pa kita, aaaaaaAaa hindj ko alam wkwkw aasa nalang siguro ako na ikaw unang magmmsg haahha and if ever man which is impossible, i'd do the right thing na para satin. nakakapagod matakot hahaha i'm fckng done running away from the person i love haha i hope u see this. i love you

siguro ito na muna yung last time na mag-mmsg ako sayo dito, mahal na mahal kita shen :))) i'm sorry kanina kung hindi ko nasagot calls mo nagbreakdown lang akooo ayoko lang marinig mo hahahahaha. i want you to be happy :))) u don't deserve someone like me na natatakot to be with you. u don't deserve a coward okay? u deserve someone na irrisk lahat ng walang hesitation. i'm sorry kung hindi ko pa kaya sa ngayon shen hahaha i'm sorry for being scared to have you. take care of yourself always, i'll miss you. kung gusto mo msg ka lang kahit saan kaso di ko alam kung makakapah reply ako nagdelete ako ng social media apps ko muna for now. i won't bother u na ha? i don't want to get in the way of your happiness. i love you so much. you will always be my home.

lakas ng ulan rn haha, i wish you were here. gusto kitang yakapin, kasi pag nasa arms mo 'ko nawawala yung takot and worries ko hahaha. i miss you :)) stay safe always po. kaluguran daka :))

hi :) napanaginipan kita hahaha skl naman, hinawakaan ko daw face mo tas nagsmile ikaw haha kamissss. kagabi binasa ko uli mga letters mo sakin nung monthsary natinn di ko na kinaya, nagbreakdown na ko. i just miss you so much kung alam mo lang. madalas tinutulog ko nalang pag malungkot ako pero wala pag gising ko ganun pa rin eh haha. nagppretend nalang ako everyday na okay ako, na kaya ko ng wala ka pero hindi :)) things are so much better when i am with you. i hope you're doing well and happy :)) i love you

hi :)) i miss you. it's been a year mula nung nakilala kitaa pero mas lalo pa rin kitang minamahal. pag nababasa ko mga msgs natin noon napapangiti nalang ako hahaha. i wanna hug you so tight rn. lahat ng kantang napapakinggan ko ikaw yung naalala ko idk why. ayunn i hope you're doing well and galingan mo sa exams lam q kayang kaya mo yunnn!! mahal na mahal kita, hanggang dulo. -?

ps: yung buong msg ko sayo para sa ngayon isasama ko nalang sa bati ko sa bday mo :))

hii, saw your msg :)) u okayyyy? pagod na po ikaw? rest ka na muna po. kita ko aga mo nagising, bawi ka ishlip later ha? wag mo pabayaan self moo. health muna bago acads okay? mas importante yuuuun, hirap magkasakit ngayoon. i'm always here for you ha? msg lang ikaw rreply ako agaaad oki? gawin ko best ko para i-cheer up ikaw :)) i'm so proud of you my love, kikita ko yung effort mo sa acads, kahit mahirap ol class lalo na ngayong pandemic. nakakasira ng mental health tbh kaya sobrang napproud ako na kinakaya mo and you're doing well ? galing galing ng baby ko :)))) pag kita ko ikaw hug kita super higpiiit and kithhh tas treat ko ikaw ng want mo na food para papahinga na ikaw sakiin hehehe. i miss you so muuuch. u eat lunch owkiii? owkii. i love you - ?

hi :)) musta day mo? siguro pagod ikaw ol class, rest na ikaw and kain ka dinner. wag ka masyado pa-stress sa reqs niyoo matatapos din yan :)) pag napi-feel mo na di mo na kaya pahinga ka muna kesa mag breakdown ikaw habang nagawa reqs hehehe. i hope u had a great daaay!! la ako ginawa buong araw tunganga lang and did some thinking hahaha ayunn skl naman in case u wanna know how my day went. good nighttt and restwell ✨ i love you -? *insert hugs and kisses*