today has been odd. i can't stop thinking about you. there are so many things that i've never noticed before. i didn't just want to be your friend really bad. no. i had a crush on you. i was in love with you. i started every morning with a small smile because of you. i made up stories of boys, just so i could talk to you. i was desperate to make a connection with you. but you broke my heart. in so many ways. but you broke my heart and took all the pieces with you when you broke my heart as a friend. when liking boys wasn't enough to break my heart, you were the worst friend i've ever had. and when i stopped really talking to you, you didn't even notice. oh, rose. i'll always love you. but i wish i wouldn't. it hurts. more than you could ever imagine.