It’s heartbreaking that I’m writing this. I know that it’s hard to love yourself and to keep up with life but trust me you have to try. I know you want to die all the time or scream at the top of your lungs but that won’t change anything. I know you’re tortured by your demons and no matter what you try or do you’ll always feel like the stupid, dumb, empty person you are. It’s hard, specially when you have nothing to look forward but you have to continue straight otherwise life as you know it will fall and crumble. You’re many things but primarily strong. You could have let yourself go a long time ago but you decided not to. For some reason or force you weren’t able to. Use that as your advantage and take a step forward because it’s the only direction you can more toward. Love yourself. Love yourself. Love yourself. Love others. And keep your peace at all time.

With thoughts and maybe love, r

i hope you're doing great, its been a year now and i still miss and love you.