im sorry raina but im so in love with you it hurts. i know youll only ever think of me as a friend and that there are so many other girls in your snaps, but i just miss being with you

hey bestie
hope you become the successful entrepreneur person you wanna be. you're amazing and deserve good things

i think you are really confused in life right now, not knowing what you want or how to feel. i think that sometimes you like to blame yourself because it is more convenient that way. you never like to believe in what you have because you are afraid of what could become, and i get it and understand so much and that's why i care so much i guess. i can relate so much. i am my own worst enemy and i think that you are your own worst enemy aswell. that's why i gravitate so much towards you, i guess. that's always been the reason i think.

i like to be close with people I can relate to because it makes me feel better about myself and it gives me someone I can see myself in. what i always try my best to do is just try and help everyone around because i feel as if it makes me better and gives me reason. you're one of those people i kind of latched on too and saw myself in, i guess. the reason i care so much is that i hope that one day we can both end up in a better state than we are in right now. i hope that we can end up helping each other.

i dont know. i dont want to like someone who is confused like you. do not take that the wrong way. i just don't want to take advantage of how you are feeling or you in general. i just don't know if i should. i don't know. i just don't want to confuse things even more. part of me never stopped liking you in that way, but you are just so confused. i don't know if you know what it is you want.

raina, youre beating yourself up again because it is more convenient that way. you're not a horrible person. you're just so confused as to how to feel about everything. i get that, and I am confused too. do you still like me?

stop, youre not a horrible person raina. you're just so confused. what if we do get back together? what if a part of you still likes zach? because I know you are not completely over him. you do not know who to like more or how to feel. that does not make you horrible raina.

this is to myself. Just know that it will be okay. Please keep telling urself it will be okay. please keep going..

I'm sorry for being a lousy person. You say you understand but I know you don't. You literally were my best friend. But the pain I feel over this kind of thing is just too much anymore. I just couldn't take it anymore. Im still messed up over this raina. Im crying will typing this haha I just fucking wish none of this had to happen and I know its my fault no matter what you say. You can say it's you all you want. But I know its not. This is a personal decision. By me. Its my fault. And im so sorry to both you and myself.

I like you. I want to be more than friends. But not now. Not until everything is figured out and we know what is right.

youre a great person raina. like legitmately. the type of person I cant ever lose. you're my best friend. you mean a lot to me okay?

The best thing I did for myself was let you leave. Please dont come back.

I wonder if I’ll ever know how much of everything you’ve said was a lie and if you regret any of it

Maybe it was my fault

I dont know how we always ended up hurting each other. i loved you w everything i had, i hope u know

just one last time please?

I always miss you.

you were too nice to me and it scared me. i always thought you were too good for me. i’m sorry

I dont miss you like I used to, Im sorry.

Everything that makes me, me, has a little part of u.

I was really hoping we would work out but you found your person.

i saw ur message for me i think under my nickname from you.it brought back alot,i hope ur doing okay

still you

I was really hoping we would work. But you gave me reasons it won't, I still love you.

Why did you always lie to me?

i hate the way we made eye contact after going no contact for a year

I’ve moved on. I don’t love you anymore

you’re so cute bro wtf

One day i hope you turn around adn be proud of yourself for survivng <3

Did it hurt watching me break myself for you?

I thought you were different.

You wanted me to love you when you were out loving on other men.. Why.

I miss us. my first love and first real friend. You were my sunflower I hope you are doing good

I feel like I made the wrong choice and it should’ve been you. I know you’ll be a good mom. Miss you

I miss you Bug, do you remember our hand gesture for I love you? Cause I do Rain.

was that from you?

it's not my place, but happy valentines day <3 i miss you

i don't think i can ever move on from you. it has to be you, i hope you feel the same even a little

It’s been months and I still can’t move on..

i hate the decision you made i love you come back ray

i wish we could be more than friends but im too scared to confess my love.i hate looking vulnerable

would you answer??

Even though I’m on the opposite of the country, you’ll always be my best friend

i miss you so much it hurts

i wish i knew if there was still a chance. you're my path, Raina.

i miss talking to u, pls text me we haven’t talked since summer of that year. i want to apologize