I really loved you. Actually I think I still do love you. I'm not sure anymore and I hate myself for that. You were never serious about me and you knew that. You never wanted to be with me and that's ok but why couldn't you leave me alone. I feel like every time you sensed I was over you or moving on you were back in my life with a simple "hey." Why? Why couldn't you leave me alone? Why couldn't you leave our friendship alone? It was such a good friendship. I was happy with it. We got along so well. We knew everything about each other. Fuck I was so fucking happy. Fuck you and your stupid fucking dream you had about me. You shouldn't have told me about it. You could've kept it yourself but you just had to tell me. You ruined so much for me. I can't do anything without thinking about you. I can't play my guitar because it reminds me of the times you walked me to my music class. I can't watch my sister dance because it reminds me of the time we spent together on the night of her show. I can't think about English or P.E during freshman year because we spent so much time together.I can't talk about field day because that was such a good day for us. Do you remember? We had a fire drill that lasted like an hour or something and the school let us kinda roam around before we could go have fun. We walked around the school and got Gatorades from the vending machines and you carried my backpack for me. You stayed with me even tho your friends wanted you to go hang out with them. We were just together, hanging out normally but it was special for me. The sad part is I don't think you remember. Jesus you erased about 10 years of insecurities about my hair with a simple "I love your curls." Fuck you. I don't even have good high school memories yet because they all revolve around you. If you wanted to be friends like we used to be I'd love that. But that would never happen because I'm not the same. Fuck you're not the same but I'm not mad about that. If you're happy with who you've become then that's great but I lost myself trying to please you and I'm done with that. I'm trying to move on. If you don't care about me then please let me go. You don't want me and I promise I'm ok with that but please, let me be happy with myself or someone else. Please.

my sweet puffy, i'll always love you no matter what <3

Even after we broke up I’ll love u always and forever mi amor ❤️. I hope we come back some day Ily