You caught my eye the first time I saw you, even if it was through a computer screen. We never really got to know each other well and you're probably this kind to everyone you meet, but you made me excited for class each day. Just seeing your face was enough to fill me with fireflies. I wish you'd feel the same. What you said wasn't that deep to you, but I hope one day we can still schedule for that campfire together.

I don’t think you saw the first one. I miss you so much and I have so much guilt for how I ended things. I hope you find this and I hope you find me again. you look so happy with your boyfriend and your little plant family. I miss you.

I’m sorry I can’t stop thinking about violets. I’m suffocating in violets right now. My lungs are filling with them and their vines pierce my heart and eyes, and they fill my ears to where all I can do is feel, hear, and see violets. My senses are overloaded with the dread of be overflowed with more violets. It’s always violets right? I can’t control them I can’t get them to stop growing and hurting me. I can’t escape them. They just keep wrapping around my legs and my arms. Save me, Sunflower

I only said yellow was my favorite for u. I still have nightmares because of you. Fuck yellow. Fuck you.

I miss you.












Jayde, I miss you.
I just want to be friends again.
im sorry for being a bitch.


-'meanie' :) lmao

i'm sorry i'm a lot of trouble to deal with. my illness doesn't feel good for me either. i just need some time. i love you.

Jayde, i know you dont check these anymore but im hoping through some kind of fucking power this hits you. whether you read it here or just me typing it out gets you to do it


but please
leave me alone


it hurts.
its hurts so fucking much
you wont talk to me for days, weeks, MONTHS at a time and i still cant get over you!

so

leave me alone.
dont come back.
dont message me.

PLEASE SUNFLOWER


LET ME FUCKING FORGET YOU!


i love you, but it hurts
and im sick of hurting because of YOU.


so please,

as much as i love you, go.
leave me alone.
forget i exist and make better friends
i doubt you consider me a friend anymore but please


i have to forget you.

i need to move on


you'll never love me like i love you


you never have.


goodbye, jayde.

Zack,
I don’t know why I used to call you sunflower when you called me sunshine, yet here we are.


You messed me up. I don’t know if I’ll ever find someone as wonderful as you. I miss the way you look at the world. I miss your eyes, I miss your words, your voice, your hands. I miss your love for great literature, I miss hearing your brilliant thoughts each day. I miss your understanding, your gentleness, your strength, your laugh. It’s been two years and I’ve still never met someone like you, with the gentle eyes that peer right into my very soul. Sorry I blocked you, it’s probably for the best though.

Idk why you entered my life but i feel grateful and scared at the same time.

Just text me like you used to... it hurts bc I don't wanna loose you

I love you too pluto and back

I miss you <3

I wish you'd call more often

You are so cute and sweet, i really don't want to fall for you

I saw a little Sunflower plushie yesterday. I wish I could have bought it for you, i do miss you

I miss you every day of my life, and I'm sorry.

I Wish one day I was yours again...it hurts so much not having you with me....I miss you...

I miss you so much it’s eating me alive

One day I will stop falling in love with you.

In our time apart love I’ve realized why you left. Give me time, please wait for me. You’re the sun.

Blue the color of the planet from far far away. I wish I could talk to you. I miss you.

I think about you every time I'm driving home at night. How do I remove this hook you put in me?

You'll never understand how much you hurt me. Did I deserve it? I'm not your sunflower anymore