I really don't know where to start... Well, I guess from the beginning. We both pulled a big YOLO moment. I know that you knew, that I was going to text you. But even the first day with you... It's a day I will never forget. The sunset, the lake, the champagne, the strawberries, the night afterward, we didn't even kiss, and I didn't miss it, I just felt good with you, so we continued, did stuff almost every second day. It was summer, we could do that. The family trip, the day we got soaking wet. We did stuff most couples don't do, and we weren't even together. I slowly started to fall, we were partners in crime, that's what we called it, everybody else called us a couple. As I said, I slowly started to fall, and i have continued to fall ever since, I need you, especially now, when its a bit hard, those weekends we spend together are my chance to live and feel, falling asleep with you in my hands, is the best feeling in the world, and when you hug me tight in your sleep, my heart does a flip. I miss you dumbass. You're my first love, but you don't know that yet, you almost told me that you love me and in new years I'm going to tell you, as you and I know, we'll go to my parent's house, and bake, go to the sauna, have dinner at my grandmas, hope for snow so we can snowball fight, play with our dogs, dress up, so ill finally see what the mystery dress is. And somewhere throughout the evening, I'll tell you, I hope I'll tell you