If you ever come upon this, I wonder what name you’d search under. I like to ask myself why I liked you so much, like what it was that set alarms off in my head? I still couldn’t say. At the end of the day you’re a closed off alcoholic with an unwarranted amount of false kindness. If you just saw me as a kid you shouldn’t have sent me that stupid text after the Christmas party. You shouldn’t have sent me your address on thanksgiving, and you shouldn’t have answered when I called you drunk on my 21st birthday. Why even give me attention or make the little jokes. It may have been funny for you but you were the first person I felt anything for in three years. It was like I suddenly had someone who made the days pass with new emotions. I felt my heart in my chest again. I just feel stupid now, and I can’t begin to say how quickly I’m going to distance myself and get away. You shouldn’t have slept with your best friend’s girlfriend, you can’t take those things back. You sure as hell can’t take back rubbing it in his face. He didn’t deserve that. I guess I wasn’t thin or coked out enough for someone like you.

every time i think about you it makes me cry that you’re not here and not with me. i wish i was there and i wish i could’ve helped you. one day we’ll meet again and we’ll be able to lie down and watch the stars together, while listening to that music you love, kiss each others cheeks, and eat those delicious cookies. i miss you but i’ll be with you soon. ily

Sometimes I miss you. I don’t regret what happened, but I catch myself thinking about you.
Sorry.

You will forever be the love of my life

You'll always be my best friend :3

i'm sorry for not talking to you i didn't think you thought of us as friends anymore

you always made me feel seen. still do.

you’ll never know. but i’ll always love you <3

I wish we still had the friendship we used to before we got together then crumbled apart :( sorry mb

i loved you so much, but it wasn’t enough to save you. i just can’t let go. i’m sorry.