I didn’t realize how i wanted to be more than friends in middle school and i still miss you sometimes

hey nat! i'm so sorry. i haven't been a good friend and we have been a little distant recently. i love you.

I wish you weren’t so far away. I know you don’t know if you like me yet. We haven’t talked in a while. I still ly. I haven’t had something so real in so long. You changed that .

why did you have to do that to me? why did you get to hurt me beyond repair at such a young age and continue on like nothing ever happened? i'm broken and it's your fucking fault. i hate you, i fucking hate you. i wish we never met.

hi. its been a while since we talked. and tbh i miss you so bad. even tho i hate you at the same time. you ruined me so much that i cried myself to sleep every single night. how pathetic i was to actually believe you that you loved me. now all i think of is the time that we were close to each other. i hate to think about it but i somehow have to. i keept on thinking its my fault, even tho i know it isnt. you broke me. its been 4 months already. do you still miss me? because i do. so bad. you were my bestfriend, a soulmate. i thounght i'd never lose you but now? i want to forget about you but i know that someday ill think of these times again. i lost two people in my life that i never wanted to lose and youre one of them. i love you but fuck you. dont talk to me ever again. it doesnt make sense i know. but thats just how i feel. and i cant change it. you have new friends, even a bf. if i could go back to the day we met i would never get out of bed. i felt like shit and i still do. was i not good enough for you? what did i do wrong? it hurts so bad that you basically called me a strager after all we've been throuhg. youre still friends with anne, right? youre like bffs. and it sometimes upsets me that you talk to her. im scared youll do the same things to her that you did to me. dont ever. if you have to at least talk to her about it. dont just disappaer like you did. you never loved me did ya? i was so stupid. i hate to believe i actually thought you werent honest.it says i should write a message to my first love. and even tho youre not one, i still consider you as a big part of my life. you showed me that i have to be careful about befriending woth anyone else. im scared that people i love will do the same things you did to me. when you came back from the hospital i broke. i cried so bad cuz everyone missed you and thought i would be happy about it. i could even write properly. i wish i could end it earlier. i hope you know you did this and i hope you know its your fault. no, not yours. ours. i should've been a better friend to you. in the end maybe its just my fault? or maybe i just overthink stuff to much. i dont know. that would be it for now. we'll see how ill feel in like a year. bye i guess. burn in hell.

You’re a brain tumour but I love you with all my heart, you are truly my best friend and I think of you everyday

Ugh you’re so dumb. Why do you push away others? You always say it’s because you are “emotionally unavailable,” I highly doubt that. I hate you so much you left me like nothing. I waited for you for so long and nothing. I hope you suffer the way you made me suffer. I miss the old you.

i'm still getting a truck just for us to cuddle in the back of it & to drive to McDonald's at 4 am & 3 states over

I love you. I will love forever. Your my world. Whenever I look in to your eyes I am getting lost. Whenever you speak my heart melts. I just wanna be with you. You make me happy. I love you.

do u like him more than me? does he know your middle name, your favorite colors like i do? your favorite animal, your family? i am not a boy nor am i attractive but i would be anything else for you

I miss you sometimes. I still look at your friends social media accounts just to see if you look like you're doing alright.

I love you with my whole heart. you are one go my best friends. but it is so damn hard to be with you all the time. I am no wear near as pretty and constantly being compared to how pretty you are is so damaging. I could say that I am the second choice but even that's not true. when we are together and you catch guys eyes I fade into the background. you ares so insecure but when you point them out my own insecurities expand. like if you hate that about yourself what does that make. Im sorry if getting compared to famous celebrities is getting annoying. I will always listen to you complain about yourself. but I truly don't think you understand how hard it is for me. its gotten to the point to wear there is not one single thing about myself that I like. not one damn thing. my body is bigger. my face is not as even. my hair is frizzy and unruly. my nose and proportions are horrendous. and I never truly noticed until you pointed them out on yourself. but we are all entitled to our insecurities. and I know its not your fault but its just so damn hard sometimes.

I'm sorry I'm never you're first choice and i'll try every day to make myself better for you. I constantly feel like our friendship is one sided. Like yes you're my 7 year long best friend but you never reciprocrate the same energy i do towards this whole thing between us. I'm sorry if think i'm not good enough and yet again i'll always try to make myself fit into your standards

I hate that you like the way i dress. I hate that you see yourself in me. I hate your mum. I love you but I dont think i like you anymore.

hello uhm i dont really know why do i want to send a message to you but i think i just want to say that i hope when you finally catch feelings for him, i hope you love him wholeheartedly because even God knows he deserves it. i know he will never look at me like the way he looks at you but its okay im slowly accepting it.

You destroyed what we had. I don't know why but you gave up. You have betrayed me so many times so that even though all I want is to have you back, I know that you will just hurt me again. Although you pride yourself on honesty, you are the biggest liar I know. I can't believe I let you see the most vulnerable parts of myself. You didn't deserve to know me. Never trust a fucking scorpio

I wish you didn't do what you did we would still be together if you didn't I miss you and I hate it because I shouldn't miss you but I love you

you don't understand how much i fucking love you i would do anything for you, im sorry im bad at expressing my feelings but your the only person i really opened up to, you dont think i care for you but your the only thing thats keeping me alive. i love you nat :))

I know we're not as close as we used to be but I'm forever grateful for u. I hope when things get back to normal we can get closer

I miss you. I miss knowing I always had a friend to talk to. Knowing you would sit with me at lunch. Knowing we would make time stop when we were together.

What I don't miss is wondering if I was making us up. For the past year I have had you in the back of my mind. Especially recently knowing that there is a chance we can see each other again. I am scared that in our time apart I have been remembering something that never existed. I wonder if you feel how I feel. I would do anything to go back to just the two of us in the mountains. No service to distract us from each other. Just us and nature.

If there is one thing I could tell you right now, it would simply be thank you. Thank you for being there for me like no one else was. Thank you for making the perfect summer better than I could describe. Thank you Natalie.

Not going to lie, it hurts thinking of us. But I kind of regret it but I miss you sort of. I hate that it seems like I want you because of clout but its because you're different

Hey i miss you a lot. Its been a lot since we talked. I miss hanging out with in our classes. My favorite class to hang out with was health. Yeah I wished I could go back to those days. So if been meaning to tell you something for a long time. I'm in love with you i don't know if you put a fucking love potion on me something cause it actually feels like that. I know it sounds weird cause were both girls. Not gonna lie im actually in love with you. I remember how I knew. I got on bus and I was just thinking about you. I was asking myself why does she make me so happy? Why do you make feel special? Why do I always smile when I see you? Why when im down and you come talk to me im happy? And I was asking my self why and then i saw to my right where the window was and I'm not lieing at all. The only thing I could see like everything was blurry the only thing I could see was you. And then I smiled and said cause I'm in love with you. Your the only person i think about. When someone tells me who like your the only person that pops in my mind. But of course I say i dont like no one. I wished for real I could text you this for real. I love you natalie

i cleaned my room today and found an old letter and song you wrote for me when we were in love. i cried. it's been almost a year and we don't talk anymore but i miss you like hell

you pushed me away even though i loved you more than i loved myself. i was gonna stay.but you ruined it

i still love you,i wish i didnt but i do. i told everyone about you, do i regret you? no. did you make me feel unspeakable pain? absolutely. i left not cause i loved you any less but because you made me feel as though i was anything but whole. i would go back to you but you have someone else now, i hope they make you happy. i wished you the best in life, i’m so jealous that you’re happy without me. i thought you were my other half, i thought you felt the same. apparently not. i really wish i could i hurt you, but i know that i would never want you to feel my pain, because it hurts more than anyone thinks. you were my sunrise the reason to get up in the morning, thank you for showing me that i can love someone that much, i love you more than life

I can't be around you anymore, it hurts my heart knowing you're in love with someone else when i'm the one you should be with.

i still think about you and the memories we made. my life has changed drastically since what happened, and im not guilty about it anymore. it was a good thing. for both of us. i hope we eventually get to the point where we dont have to hate each other anymore, because you were my best friend since 4th grade. thank you for making me realize my self worth, and i hope you’re doing well.

i still think about you and the memories we made. my life has changed drastically since what happened, and im not guilty about it anymore. it was a good thing. for both of us. i hope we eventually get to the point where we dont have to hate each other anymore, because you were my best friend since 4th grade. thank you for making me realize my self worth, and i hope you’re doing well.

i still think about you and the memories we made. my life has changed drastically since what happened, and im not guilty about it anymore. it was a good thing. for both of us. i hope we eventually get to the point where we dont have to hate each other anymore, because you were my best friend since 4th grade. thank you for making me realize my self worth, and i hope you’re doing well.

i wish you would stop caring about what everybody thinks of you and realize how beautiful you are inside and out. i hope soon you come to terms with your issues and move past them.

I’m so sorry for everything. You made me feel loved in such a short time period, and I fell for every aspect of you. Hopefully one day we can kick back, put on our playlist, and finally try those Red Bull’s we never got around to. Please come back. I miss my home.

i hope you take care of yourself. the first person i loved, it feels like. you were not the first to change on me, but you'll be the last.

Hey I'm not talking to you right now. But I really really miss you. I wish I could talk to you right now. I love you so much. You would know the right thing to say. It seems like everything hurts right now. I hope you are doing ok. I hope your finals go really well.

Everyday, whenever we talk I feel as If there Is something there, I keep myself up all night wondering “maybe there is something between us and we’re both scared to say” I don't know what to do. I miss you so much , whenever I see the same car as yours I quickly turn my head to see If It has those same stickers on the back, Whenever I see a brown haired person I automatically think it’s you, I search for you in a crowd, and sometimes I get a wift of your “scent” from something and It hurts. I hope one day I tell you I hope whenever I do it’s not too late.

I really was in love with you for a moment, although I doubt you’ll ever know it. You may have even felt the same, but your messages were just too mixed for me. I really hope they’re worth it, and I hope you don’t get lead on again.

I think you don't love me anymore or I don't deserve you. I am jealous all the time, got mood swings. I'm just annoying. I think your friends are better for you than me. I feel like I'm not enough, like I am too stupid for you. You feel much better with J & S and I can see this. I see you are happier when you are texting or meeting with them. I'm just dumb bitch. Idk what can I add. It's stupid. I wish I was special but I am just fat, ugly, stupid and depressed shit. I'm not on your and yr friends level. I just I can't believe you really love me, I am not that person who somebody would fall for. I want to die so bad. I am fucking baggage for you, my mom, sister, grandparents. I can see they hate me. I am big dissapointment for them. I hate my life so bad, I hate myself. I think If you would leave me and find someone better it will be good for you, really. I am shit.

From the first moment I launched upon that black and white backpack at stone you were cemented in my mind and the fact that we went so long with out talking and interacting is so crazy considering where we are at now. I would look at you when you came into señora Hoganson’s room and would always check you ouch and be jealous or you know who but the fact that we are where we are now make me believe in patience to wait this long to find the person I want to be with for the rest of my life is nothing short of a movie. I FUCKING LOVE YOU MOO MOO!!!

From Ashton
I love you so much baby and I dont know how I could ever describe this feeling that I have for you. You make me so happy. I wish we could be together forever. I love you!

maybe i was delusional but i wish things didn't turn out like that.
you were right. i was annoying. you could've just told me you didn't want me anymore back then.

ily queen. you are the strongest girl in the world. you deserve every ounce of happiness. thank you for being you.

I know you'll never be mine but I love you. I love your smile, your nose, the fact that you just make me happy even if you're not with me.

Why you ghosted me? I thought u were my best friend. You forgot bout my bday. U are stranger to me now.

i used to stay up with you and i always thought to myself “who needs stars when we got you” i love you

natalie, i love you so so much and i hate how we aren't friends anymore. it kills me that it has almost been a year. i miss you so much. please come back.

u are so beautiful u are so beautiful when you laugh it sounds like angels singing your smile is so beautiful. I miss u.

Hey girl. Do you ever think of me? I am happier on my own, due to me (not you.) Just wish we could have found a way to be happy together. Say hello to a little red bird!

There’s this quote from this song and it says “if I can take us back if I could just do that and write in every space the words I love you on replace” that’s what I want to do with you I love you and I still do and please just be with me for the rest of my life pick me to be there when you’re sad

you're the first good friend ive had in a while besides deja, i don't show it a lot but i really do appreciate you:) you always make me giggle like a freak and i feel like we have a lot in common (i was hoping to make this mysterious but ur gonna know its me anyways i love you very much lets kiss sometime again lol???)

the chemistry we’ve had since we became friends in freshman year is insane, it even scared me how fast i trusted you. but i’m so glad i did, i wouldn’t trade you for the world. thank you for sticking around this long (kiss me? haha jk idk i’m nervous..)

sorry about that last one, rocah hacked me, but the absolute joy you have brought into my life is immeasurable, you just being there to talk to when I was going through with breaking up with lucie really meant the world to me. I don't know how to repay you for really just making my life better. You are just so special to me, and I really value the memories we have together, thank you, I love you :)