Dear Murphy ? I wish you had apologised properly and realise the shit you did to me and that you are sorry.today I’m left still not knowing if you even realised the way you treated me. Or worse, that you do know and don’t care . What you said on your recent post was beautiful and meaningful and mature I just wish you had written one for me too . Now i just feel like I must be undeserving of an apology. I don’t want you to feel guilty I don’t want you to be in pain. I’m so happy you are growing and learning and feeling better about yourself I don’t want to take any of that away,I just want to know that you understood why I had to leave. I wish I never had too, but at that point I didn’t have a choice and please don’t blame me for that . I was scared I was hurt and we were both struggling. A 16 and 17 year old who both won’t to die shldnt be in a relationship together but we loved each other. If u ever see this I’m sorry . If u still don’t know why I had to leave you I might try tell u here . I have forgiven you and I love you and I understand you xx I just want to know if u ment it when u told me you hated me , when u said I was the least empathetic person you knew and tht I was the worst gf u have ever had, did u mean it when u said I never put u before anyone ? Did you not realise how hard it was for me to not see one of my best friends becouse u didn’t like her while she was going though a horrible time , how it hurt to quit my hobbies for you how I ruined my relationship with my family to spend time with you . Do u ever think about how I may feel now after having to stop you from hanging ur self , having seen you put a knife to ur wrist and threaten to kill your self in front of me . I have forgiven you I know how hurt you were but I still live with these images every day and night repeating themselves in my mind . Did u rlly mean it when I asked you not to threaten me or yell in my face when we were fighting becouse it scared me and you said tht tht was the point. I just wanna know these things, becouse nearly a year later and I still love you, I still miss you . I’d still do anything for you but I don’t know how to love myself without ur love I don’t know how to value myself without ur validation. But I’m still so happy tht I had the chance to fall in live with you , I have so many happy memories and you did help me a lot with my ED I will always love you Murphy I promise

Its weird to write this but you were the first deep crush i ever had.
I was just 12 but I think i really did love you, though i dont think u ever knew

I still write to you. I have no choice. I drown in the thought of you.

i hope one day you get to raise two beautiful girls like you want, you’re gonna be such a good dad.

I still think about you everyday you never left my mind/heart

i miss being your baby meow

I wonder if you ever think about me as much as i think about you I miss you

what happened to us? we could have been so good together.

I’m sorry for how I was then I’ve changed and grown but I know you’ll never believe me

I hope your doing well even if we’re not in each other life’s anymore I miss you tho

I haven’t meet someone new and I don’t want to wait either but I can’t move on either

Because it was real

I wish I knew what it would’ve been like with you.

You’re the right person at the wrong time. I think I’ll always wonder “what if”.

I have to be so careful with you. I think you feel what I do and it scares me.

I miss our meetings. I miss the spark I had with you.

I miss looking into your eyes and laughing with you I haven’t laugh liked that in awhile

I’m sorry I was scared and wasn’t ready

I don’t blame you, I would leave too

i still think about you, and i miss you already

I don’t think you’ll ever realise how much love I have for you.
Always.

I still feel like you’re my other half.. and now we don’t talk. Part of me wishes I never left.

Do you ever regret it?

I really like you.

You hold all the cards.

You were my safest person I’m sorry I hurt you i was dumb and scared

i miss you if your seeing this it’s me i love you please text me

I broke up with him & wanted to txt you but you won’t respond -0522
See u in June :)

i don’t understand how your brain works

Best friends forever.. an invisible chain will keep us together.

I’m sorry we didn’t grow old together, i love you.

i dont think i will ever forget you

I wish I shot my shot with you but I think that window has passed

I will wait until you’re ready. I miss you lots, I can’t move on bc I look for you in everyone