Your an amazing person & you deserve the very best, you are kind, sweet, loving, loyal & your smile is infectious

We should go to Europe and see the royal philharmonic orchestra and walk around in the city and slowdance in our hotel room. I just wanna run away from here where i can be with you without worrying about what my parent think. Its nice to feel compassion and feel cared about because all my life people have told me they loved me or cared about me buy no one has ever cared about me the way you do. I wish i had the capacity to care about you the way you care about me but im trying for you, i really am. And im trying to open up for you but its hard. I do care about you. I know you probably dont like the royal philharmonic orchestra as much as i do but i appreciate that you're listening to it with me right now(instead of chris udalla's stream). I just wanna kiss you and braid your hair and slowdance with you to the philharmonic. whats our song? we need to figure out what our song is. I just wanna give you so much love because you deserve it. You deserve compassion, and im trying to give you that. Im sorry if i ever seem like im leading you on, its just hard for me to stay with someone when they know so much about me, i hope you understand that.
Goodnight d(i feel like that could be my nickname for you)

heyy girrll we seee each otherrr we relate and be mind reading telepathically like no other like it’s spooky sometimes lowkey but anyways i’ll always admire your confidence and work ethic like idk how you do it sometimes also you’re such a strong person and idk if you always realize that but you are and never forget that you can accomplish ANYTHING☺️

lydia...my best friend
you r the most beautiful person i ever laid my eyes on. thank you for everything. i love you

I couldn't find a way to reach out for you but wonder how ur doing. hope ur mentally and physically fine:)

i hope u realize one day that i was deeply in love with u and would've dropped everything to be with u

I'm so very lucky to have you in my life bambi, and so very proud how far you've come, love you bub xx

I fucking love you. I never will stop. Even though you only think of me as a friend, I will always be ready to be more.

I regret telling you a lot of things because now i can't back out. Because now i'm too deep and you know too much. And i know i can't leave as much as you knowing so much about me makes me want to. I appreciate how much you care but i just want to to be honest with me because sometimes it feels like you're being too nice or you wanna say things but you hold back. i'm just scared

I never really believed in fate until I met you. we were so lucky to get a chance. most people aren't lucky enough to ever have a love like this, and yet I have it with you. that's why you'll always have all of me.

I said I would leave you alone but I just can't I need you I hope you had a great birthday I have a gift for you which I have had since August

i don't want anyone else, i only want you and i'll wait for as long as it takes. i care for you still and i will, forever.

thank you for always being there for me. i know i can be exhausting and i am so thankful you stayed with me.

idk why i miss u so much when u were so toxic and we clearly weren't healthy for each other at the time but i miss u, i do and i hope one day when we're ready we can try again, ily

i hope i can see you soon and your dream last night can come to life. i miss and love you so fucking much ?

ur still the first person i wanna text in the morning but i know i'm not allowed to do that anymore & it breaks my heart

hi beautiful. thank you for showing me how i deserve to be loved. you mean so much to me, now and always. i love you with my entire heart

hi love. i hope you truly know how much you mean to me. i adore the little things about you. how you have big dreams, how you love the color yellow. your birthday is the password to my phone. i love every bit about you, even the things you're insecure about. i hope you know every part of you is beautiful. you have the most gorgeous eyes and hair and body. more importantly you treat me so well. i don't know what i did to deserve you. i will be here forever, i promise. one day we won't be so far away, and i'll be able to take you on a sushi date and then stargaze with you. i wish you didn't live so far away because you're the best thing that's ever happened to me. i'll hold you in my heart until i can hold you in my arms. always and forever baby.

I wish I had told you that I loved you when I still had the chance to. I'm glad that you're happy now

fuck you.
i hate you.
youre good for nothing.
idk how you havent given up yet.
youre not good enough for him.
fuck off. nobody needs you.
sincerely, you.

this color isn’t right because you were gold. i wish i could pick gold. the color of fall sunlight through a car window when you compliment my eyes. i miss you.

thank you for always supporting me, im forever grateful to have you and i hope we stay friends for a long time

Your never gonna loose me. You could push me away to the ends of the earth and I would be back the next day. You keep me here, I keep you here. That’s a promise I’ll never break.

(periwinkle because of all the memories and u remind me of a clear riverstream in winter) I don't even know where to begin. I just don't want it to end. This friendship is one of the best things that has ever happened to me so I want to start off by saying thank you. Thank you so much, don't ever think for a second that I don't/won't continue to appreciate you okay? Sometimes I felt insecure about how you felt towards me because I can't see you through a screen but I guess I shouldn't because you're always there for me. The same goes for me to you. This might be long but you deserve it. Idk, I think I've just grown this fondness towards you as someone who is eternally grateful for everything. I mean it. Whenever I see u I just wanna run to some freaking hill so we can stargaze and break plates or something without a care in the world (as good friends) :)

Gosh I think about you all the time and how I see a future w u, but why rush something you want to last

I know we're done and I hurt you and im forever sorry for doing what i said i wouldnt, im sorry for getting so distant but im happy that were close again. you make me feel okay, like when i talk to you i just feel okay. I can't tell you things and then i do i always regret it but i just wanna feel okay and you make me feel okay and im gonna lose you soon and i dont wanna lose you. i just wanna be okay

How could you do that to me? TWO times? you meant everything to me, you really did. you say you love me but you don't do that to people you love, i hope you get what you want with him, as you've lost something so much more valuable. a friend who would have done anything for you and honestly still will.

you really fucked me over, i still think about you and i think i want to be your friend again because you bring me some comforted feelings. Its all bs anyway bc ur a shitty person idk i feel so shit when i see pictures of u. idk how i feel about u but its hard to let you go even tho u have probably forgotten me. you did effect me although you came into my life for a reason bc now i know i like girls. fuck you.

i miss denver. i miss you. you are my only friend left from there. not that i’m complaining, you are incredible ?

i have to fucking rewrite this an omfg okay do if youre lying to me and you did wrote those messages then read this and if you didnt write them then you can still read this but it might hurt.

I'm sorry that i can't give you what you want but can we please just stay friends? I think we were meant to meet each other but not to be more than friends. I'm sorry for only giving 5 percent when you gave me 500. and I'm sorry for basking in the attention you gave me. it was just so foreign to me. i can't do the reading between the lines. if you're as mad as you seemed in those letters then im sorry, i'm sorry i didn't realize how bad i was hurting you before i did damage. I'm sorry if i talked about eva too much but i just miss her and i can't have her back because i ruined that relationship. I'm a ruiner. and I know that sounds cheesy and I don't wanna be cheesy on the main but it's true. Whenever I have anything good, I mess it up. and i'm sorry i ruined this and i'm sorry that you're mad at me. Thank you for listening to me when I only talked about myself. I'm sorry that I couldn't give you better advice or offer more sympathy when you were going through things, and I'm really sorry if I made things worse for you. I wasn't trying. I just didnt wanna have to deal with the fact that I couldn't give you my all so I pushed it away or instigated it to the point where I had to back out. You can talk to other girls if you want an idgaf. if it hurts too much then you can leave if it makes you happy. i'm proud of you for being sober for so long. I know you worked hard for that. I'm sorry for hurting you

happy 17th birthday!! you don’t even know how much you mean to me. so much to say but so little space

we've always been friends but not the closest but recently youve really been there for me. youre one of the sweetest but also most asshole people i met and that why i love you. youre such an amazing person and im lucky to have you around.

you're the love of my life and you always will be. I'm the happiest when we're watching movies together and eating snacks. I can't imagine my days without you now, and I really hope I never have to find out what life is like without you.

our relationship is the most special thing i’ve ever had

happy late birthday. I didn't think about you on the day
I think I'm getting worse

how'd you move on so fast...

purple is your favorite color. I’m sorry that I can’t fix everything and I’m sorry for scaring you

I could never ruin our friendship but if you ever wanted more all you would have to do is ask

Its been a while since we talked, but I hope you are doing well.

Loving u from a distance mamas. No matter what. always all love for u no matter what. <3

i still love you even after all these years but i'm not sure if i meant anything to you

I miss you.

I’m sorry for everything I’ve done to you, I’ll always regret it an miss you, my curly fry <3

im always thinking of you and we dont even talk i love you

I wish we could try again.

Sometimes I wonder what it'd be like to kiss you.

Thank you for always being my best friend. You have saved me. I can never repay you.

sometimes i regret breaking up w u i have sm to tell you since then

Where are you? I can find you. I’ve missed you since I was forced to move away. Please be okay…

Anyway, don’t be a stranger