Unsent messages to MOOS

i miss us talking day and night in the vacation i just wish you would still like me and didn't hate me because of my depression. I told you almost everything and i loved you, the biggest mistake i made was thinking i was the only one you were talking to. You were nice to me till you became one of my classmates, you hated me and said i may not talk to you again. I cried everyday, I still do by the way, but we are in the same friendgroup and because of you everyone hates me now. I really loved you and I had to know you would hate me right away. I still care about you and I hope you wil have the ebst life you can get, but I'm sad because i know that i will never be in it again. I miss you everyday and I would love to have you back, but you fell in love with some girl that hates me. I wanted to tell you and show the stuff she had said to me, but I know you would hate me even more. The other day I saw you talking to her and pointing at me, I just knew these things weren't good and i wish i knew what you have said then. I really want to talk again is that so hard, it will be just one of the 20 girls you are talking with. You can save me from being dead but you only think about yourself. and now i want to kill myself and I hope you won't forget that you're the biggest reason why xxx