Unsent messages to MIRTALA

I wish I could tell you how I actually felt. Everytime you ask me how my day was, I have to say "good". Everytime you ask if I'm okay, I say "yes". Because I know that if I release all my pain and thoughts to you, you'll never understand, like the other times. Ever since I was a baby, you've said "family would always be there, in your highs and lows", where were you.. huh? Where was the family? Where was the showing? I dont expect anyone else to be there for me, but my own mother should be. But no matter the circumstances we go through, you're my mother, and I will always love you. To the moon and back mom