to merryn, im so sorry for the heartbreak i caused and i wish i couldve seen you one last time before you moved to nyc. if youre seeing this i want to say i miss you and im so proud of you and your new business. maybe we'll meet again but we'll have to see what the future holds.

It hurts to think youll never know how i feel about you so i guess I'll do it anonymously. I dont think youve ever noticed me but I cant help but spot you anywhere even if there are hundreds of people, from the moment I laid eyes on you in geography I've been hooked. Every single lesson I wait for you to turn around and meet my gaze but you never do, maybe you'll read this and think differently of me or maybe you'll never figure it out but I really really like you.

the moment i realised how in love with you i actually was will forever be engraved in my mind, you had tiny specks in your hair and stuck to ur eyelashes as you looked at me with your big eyes, at that moment i decided i wanted to spend the rest of my life with you but i fucked it up. i never deserved you and i guess i proved that. i love the person youve become just the same as the person you were when we were together. maybe youll see this or maybe you wont but if you do im so sorry. i know youve moved on but i wish i could say the same- i hope he treats you better than i did (fyi his goatee is ugly as fuck)

hey mer i’m sorry i love you forever