Unsent messages to MALCOLM

happy belated btw. i hope you’re doing well <3

even though you didnt see a future with me, i saw my entire future with you in it.

theres so many things left unsaid since 2023. i wish you stayed in my life forever, but im moving on

i wish we had more time

I thought I’d never love again, but I did. It was you. And now you’re gone. And I miss you daily.

Malcolm i love you so much i miss you every freaking day man please text me

i want to drink your words like wine.

Why cant we leave eachother alone? Why won't you trust me? Just call me your gf PLEASE.

Did you get a new number? New phone? Where are you man? Don’t want to be a bother just concerned:)

i still wait for you.

I love you so much. I’m sorry I put you through so much. I hope we can make it work this time around

You did deserve better and I'm sorry I let you down. I hope you can forgive me for that.

i miss you more than anything and i think that your absence has made me realize that i love you

Maybe one day it will still be you.

ily and ur passion for football, I hope I ever get the guts to actually confess my feelings for you.

I have a crush on you

You took advantage of my struggles. I trusted you. I still can’t tell anyone and that’s what hurts.

i wish i realized i was truly in love with that other guy before i had the chance to hurt you

Your perfect in everyway
I'm so scared to lose you.
I love you baby

When I saw the shooting star, I envisioned us old and together and happy.

Happy two years! I’ll kiss you one day.

I miss you and I miss us but we both changed and ik we'll never be together again I'm sorry cariño.

how do you tell someone you're desperate to hear their voice when they don't want to call ?

how did you carve out so much space for yourself in my heart? i miss you w everything in me

i don’t know what i’d do without you

I want you marry you someday. I love you, forever and always <3

i love you

I miss you soo much but you deserve so much better.

Hi again its me. Still broken, still waiting. So close, yet impossibly far away. Come back, my sweet

i don’t think i can ever move on from you, you were my first love but she was yours

I don’t even have the words - you broke me, and here I am still waiting

hi babe i love you i’m sorry i couldn’t fix us

you didn’t deserve that but i didn’t either

i didnt lie when i said ill always love you

I wish loving each other was enough.

You were the first person outside of my family that I ever truly felt love for. I felt as if God had sent me someone who was exactly like me and just like that...you changed into everything I wasn’t. I fought myself for years because you made me feel as if I was never good enough to be with you. It still hurts now.

hi, you stupid,
did i do something wrong? im aware its been off and on between us. somehow i thought within this mess, everything was fine. i may be out of love with you. however, you are the reason im still here. you saved me the night you called. though you will never know that. possibly we would never have worked. quite honestly, you might never have been my right person wrong time. i realize that now. even though things have changed... you are my first love. you always will be. i can never deny that. perhaps one day, we'll meet again. even though i don't love you anymore, if we're meant to be, we'll find each other again.

i miss you. i know i shouldn't miss you. i don't even know why i miss you. maybe i just miss the old you.

I was so mad and hurt that night that I let my anger get the best of me but I hope your safe and feeling better, I really wish we can solve our problems instead of fighting all the time
I love you

i'll never forget abt u. i think abt u all the time. i think abt little stories. ure all talk abt. its always been u. i showed it poorly. now we're strangers and i miss you.

its been almost a year since u broke up w me. idk how to cope w it. we were w each other 24/7 for most of highschool. so now i'm trying to unlearn all that. i miss you. i really wish you were still w me. i have grown so much and it was bc of u…

i rmbr when we were first getting to know each other. u told me me ur fav color was green. which is kinda cute bc ur bday is in the spring. i just thought abt it makes me sad:/

i really regret being cold. now ure gone and w someone else. i wish u gave me the chance. i was so dumb:/ now i miss you like crazy and cant get u out of my head. i love you

I wish you knew how much I actually loved you. I miss you a lot. Ill always have a place for you in my heart. good luck in life. all love

i don’t know what happened to make you leave, and i missed you longer than i should have because i thought you actually liked me. but i guess it’s the not knowing why you left that hurts more than not having you in my life anymore.

i deserve at least an explanation.

I wish I were you, being able to look at other people on social media and find them attractive? Being able to msg people without boundaries? being scared of getting used?

everytime i look at the scrunchie i found on the ground and we fought over to see who would get it, gives me butterflies everytime

if you see this, i hope you’re doing well. gaming wise, wellbeing wise, whatever. i hope your family is too. i hated to be the one to tell your parents but i hope i made it easier for you. i hope i made it believable that i broke it off. i’m sure it’s easier to explain. i hope.

i’m tired of playing and being in this vicious cycle with you. i get happy when you finally talk to me because it makes me feel like a FRIEND, but when you start giving me 1 word 2 word answers it breaks me. even more when you’re online and i know you are and you don’t say anything. cuz if you think the way you’re treating me is as “friends” then i feel miserable being your friend. i feel like shit having you as my friend.

i’m sure it’s enough stuff for you to reply to. just fucking tell me when you don’t want to talk. don’t give me stupid excuses. because you replied before. you just don’t want to put in effort to say anything. and that’s okay. i hope you can put the proper effort, and be a M A N to a good girl. not the stupid shit you pulled on me over and over again. it hurts. i keep rejecting advances every guy is taking. i cant imagine what they think. it’s just this subconsciousness that i have to be loyal to someone i don’t have anymore. someone that doesn’t even want me.

you say you want to be friends but you aren’t acting like one. you don’t treat your FRIENDS the way you treat me. and i know it. everyone knows it. i was waiting for you to step up as a friend, instead of stepping over me over and over, but you still won’t do that. and like anything, that’s okay. anything’s okay. whatever YOU want right? i wish you would just step up.

and your friend man. i dont think i’ll be watching your streams anymore. it just i- does it make me seems desperate watching your streams? i am after all your ex. i just want to support you. but the fact that i can’t even do THAT without someone saying SOMETHING, i just shouldn’t do ANYTHING. am i a bad person regardless of what i do? because i don’t think i’m as bad as everyone sees me as. and i can confidently say that.

good luck with the upcoming semester. do good okay? i hope you meet someone good. someone who loved me the way i did, supported you the way i did, stayed by your side through your problems the way i did. please stay safe for me, okay? don’t forget what happened. please tell your brother you love him. show him you love him. but just know, you fucking suck. you just suck. you’re a piece of shit. we all know that. but i won’t get in the way of your future endeavours. you deserve good things, even though you never thought i deserved that. go far, the boy who was once my love.