i dont know why i fell for you. it just kinda happened. i love the way you always spoke softly but surely and how you could always make me laugh. i miss you

you completely broke me into words that can’t be explained. you told me you would change and never did, you’re repeating your actions which means i love you more than you love me because i’ll do anything for you.

hey lex. i love you so much and am so thankful for our friendship. i dont know what i wouldve done if i didnt have you with the whole J situation. it all just really sucks. i didnt mean for any of this and i was too scared i would mess everything up and it ended up just making everything even worse. i feel like this is all my fault and i feel awful. my friends all say that i didnt do anything wrong but i dont believe that. if i didnt why would he hate me so much? it makes me feel awful that he doesnt believe me. i care about him so much and i would never try to hurt him but he doesnt believe me. i just want to know who keeps telling him all these lies. because whoever it is, is making all of this 2000x worse. and i lost one of my best friends because of it. i dont know when i will be okay again but i know its going to take a while. i miss talking to him so much. now the only time we talk its us arguing and it sucks. i wish i could go back in time and never tell him. then we'd still be close. i miss him.

whats up lex! i just saw your unsent message. i promise everything will be okay. dont be scared. just think of it this way, if you overthink it youre letting him win. he wants it not to work out. prove him wrong. i know you can. i love you, xoxo

i miss you so much. i'm so sorry for being a shitty person, you deserve so much better. thanks for all of the great memories.

you think that you’re the only one who’s getting hurt by this. think about me too? what would you have done if you were in my place? stop it please you’re hurting me

i wish i could help
you but i don’t know how. you keep drifting farther away from yourself and i’m scared

I am in so much pain but I can’t tell anyone and not even my closest friends, sorry if I leave one day.

will you read my message and know it's me? will you care? i hope you're okay. it's not fair that good people get this hurt. i wish you only the best because you deserve it.

We walked away like strangers in the street. Gone for eternity. We erased one another. So far from where we came, with so much of everything, How did we leave with nothing?

thank you. thank you for all the laughs and facetime calls and pranks we pulled on everyone. i appreciate everything you’ve done for me. things ended on the wrong note. i’m sorry . honestly it was definitely my fault. we may never speak again and that’s cool. i love you.

I miss you. I wish we could meet. Im sorry. I never meant to hurt you so badly. I just want you back.

god I miss you so much. you were in so much pain. I wish you would have told me. I love you endlessly dumbass.

this friendship is so bad for me. i know it. but when u come back it’s like everything around me stops and it’s good for just that moment. i told others how i wish we got to share at least one real moment together before it all ended. and now, because of that, every second of u that i get i treat it as the last. i remember to not only just hug u once, but twice, to always send the last text, to check up when you are sad, because for a while i didn’t get the chance to. But on the other hand, i overthink, and i’m consumed by you all over again. for a while i was ok, and compared to the horrible emotional state i was in once before, i look at myself as still being “ok”. but i know i’m getting bad again, the loss in appetite is coming back, the anxiety, the snapping in and out of emotions, but above all i havent cried for u. because i see u happy. and maybe it’s not with me, but that’s what keeps me going. i’ve accepted reality, and that u may never tell me how u really feel, and that life goes on with or without me.

i know you won’t ever love me back but i would do anything for you. even if that anything means letting you love someone else. i love you forever

i wish i never met you. sorry you're jealous of me, oh what shall i do abt it? stay mad, stay jealous, & stay obsessive. xoxo, your fav name

I still can’t believe I saw your asshole. Baby you need to shave that Afro. Btw A is doing amazing! Love him.

my life hasn’t been stable ever since things ended. now with u back in my life again, and after today from finally seeing each other, it feels like it’s all just back to normal right? except it’s not because as soon as u leave i feel the need to hug you tighter. the feeling of missing you is back to how it was once before. i’m so happy with what came out of today, but still always want more. and maybe that’s selfishness, because you’re with someone else, or maybe it’s just me being clueless, because i still feel something there. i hate being alone, and you stayed with me even longer because you know that, but now that u did leave, i hate the feeling of being alone even more. i just need things back to normal, and for you to be steady in my life again. i know that takes time, but i keep telling myself that if i love you this much, it’s worth the wait. i’ll suffer from the “maybe one day”thoughts until i hopefully overcome them, not for me, but for you because i know that now you really do need me more than ever. now i am seeing how much we both need each other in each of our lives.

remember when we fantasized about meeting in person? living together on a cottagecore farm? we were so naïve to think we can actually work out as lovers. really, we should have stayed friends, though im sure we would have eventually stopped talking either way. i dont think i miss you and i cant remember much anymore, but i know that you made me happy. i thank you for that, and for the year(s) we had together with no issues. if you see this, yes, its who you think it is. if you're doubting it, i'll give you some hints. the way i type, long distance relationship, two years, the o with two dots on top. the last one is a dead give away, that is, if you remember me. i hope you dont honestly. its better that way. thank you for everything, lexi. i wish you all the best.

I felt myself on the edge of falling in love with you. I let myself dream about us... and then you were gone, just like my dreams.

you make me so happy, the way you smile, the way you laugh. i feel it is physicly imposible to look at you smile and not smile back you make me happier then anyone has ever before, thank you

it hurts me to know you would still run back to her, even after all we have been through. Why am I not enough?

You are beautiful
You are kind
You are strong
HOW do you not see these wonderful things i see in you?! Believe in yourself bro~! Believe because i do!! Thank you for being a friend who is always there for me :)

i miss you so much, i miss our conversations, i miss our stupid jokes, i miss when we used to make fun of the boys in our class, i miss staying up till 2am on facetime with you. im not doing well and i have nobody to talk to. i wish i could change what happened. i hope that we will be able to talk to each other again soon. you are still my best friend and you always will be. thanks for everything.

you are making my life a living hell and you don't even realize it, you surpassed me, took everything i had, and never looked back

I used to love you more than anyone I've ever known, but now I hate you more than anything. I genuinely feel hate towards you

hey lexi,

you made me realized i was bi, but then i found out that ur a really shitty person and ur terrible and toxic and you gossiped behind people's back and made my friend feel so bad about herself. I hope you can realize that you need to change for the better and learn from your mistakes. and stop dating ur friend's exes.

I told you about this and I wonder if you'll ever see it. you became one of my closest friends thank you for being there I love you Lexi wexi.

i miss you baby i miss you so much it hurts to not talk to you

I will never forget the way you would always lie to my face and lie to others. Grow up pls

i miss you bub :(

I wish I said it earlier, I wish it was me

can you be my first and last?

I've known you for a week, but you've cured a pain that I can't tell my own mother.

it was easy with you. i wish we could've met in different circumstances.

im still really confused about us and all. i hope you have an amazing life, ilysm.

Nobody likes slipping out the back door, I can't crawl back to you anymore. ✌️ Please love life

my beautiful girl- i’m so happy you’re back in my life and i hope i never lose you.

I wish u would open up 2 me. I will always be someone u can count on. You are loved. You have that.

I blocked you to protect my heart..

i’m still in love with you but you don’t want me.. it hurts

I love you so much, I don’t know why I acted like I didn’t care about the breakup

I don’t believe in evil but I know you’re close

if I knew the consequences, I wouldn't have risked our friendship, I hope you will talk to me

stop treating me like i'm not there i care about you alot but sometimes i think you don't care.

i think about you everyday. i miss you so much..

I wish I was with you, that would have changed everything. Now it might be too late

i wish i could be better for you. everything you needed and wanted. im sorry for being afraid.

I never stopped being in love with you. I miss you more every day. You’re the one that got away.

I wish you would’ve chose me in the end not him. He’ll never love you like I do.

Maybe we make it another lifetime.. but not this one. You will never hear from me again.