Unsent messages to LEX

Beste Lex, ik nam met je omdat ik dacht dat het een grap was dus het de volgende dag wel weer uit zou gaan maar nee we hadden 1,5 jaar en uiteindelijk begon ik gevoelens voor je te krijgen. Jij was een van de eerste jongens die ik ooit echt leuk heb gevonden. Je had wel echt mn hartje gebroken toen je het uitmaakte want ik moest 3 nachten achter elkaar janken maar t maakt niet uit want ik ben blij dat ik je niet meer spreek en de basisschool tijden nu eindelijk achter me kan laten. Groetjes Maud

i really like u, ur the only person i've ever genuinely did. i hate that i can't say this to your face and what i hate more is that im certain you don't like me back. i just want to be by your side as long as i can, this way i can be happy. i just really appreciate you and the way u care abt me when no on asked u too, i find that really comforting. you feel like home to me more than my actual one. you make life worth living. i love u

i'm so glad i met you bc we truly get each other. i love talking to u everyday and i hope we never stop being friends.

is the only reason im ok without you because you are 900 miles away instead of 1? whats gonna happen when we are back home?

I’m more than happy to have you by my side. I genuinely have no clue where I’d be without you. I’m proud of you, you’ve been through so much this year it’s insane. Just know I’m not going anywhere; you won’t have to do it alone ever again.

i really love you. but i can’t tell you. you have her. your sister likes her. she hates me. she’s perfect. so perfect. i wonder if i did something wrong. or if i could have done something
better. anyways i love you bubs

I really hope you know I'd still do absolutely anything for you whenever you wanted. Forever my girl.

im so happy that you came in my life honestly. idek how we became friends but im not complaining asf. you've become my person n ily idk y thats hard for me to say 2 u lol. but yeah if we ever stay or drift from being friends just know you really made me happy and it was nice to have someone know the *full* you. because thats how i felt with you!! i wish this universe gives you the greatest life. i love u sm and ur amazing

isn’t it pretty ironic how you were there when my ex cheated on me, told me i didn’t deserve it, then you went and did the same to me? i hate that i miss you. i hate that i still constantly think about you. i hate that after 6 months i still can’t move on because i can barely let anyone touch me because they just don’t feel like you. you were my bestfriend. why’d you ruin what we had? why’d you mess it all up? we were supposed to be perfect. you promised to do things right this time around and you broke it. and somehow my heart still wants you. i miss you. i miss you always. maybe in another life i had you longer. i’m okay with that. i love you always.

u didn’t want me to be with somebody else but u didn’t want me either. i wish u would’ve just left me alone

I wish you loved me back. All i want right now is to have you in my arms and to be able to call you mine.

If I told you how highly I think of you it would feel like a goodbye and I never wanna be ready for that.