I know I get too caught up in the past you and that things have changed but I don’t think I could ever truly hate you

Hi babe. Are you okay? I feel like you haven't been looking after yourself, and that makes me upset. I looked after you when no-one else did, I was prepared to be that mother figure for you forever. But instead, you let us be bullied by your own mother instead of ever standing up to her. I had to walk away from the one thing I have truly ever loved in my life because you chose to let her define your worth and your value over yourself. You gave up. You were too scared. You hurt me to the point I feel like I will never love as deeply or as carelessly as I did with you. I feel empty and emotionless because you couldn't talk to her. You gave up on us, not me. I would have given you an entire lifetime of love. I always will. You'll just never know about it.

I have so much and so little to say to you.
If it even was us.

i love u

I’ll yearn, and yearn, and yearn, and yearn until there’s nothing else to yearn about.