Unsent messages to LANA
From: ABC
To: Lana
Date: January 18, 2021, 4:35 pm UTC
Hiya! You probably already know how I feel about you by now, because I often tell you :). However, I said I'd send you one of these so that's exactly what I'm gonna do! You mean the whole world to me, really. I love you with my entire heart. You're always there for me, and I know that sometimes I don't deserve you as my best friend but I'm truly grateful for you. Eternally grateful. You're so lovely, understanding, and I'll love you for all eternity. I always know I can go to you whenever I have something really good or really bad on my mind and I always just want to tell you. And when I'm hesitant to say when I'm sad, sometimes you clock that I'm upset and you somehow always manage to make me feel better, even if it's by just talking to me for a little while. I really want to do that for you too, but I guess you must not get upset very often, either that or you don't like talking about it. Because I swear I never do anything to help you. Hey, maybe I do, maybe I don't. But you're still my best friend and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! I miss seeing your beautiful smiling face in person every week, but I'm also grateful that I get to see it over a screen every week rather than not at all. Even when you leave, I won't ever forget you (if we ever lose touch, that is--which I really hope we don't) and I'll always think of you as my inspiration and big sister. I love you to the moon and beyond, you stunning human being. I hope you're good, and that you're happy because that's something I really want.
You're the best,
Yours always,
B
From: ABC
To: Lana
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:05 am UTC
i didnt think you would leave but you did it only hurt when i realized we would never hold hands again
From: ABC
To: Lana
Date: November 12, 2020, 3:35 am UTC
You were different from my other best friends and it wasn’t in a good way. You weren’t a good friend. You were super toxic and got into stuff I shouldn’t have been. You didn’t believe me when I tried to tell you the truth you didn’t believe me. Once we stopped being friends I felt bad and almost went back to you if it weren’t for my new friends. Fuck you!
From: ABC
To: Lana
Date: October 16, 2020, 11:14 pm UTC
hi baby i love you so much and you make me the happiest person ever and i want to see you already i miss you a lot
From: ABC
To: Lana
Date: October 14, 2020, 7:59 pm UTC
hey bby, i miss u so much i think of u almost everyday, i ruined our friendship in elementary school it’s all my fault i miss u so much bro i miss the way we laughed together so hard, u made me feel so happy. i hope u feel the same way. i always tell myself it’s my fault which it is, if i hadn’t ruined our friendship we would’ve been friends right now, it wouldn’t be so weird between us whenever we see each other. i love u.
From: ABC
To: Lana
Date: October 8, 2020, 5:37 am UTC
Haha you were my first crush, but I didn’t have the balls to do anything about it and I’m glad I didn’t.
From: ABC
To: Lana
Date: October 8, 2020, 5:34 am UTC
Haha you were my first crush, but I never had the balls to do anything about it. I’m glad I didn’t though.
From: ABC
To: Lana
Date: September 13, 2020, 5:21 pm UTC
Do you think we could’ve lasted if you hadn’t moved? Do you still think about the broken promises we had that you broke? Have you cried over me every single day since 2015? because I do.
From: ABC
To: Lana
Date: September 11, 2020, 6:04 pm UTC
Hey! Just wanted to say that I really miss you. We're back at school now, so even with the new rules, it's not like we're far away. But that's not why I miss you. I miss you because you're shutting me out now. You may not know what's going on with yourself but that doesn't mean you can't let me help you. Anyways, I miss YOU.
