Unsent messages to KODA

i just want you to love me like i love you

why ):

im scared ur eyes are moving other places or that you wish i was somebody else. i hope im wrong ):

i cant wait to spend every changing season with you. living feels so exciting by your side

i still have the playlist i never deleted it

ty for being my friend. i’m so happy to have you in my life<3

id always find you

I miss the times where we’d talk for hours.

Why did u pretend to love me for so long

i wish i could hold you, i really miss you. i feel so homesick

look at us you and i back at it again

i missed coming here to tell you i love you

i miss you everyday

I'm really unsure to be honest about if we will ever get back together again I loved you and I still do and I never wanted to break up with you but I had to. I loved thinking about our future together we were continuously planning daily. It was an escape from reality for a couple of moments before I had to be brung back. Just wish I could build a time machine and make it so I'm old enough to get out of the house so we can be together, unfortunately I cant :( . I think the worst part about all this is knowing I'm never gonna find another you and I'm going to be stuck thinking about you and the life we could of had together for the rest of my life... -zax (sorry for all the run-on sentences lmao)

I was having an okay day for once, I hadn’t cried yet. And then I looked through our old messages and ruined my own day. Honestly fuck you for leaving n getting my hopes up. I really thought we’d work out. Like always it didn’t and now I’m left here hurting wishing it’d go back :/

What happened lol? I miss talking to you so much. I don’t know what I did wrong but I really wish I knew so we could go back to normal. I always knew this was going to happen because it always does but I don’t know I thought you were different for once. I got my hopes up for no reason and now I’m left here wondering where I went wrong. You always made me so happy. I really need that happiness right now. I’m struggling and the chats we used to have kept me sane. But now I have no one and nothing. You made so many promises and told me so many lies even though you’re the one who said lying is a deal breaker. Looks who’s the fucking liar. Why the fuck would you do this? I don’t understand. I told you about other guys and how it always ends and you said it’d be different. I really believed you. I’m sorry I keep randomly texting you but I need to. I just can’t do it anymore. Can we at least still go to nyc please? I need something to look forward to, something to be alive for. Right now I’m just existing but with you I was living. Please come back luv :/

i think i still like you i dunno, your a peice of shit but your so cute and your personality and i just love you but i shouldnt because im in love with someone else but like wtf is wrong with me lolol

Why did we end up this way, these bruises will take time to heal, the pain we both suffered caused by your pre empting of the worst for us. But all is true, not once did I go behind you and make trouble for myself. I know you will never believe me, but I can't keep sitting here hoping you'll one day come around.

we may not ever talk again but you have so many people who appreciate you dummy. i hope you find endless happiness okay

we may not ever talk again but you have so many people who appreciate you dummy. i hope you find endless happiness okay