i loved you so much. you were my first crush but i knew i was never going to be with you, and it crushed me. i wanted you and i still do but i know you would never want me simply because im not good enough for someone like you. im not enough and it hurt me for so long just knowing that i wasnt enough for anyone especially you the one person i wanted. you were my first love and heartbreak all at once lol and you had no clue. im happy that were friends but it hurts you know? you broke me. calling me fat im so fucking insecure but then being nice the next day? i cant even bring myself to hate you you are the reason why i cry every single night. i want you. only you.

i love you and your hair so much