Unsent messages to KATELYN

idk if you will see this but probably not. i am so sorry i am not being the best friend right now. i miss you and i miss hanging out. i’ve just been going through a lot at home. i keep having panic attacks and it’s freaking me out and most days i just want to sleep and not do anything. i try and send you videos to let you know i’m thinking of you but it’s just tough right now. i miss you and i’m glad you are still being my friend even though i don’t text you or call like i should.

I hope you’re doing great.. I see that you’re an eGirl now and I just love that for you.. Good luck in life ?

from ariana a.
im truly sorry from the bottom of my heart for any pain i caused upon you,i want you to know that i never had any intentions for doing any type harm to you,
i do and say a lot of things without thinking some times,what i said and did to you was one of those moments.i would take back A LOT of things i said and did if it was happening now,,
every time i look back at this situation i realize i was the one in the wrong,the way i treated you as a friend was horrible and i’m sorry for that
you were one of my first friends so i barely knew anything about having friends and how to treat them and how much my words affect people. i’m still learning how my words affect people but since then i’ve learned so much on how to treat people better,that is in no way an excuse for the horrible way i treated you but i hope it explains it.
again im writing this bc ive been wanting to say this for a while now but i didn’t know where to contact you
i don’t really expect you to see this or even accept this apology, and you don’t have to,but i still feel like you deserve an apology on how i handled the situation
this isn’t me trying to be your friend again or anything but i still wanna apologize?
it’s very understandable if you still hate me after reading this,i don’t blame you in the slightest, i have so many regrets on how i treated you as a friend.but i just wanted to let you know how much i regret how i treated you.
that’s it ig
have a nice day/night or whatever time you’re reading this

Hey girl. It’s been a while since we spoke and everytime I think about you I get this flash of memories of us when we were best friends and I really miss that. I’m sorry for anything that hurt you but you hurt me to and I haven’t stopped hurting :(

hey bub. im sorry i messed it up, im sorry i wasn’t enough. i hope you know you had my whole heart, i hope you know you made a mistake. i told what i was scared of and you still broke me. countless hours, memories, i knew you like no other. try not to break anyone else.

you helped me find my true self. i know i’ve hurt you in the past and i will never forgive myself for that. i will always appreciate you though.

i'm so pathetic for still wanting you after everything. i wonder all the time why you are so irresistible to me. i know you have forgotten about me now. i can only imagine you, i can only think of how us talking have become nothing but memories. but i'll never forget you. in all honesty, apart of me still wants you to like me. is it selfish? i just crave to have your attention again. i want to see you again. the day i do, i can only imagine how quiet i will go. i just miss you so much. and it's funny because in reality we didn't know eachother that well. i just knew the feeling of wanting someone, i knew the rush of needing someone, and i traced that feeling back to you. i think that you think i hate you. i regret letting you go, i regret not waiting for you even if waiting meant being hurt a million times again. it's something about you. i have no idea what it is. you're just so perfect to me. even your flaws are beautiful to me. you will never read this, at least that is what im assuming. but if you are, please tell me why you did it. please tell me why you didn't hesitate to act like i don't exist for the fourth god damn time. were you afraid of what people would say? i am too. i just wish you knew that i would never let you put up with people and their fucking sick words alone. i miss you. so much. think of me please, ok? think of me when it rains, or think of me when someone mentions europe. we were supposed to go there, together. it's so silly of me to be like this. all for the girl who broke my heart.

i wish you could understand how much you mean to me. please don’t leave me. your life is worth do much to me

i'm bi but i don't know how to tell you and attraction is fluid so i don't want to spring it on you if i'm not sure. i think you might distance yourself if you find out.

I hope you get soaked on days you didn't prepare an umbrella, I hope your cats become distant from you, I hope you experience the same guilt, shame, and inadequacy I felt when we were best friends.

We were besties and I thought it was forever. You told me “I found someone else” It’s been 3 years. I still cry about it.

lol remember when you constantly lied to me and got mad at me for every little thing??lol fun times ?

Thank you for sticking with me. I love you like a sister and no words can express how much you have saved me. You bring me so much joy!

I will always love you. No matter what. Because even though you hurt me so many times, I’d take you back in a heartbeat.