Unsent messages to JAYSON

I will never stop loving you. You and me against the world

i need my honey back :( this was always your color to me please text me i miss u so much </3

sorry for being bad to you. that was just my response from how you treated me at first

I despise how complicated this all is.

You used me.

Finding omens of you, effing everywhere. Your name plastered on weird things, your job popping up.

We’re counterparts, you dip. You don’t see that yet?

I don’t need you to be extraordinary. I just want to give you this love that’s rightfully yours.

I’ll be your peace someday. I wish I knew what you were so afraid of- I’d help you squash it.

I’ve painted you so many more things. I’m afraid to approach you now. :/

im done with you. just remember youre the one that ruined it with your insecurities. bye sweet boy

I don’t know what to do with myself. How did you trigger this?

You were the last person I thought would do that. Even your mom wants you to be with me again

I really hope you’re okay. I fear sometimes we’ll never get where we’re supposed to together.

how could you do that to me after you said you promised me you would never

I’m in love with you.

I would have given you the world. You ruined me. I don’t know why I still love you.

You are and forever will be my other half, my answered prayer, my soulmate, and my home.

i’m sorry. miss you.

It’s always been you pls give me a sign you like me

hiiii my jayson, i love you so much. i hope you never forget that

I wish you would just communicate with me...

i wish we could’ve stayed as those young naive kids that fell in love. i wish you didn’t change.

i stood with you at your lowest but you couldn’t stand with me at mine and i hate you for it.

you are my world and everything more, thank you for being you. i love you to the stars and beyond

You'll always have a special place in my heart. I wish you nothing but the best

i still believe u r my soulmate.

i will never stop loving you.

Why don’t you understand you’re the only one I want, you’ve always been my person. I can’t imagine falling in love with someone else that isn’t you, man. You will always be my person, I love you idiot. Thank you for loving me and thank you for actually being there for me when no one else was. I miss you, and hopefully one day you realize how much you mean to me. In another lifetime loser

you were right. you are everything im going to want out of life and a lover for the rest of my years here.

Hey Jayson! I miss talking to you its been a couple of days now. I just want to tell you that I love you, a lot and I will always love you no matter what we go through. You mean so freakin much to me and I know I don't mean that much to you which is okay. You have been there for me giving me advice,helping me be happy, putting a smile on my face every day. You make me smile and i can never thank you enough for coming into m life.

I knew you fell out of love, I was just trying too hard to keep you with me that I ignored it and ended up hurting myself even more till I had enough. I know you cared about me but the love was not mutual it is not just about gifts but having you here with me. I wish you could've understood but I guess you were too caught up with your friends that I did not want to bether you and make it seem im controlling. I know you like her I really did but I was with you and you did not want to hurt me, but i got hurt seeing the way you looked at her instead of me. Now youre cosnatly hearting her pictures and I can't stop myself from constantly checking if you still are or not. I do not undertsand what I did wrong, I know I'm not as exciting as she is but i know dam well I care about you more than she does I bet she does not even know you favorite color or even your favorite animal. I know she doesn't even see how your eyes light up when you receive litle notes or oragami papers. I hope that outting to the beach with her was fun and I hope that you realize that from that point i realized I was not anything more but a place holder. I hope you find happiness since you were not with me. I just want you to know that you should stop dissing me on social media when i did not do anything to you. I'm not a bad person and never will be, stop fueling your ego.

I just wanted to apologize. I hope you're doing good. Even though we didn't click, I still wish you the best. You have goals in your life you told me, and I see that drive you got. I also see the amazing things you're going to be doing in the future. But for now, this is an apology from me. I'm sorry for playing with your emotions because this backfired on me. I think it's time for me to let this all out somewhere and for you too. I know at times you feel lost in your life and alone, but don't worry. you got this. I know you do. I do believe in you. you're so smart and your ideas are creative. I'm sorry for how things ended between us. And I know you will forgive me. Because that's how you are. I just needed to let this all out. I wish you the best always and I hope the future brings you the love you truly deserve and happiness along with it. All the love.

You fucked me up. You were the first person to show me non-toxic love and loved me the way I always dreamed of but the moment I finally said the feeling was mutual you ghosted me out of nowhere with no answers. I get sick to my stomach every time I see your face or a car that looks like yours but yet I can never bring myself to hate you

To my first true love, thank you.
I’m sorry we didn’t work out in the end, but it was probably for the best. I will always love you and you will always have some part of my heart. Years from now when we’re all grown up, we’ll look back and remember the good days. We were definitely worth something, that value will never be loss just transferred to your next love to my next love and onward. I’m still always here for you.