Jasher, I've been in love with you for two years but we've known each other for maybe 8 now. The way my body succumbs to your presence is warming, the way my Pinterest board is of wedding ideas of me and you together, the way our families make fun of us, the way I spend my nights thinking of our conversations our moments our words. When I heard you used to shake and sweat knowing you would see me soon makes me smile so bright, knowing I do the same exact thing. The way we are so awkward around each other but both know we have feelings for each other is so intimate. I'm sorry you thought I was dating Ben, he's just one of my very good friends. It hurt me to hear that you liked someone else, almost like the nights we spent up with each other meant absolutely nothing. I hate how you probably don't even know my birthday, or realize how much I care about you. I hate the fact that we're so shy I wish we weren't so incredibly awkward. I pray every day to God that we're soulmates, we have to be. We are. My love for you will be everlasting God forbid we're not for each other, you will always be the man I love. Oh, Jasher please just let's confess and get this over with let's be happy together let's make memories we can tell our children, let's pray together, and build our relationship with God together, please can we stop playing around. I'm in love I've known you were for me since July,15th 2018. Jasher. I love you. So so so so so so much. I don't think you are able to comprehend my love for you. I love you. My forever. My yellow. My Jasher.